38

Gachagachagacha-BANG! Bam!

The door was flung open with such force that it nearly came off its hinges.

“Unforgivable!”

And there she stood, the super beautiful girl with her ever-present smile. For some reason, her breathing was slightly ragged, and her cheeks were flushed, making her look even more alluring.

“Nayuta…chan?”

“I heard that absence makes the heart grow fonder, so I thought I’d try leaving you alone for a while to observe you, but that saying is just nonsense. They say hunger is the best spice, but truly delicious things are still delicious even when you’re full. It’s obvious that being together all the time would foster stronger feelings. I can’t bear it any longer. In fact, I should be praised for enduring for almost a whole day!”

She nodded vigorously to herself, as if in agreement with her own conclusion.

“Ah, um… Nayuta-chan, this, well, I… got you some flowers.”

“Wow! What a lovely bouquet!”

“I, I thought they would… suit you, so… I got you a present.”

“…Hmm. So, the despicable Masayoshi-kun is trying to be cute, huh? If I leave money around, you’ll just spend it all on things like this, won’t you? If that’s the case, I can’t just hand over money to you so easily, can I?”

“Do… Do you not like it?”

“No, no, not at all. Thank you very much for this wonderful bouquet of flowers.”

Nayuta, who had received the bouquet of white flowers, hugged it gently and smiled like a flower herself.

“So, shall we go to the bed?”

Gash!

She grabbed my shoulder with surprising strength and guided me towards the bed. Her eyes seemed to be bloodshot, and I got the impression of a hungry polar bear facing a delicious meal.

Then, without any hesitation, she pushed me down on the bed.

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“(Gesō)”

“(En’en’en)”

As always, she squeezed me dry, like wringing out a wet towel. She twisted and turned me with such force that not a single drop was spared. I was flattened like a damp cloth.

But thanks to that, my mind feels clear. All the evil and distracting thoughts have been wiped away, and I feel pure.

I faced Nayuta on the bed, both of us naked and sitting seiza-style.

“Now, listen, Masayoshi-kun.”

Nayuta spoke to me in a lecturing tone.

“You are an irredeemable villain.”

“Yes.”

“You are the worst scum.”

“Yes.”

“You are a cowardly and despicable piece of trash.”

“Yes.”

“You are a liar who deceives people without hesitation.”

“Yes.”

“You are not someone who should be forgiven.”

“Yes.”

“You must atone for the sins you have committed.”

“Yes.”

“You must not turn away from the sins you have committed.”

“Yes.”

“You must not commit new sins.”

“Yes.”

“The sins you have committed will not dissapear.”

“Yes.”

“You must continue to face the sins you have committed.”

“Yes.”

“You must continue to atone.”

“Yes.”

“You will never be forgiven.”

“Yes.”

“You must take responsibility for your mistakes.”

“Yes.”

“Masayoshi-kun, what is the sin you have committed?”

“……I deceived you, Nayuta Shirai, with despicable means and forcibly took away your virginity.”

“How will you take responsibility for the sin you have committed?”

“……I don’t know.”

“How can you heal the wound you have inflicted on me, a wound that will never heal in my lifetime?”

“I don’t know.”

“No, that’s wrong.”

“……”

“You know very well that this wound will never heal, no matter what you do.”

“……Yes.”

“This wound… the sin you have committed will never disappear.”

“Yes.”

“That’s why I will never forgive you.”

“Yes.”

“I don’t like villains like you.”

“Yes.”

“I will never like you in the future.”

“Yes.”

“I can’t love someone as dirty as you.”

“Yes.”

“I will never love you in the future.”

“Yes.”

“You will never be forgiven.”

“Yes.”

“That’s why you must atone until I forgive you.”

“Yes.”

“I will never like you.”

“Yes.”

“So, become a good person that I can like.”

“Yes.”

“I can’t love you.”

“Yes.”

“So, become a clean person that I can love.”

“Yes.”

“From now on, you will continue to atone, reform, and live an honest life.”

“Yes.”

“You will continue to atone until the unforgivable sin is forgiven.”

“Yes.”

“You will continue to live sincerely so that you may be favored by someone who will never like you.”

“Yes.”

“You will continue to love someone who will never love you back, in the hope of being loved.”

“Yes.”

“This is your punishment for the sin you have committed.”

39

“Good morning.”

“Good morning.”

