While You Guys Are Focusing on The Class Idol, I’m Secretly Trying to Make that Cute and Voluptuous Girl Mine! - Chapter 16

Karin’s POV (1)

Since I was a child, I’ve always lived with the expectations of everyone around me.

‘Karin-chan is really cute, isn’t she?’

‘She’s just like an angel.’

‘She’s everyone’s idol.’

Everyone around me praises me.

‘Thank you very much.’

I’m happy to be praised, but at the same time, I’m always worried of not meeting everyone’s expectations.

That’s why maybe I’ve given up on what I really want to do all this time.

I wanted to play in the mud with everyone else.

I wanted to get scrapes, bruises and still laugh.

But such things…are not allowed for me.

I can’t do such things because of everyone’s expectations.

Everyone is really kind to me.

They don’t let me do reckless things.

As I enter middle school and hit puberty, I became more aware of the differences between boys and girls.

In other words, I became more aware of our attractiveness.

Some kids my age start dating around this time.

The same goes for me…

‘Karin, I love you. Will you go out with me?’

I got confessed by a boy who is said to be the most handsome boy in my middle school.

People around us always said that we should be together, so…

‘…yeah, sure.’

We ended up dating.

At first, it was a platonic relationship…

‘…then, Karin. Can we do it?’

“Y-Yeah…”

After a few months dating, my boyfriend asked me so.

I accepted reluctantly, but deep down, I was feeling uneasy and unsure.

After all, I was still in middle school.

I wanted to give my first time to someone I love.

To be honest, there was a boy who caught my attention more than him.

He was always alone in the corner of the class.

While no one bullied him, everyone made fun of him.

But I had always been interested in him…

Yet, I couldn’t get close to him.

If I do that, surely, I will let everyone’s expectations down.

So, I suppressed my feelings and never talked to him.

And then, that incident happened.

My boyfriend was absent from school for several days.

Worried, I visited his house after school.

I got a spare key from his parents.

I rang the bell but no one opened the door.

Thinking it’s because he wasn’t feeling well that he couldn’t open the door, I enter his house using my spare key.

‘Sorry for coming so suddenly…’

The moment I went inside the house, I saw my boyfriend with a girl naked in the living room.

She was a girl from the same class as us.

I’m sorry to say this, but she was quite a chubby girl.

‘K-Karin, this is…’

He tried to make up an excuse, but of course I didn’t listen.

I dashed out of the house and ran straight home.

Once I got into my room, I lie on the bed and cried all night.

Afterwards, he apologized many times, but it was already too much for me.

I couldn’t forgive him.

I didn’t tell anyone about the affair.

When people asked about it, I just said that it was because we were busy with exams.

Everyone accepted that explanation.

In fact, they even praised us for being mature about it.

Even though I was mentally exhausted because of that incident, I managed to pass the entrance exam for high school.

Usually, when a girl becomes a high school student, they call it their ‘high school debut’.

They will try their best to attract everyone’s attention.

However, I didn’t want to attract too much attention anymore.

I thought about doing the opposite, like a ‘reverse’ high school debut.

Wearing glasses, going for a plain look.

But…

‘Karin-chan, you’ll still be an idol in high school too, right~’

‘I’m sure you’ll be very popular in high school~’

‘You’re really cute after all~”

…as expected, everyone around me won’t allow it.

The reason of my existence is just to be everyone’s idol.

It feels like I’m suffocating, it’s painful.

In the end, when I entered high school, I became everyone’s idol again.

As it happens, there is another guy who is said to be the most handsome boy in school in my class.

His name is Yusuke Kiryu.

Everyone is saying that we are perfect together.

We are already almost being recognized as a couple.

However, there’s another boy I’m interested in.

Yoshikazu Mine.

He’s always alone in the corner of the classroom.

Similar to him, who I had a crush on during middle school.

But I feel he’s somewhat different.

Why?

Because for some reason, while everyone is focused to me, the idol, he seems to be looking at a different direction.

At the end of his gaze is someone who reminds me of a person from my middle school days.

A chubby girl.

Ikumi Tawarada.

His gaze is always directed to her.

For some reason, the moment I realized so, my heart feels extremely anxious.

The voices around me sound distant.

Surely, I must be much lonelier than him.

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I don’t even have the freedom to choose the committee that I’m interested in.

“Karin-chan, why don’t you join the Sports Festival Committee with Yusuke-kun?”

“Yeah, yeah, you two would make a great team!”

Everyone is so excited, I can’t refuse…

“…alright, I’ll do it then.”

Kiryu-kun also agrees, living up to everyone’s expectations.

Meanwhile, I’ve been wondering about him all this time.

Mine-kun…which committee will he choose?

“Umm, does anyone want to be a member of the beautification committee?”

When the teacher said so, everyone went silent.

The Beautification Committee…it might indeed seem boring.

But it’s not a bad committee.

Rather, I’m actually interested in it.

If possible, I’d like to switch to that…

“…ah, then, I’ll do it.”

Suddenly, a girl raises her hand gently.

It’s Tawarada-san.

“Oh, Tawarada, thank you. So, we need one more person…”

The teacher looks around the class.

It seems like no one is going to volunteer…

“Um, well…then, I’ll do it too.”

A boy hesitantly raised his hand and said so.

“Oh, Mine-kun. Alright, I’ll be counting on you.”

“Yes…”

…Mine-kun.

As I thought, you’re interested in Tawarada-san…

It hurts a lot, deep within my heart.

What is this feeling?

It’s frustrating, it’s painful…please help me.

Is this…my heart’s voice?

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After school.

“Karin-chan, let’s go karaoke together”

“Ah…y-yeah.”

Honestly, I’m not really in the mood, but…

I hesitate to refuse again.

They are the kids who are on the top of the social hierarchy.

The popular kids.

Almost everyone will clear a path for them in the hallway.

The fact I’m at the centre of that…it hurts.

It’s kind of embarrassing…

“…ah, sorry. I forgot something in the classroom.”

“Eh, really?”

“Yeah, sorry, you guys go ahead.”

“Okay then. Hurry back~”

“Yeah.”

With a smile, I part ways with them.

For a moment, I regain peace of mind.

Being alone feels really peaceful.

Well, there are still gazes from people around me…

But soon enough, I hope my popularity fades away.

Then, when I arrive at my classroom…

“Hmm?”

He’s there.

With a startled expression, he looks at me.

“…Matsubayashi-san?”

Ah, he called me by my last name…

Somehow…I feel happy.

“Umm…you’re Mine-kun, right?”

Ah, I’m unexpectedly coy, am I not?

Even though I know his name, I’m pretending to be hesitant.

No actually…I’m just really embarrassed.

“Y-Yeah…”

Okay, calm down.

Keep a cool head…

“I forgot something in the classroom…can you let me in?”

Alright, in times like this, my usual idol smile comes in handy.

But, can I even be proud of that…?

“Uh, sure…”

Mine-kun seems a bit hesitant for some reason.

“…go ahead.”

“Sorry.”

With those words, I enter the classroom.

I feel happy to be able to talk to Mine-kun.

However, that happiness shattered in an instant.

“Ah…”

I can’t believe my eyes.

But she’s really there.

The person standing there is someone who is the complete opposite of me, not someone everyone admires, but…

I envy her.

“Matsumabayashi-san?”

“Tawarada-san…?”

That is the first contact between her and me.