I woke up at the designated time and exchanged morning greetings with Shirai.

I headed to the shower to wash away the impurities that had accumulated during sleep. I cleaned every inch of my body to ensure I was spotless.

“We need to get rid of all the toxins that built up while you were sleeping. The dirtiest part needs to be cleaned with your mouth, you know?”

Not only did she clean the outside of my body, but she also took care of the inside. She got rid of all the impurities, leaving me completely clean and pure.

After the shower, feeling refreshed, I got dressed and groomed myself. 

I put on a crisp, wrinkle-free school uniform.

Nayuta, with her lustrous skin, tied her hair into a ponytail, donned an apron, and headed to the kitchen to start preparing breakfast. I called out to her as she worked.

“Is there anything I can help with?”

“It’s thoughtful of you to offer, Masayoshi-kun. But I’m fine. Just wait at the table.”

“Yes.”

I obediently sat in the chair and watched as Nayuta skillfully prepared breakfast.

After a while, Nayuta finished preparing breakfast and pulled her chair closer to mine, snuggling up next to me.

“Itadakimasu.”

“Itadakimasu.”

We dug into the pure white meal prepared by Nayuta, which seemed to be free of any impurities.

“Thank you for the delicious meal as always, Nayuta-chan.”

“Yes, you’re welcome.”

My sincere words of gratitude were met with a soft smile.

Regardless of the response, it’s important to express what you truly feel. Just thinking about it won’t convey anything to the other person. Speaking your thoughts out loud is crucial.

After breakfast, I brushed my teeth thoroughly, making sure to clean every corner of my mouth.

“Let me check if you brushed your teeth properly. Open your mouth, aah… Nn, chuu.”

As I opened my mouth, Nayuta covered it with hers, and her slippery tongue slid into my mouth. She carefully licked and checked each of my freshly brushed teeth. This was always the finishing touch to our toothbrushing routine.

After the check, she released my mouth and diligently licked away the drool that had formed.

“It seems you brushed your teeth well. Good job.”

“Now it’s my turn.”

“Yes, please.”

Nayuta opened her mouth, and I covered it with mine, repeating the same action she had done to me. The inside of her mouth still had the refreshing taste of mint from the toothpaste.

“Nayuta-chan, you’re so beautiful today.”

“Yes, thank you.”

“I love you.”

“Is that so?”

This time, without any ulterior motives, we shared a pure kiss. We continued to touch lips until we were satisfied.

We left the house and made our way to school, intertwining our fingers and walking arm in arm. It was still a bit early, and there weren’t many students on the way to school, but Nayuta’s beauty inevitably drew people’s attention. Of course, that attention extended to me as well.

If it were an hour earlier, it might have been a different story, but now, I looked presentable enough. Apparently, I wasn’t that bad-looking to begin with, and with some grooming, I was at least passable. Standing next to a super beautiful girl like Nayuta, I still fell short, but I think I was within the acceptable range.

While some might say we were a mismatch, our presence together had become a familiar sight, and people no longer made a fuss about it.

Nevertheless, I felt that I needed to continue improving myself so that I wouldn’t be an embarrassment to Nayuta.

I attended classes diligently and studied hard. My grades, which used to be below average, had improved significantly. I often ranked in the single digits in test scores. However, compared to Angel-sama, who always ranked first, there was still a significant gap.

During breaks between classes, I proactively helped the teachers or communicated with my classmates, offering advice if they had any troubles. Of course, I limited my interactions to the boys. As for the girls… let’s leave that aside for now.

“Actually, I recently started dating my childhood friend.”

“Oh, congratulations, Shou-kun.”

“Ah, thanks… But, you know, since it’s my first time dating a girl, I’m not really sure what to do. What should I do?”

“I see. Well, for now… “

And so on.

During lunch break, as usual, I ate the unnecessarily white bento prepared by Nayuta.

“Here, aah.”

Or rather, she fed me.

Our classmates, who had become accustomed to this daily scene, gave us exasperated looks, as if to say, “You two are always so lovey-dovey.” I was used to it.

After the afternoon classes, it was time for extracurricular activities. I engaged in various charitable activities, such as volunteering.

I cleaned the school premises, picked up trash, tended to the flower beds, helped those in need, and more. My efforts extended beyond the school grounds to the nearby shopping district and even a nursing home. Wherever there was a need for help, I lent a hand to them.

Before I knew it, the day had come to an end, and I headed home with Nayuta.

And then…

40

“Now, it’s time for confession.”

I was sitting seiza-style, facing Nayuta, who had a 100 million-point angelic smile on her face. We were so close that our knees were touching.

The confession of the day was about to begin.

“First, how many women did you see today, Masayoshi-kun?”

“I don’t know.”

“86 people. I calculated it based on your eye movements and the range of your field of vision. One minute per person, so today it’s one hour and 26 minutes. All right.”

Nayuta, with an adorable mutter, straddled my thighs as I sat seiza, her weight adding pressure to my legs.

I gazed into Nayuta’s face, which was so beautiful and divine that she resembled a saint.

I just stared.

I could stare at her forever, but the weight of her large, soft, and bouncy buttocks on my thighs acted like a stone weight, causing accumulated damage to my shins. It was similar to carrying a heavy stone.

I endured the numbness in my legs as I continued to stare.

Time passed slowly.

Without any conversation, we maintained silence, and I was captivated by her cobalt blue eyes, the most beautiful in the world.

The pain seemed to cleanse my sins, and the warmth in my arms gave me a sense of forgiveness. My heart felt purified and enriched. I was happy.

“It’s about time now.”

“Not yet. A little longer.”

“Fufu… Very well, I understand.”

I wanted to keep staring at her. My desire was accepted.

In the end, we continued staring at each other for nearly two hours, longer than originally planned.

“Next, how many characters did you exchange with women other than me today?”

“I don’t know.”

“236 characters. One second per character.”

Nayuta reluctantly lifted her hips from my thighs, which had lost most of their sensation due to the numbness.

Then, she lowered her hips onto my legs.

I wrapped my arms around her back, and her two ripe fruits of the sun deformed under the pressure.

I brought my lips close to hers and whispered.

“I love you.”

I whispered the words and then pulled away slightly, only to press my lips against hers again.

“I love you.”

I repeated the action.

“I love you.”

Once, twice, I whispered my love and offered a kiss, pouring my heart into each one.

“I love you.”

With each kiss, I conveyed my love, as if to say that my words were meant to express my love for her, that my mouth was meant to exchange love with her, and that all my love belonged to her.

“I love you.”

After 236 kisses, we finally parted our lips, which had been touching for so long.

“Your feelings came through clearly, Masayoshi-kun. Well done. You’re a good boy.”

“Thank you.”

With a soft smile, she hugged my head and pulled me into her chest. She gently stroked my head, like a mother soothing a child. I was happy.

“Now, let’s finish by expelling all the impurities you accumulated today.”

I stood up and was led to the bed by her hand.

I was pushed down onto the bed, and Nayuta straddled me.

“I’ll squeeze out all the impurities you’ve accumulated, Masayoshi-kun.”

We held hands, intertwining our fingers. Nayuta pressed her entire body against mine and leaned forward, her face descending towards mine.

“Nn… Chuu, chupa… Juru, juzo…!”

Our lips and tongues intertwined deeply. Our saliva mixed.

We pressed our lips together and passionately tangled our tongues, exchanging saliva.

Our breathing became ragged, and the hot breath between us heated our bodies. Uncontrollable lust raged within us.

“Now, Masayoshi-kun, offer everything to me. Everything you have is mine. And everything I have is yours.”

My rationality snapped.

I became a beast driven solely by instinct.

We became monsters, devouring each other.

Everything was painted white by the light of the aurora.

The world turned into a pure white void.

There was no need for me to think of anything else.

All I had to do was surrender to her.

My own will was unnecessary.

I existed only to be desired.

That was my sin.

And my punishment.

I had no complaints.

I was happy.

Just happy.

There was no need for me to be forgiven.

I’m fine with not being forgiven

I’m fine with not being forgiven for all eternity.

I had to atone for my sins for the rest of my life.

Even if I atoned, I would never be rewarded.

I’m fine with not being rewarded.

I must not be rewarded.

The settlement would never end.

The atonement would never end.

The confession would never end.

There are no sins in this world that can be erased.

We must never forget.

In this world, there’s no way a sin would ever disappear.

The mistakes we made cannot be undone.

We must continue to face them.

The End

Shinigami-san: Tbh, I prefer the fallen angel route than others. In all though, I wanted more chapters and arcs.