40

“Come on, Nayuta. Let’s say sorry, okay?”

“…… Masayoshi-kun, what are you talking about?”

Nayuta tilted her head in confusion, smiling sweetly.

She seemed genuinely puzzled, as if she didn’t understand what I was saying.

“Say ‘Every day, without fail, I forced myself on you. I’m sorry,’ okay?”

“Why should I apologize to you, Masayoshi-kun?”

I figured as much.

Nayuta doesn’t doubt her own righteousness for a second.

She believes that her actions are right and that she has the right to make me atone for my sins. She’s convinced of it.

I’m going to expose that. That’s the answer I’ve come to.

“I have an obligation to reform you, Masayoshi-kun, an evil person. I have to make you atone for the sins you’ve committed throughout your life. All my actions are for that purpose. I haven’t done anything wrong. I have no reason to apologize to you.”

“Yeah, maybe I’m a bad person, and maybe you’re right.”

“It’s not a ‘maybe.’ I am right.”

Nayuta’s words were not wrong.

“However…”

However, even if it’s not wrong, it can still be wrong.

“How much of a difference is there between what I did and what you did?”

“……?”

Nayuta was bewildered, as if she couldn’t understand what I was saying, and lost for words.

“Yes, I deceived you and took your virginity by force. But didn’t you also use that as an excuse to force yourself on me over and over again?”

“What are you talking about… “

“That’s right, isn’t it? I’m the worst scum, a cowardly and despicable villain who lies without hesitation. You can do whatever you want to me because I’m a sinner. It’s only natural that I atone for my sins. That’s why you’re waving your righteousness around, binding me with sin, and sealing away my resistance. You do whatever you want with me.”

“It’s only natural to make you atone for your sins, isn’t it? Masayoshi-kun, it sounds like you’re saying I’m at fault. Are you saying I’m enjoying myself with you? That’s not the case at all. I’m doing what’s necessary. If I don’t, innocent people who have done nothing wrong will be harmed. I have to squeeze out your filth so that it doesn’t affect them. This is a necessary act, and I’m not doing it because I want to.”

“You can make up any reason you want. You can say whatever you want. But the fact of what we did can’t be changed no matter what. The fact that I deceived you and forced myself on you, and the fact that you forced yourself on me over and over again, can’t be changed. No matter what reason you give, no matter how wrong or how justified it may be, that fact remains.”

The reasons for our actions are ultimately based on our individual subjective value judgments and our judgments based on common sense. They vary depending on our perspectives.

However, the facts of what we did cannot be changed no matter what.

“If my forcing myself on you is a sin, then your forcing yourself on me is also a sin.”

I used the facts to overwrite the reasons.

“Nayuta, you’re cruel. You took advantage of the fact that I admitted my sin and couldn’t resist or argue, and you forced yourself on me over and over again.”

Erase it all. Paint it all black, equally.

“You forcing yourself onto me and me forcing myself onto you, what’s the difference?”

It’s the same thing.

If you look at it carefully, what I did and what she did, is the same thing.

But,

“You’re wrong!”

Nayuta couldn’t accept that.

“The one who’s wrong is you, Masayoshi-kun. I’m the one who’s right. You forcing yourself onto me while being filled with lust, and me removing all the filth inside you, are exact opposites!”

“No, no, Nayuta-chan, you’re enjoying forcing yourself on me, aren’t you? Every day, every single day, you crush me with your super-heavy, huge bre**ts and huge butt, following your desires. And it’s very painful for me to be squeezed out by you every day beyond my limit. You, Nayuta-chan, suffered when I forced myself on you. And I suffered when you forced yourself on me. See? We’re the same”

“That’s a lie. There’s no way Masayoshi-kun, who gets rock-hard every day and shoots out vigorously, is suffering.”

“That’s just a physiological reaction. That’s how men are. If you’re going to say that, the first time we did it, even though it was your first time, you came so much and had an expression full of pleasure on you. You probably enjoyed it, didn’t you?.”

“That is what we call a physiological reaction. The fault is your penis being so big and hitting all my sweet spots. Me feeling pleasure from having my sweet spots rubbed continuously is something that can’t be helped. It doesn’t mean that I enjoyed it.

“So, but, yes, I guess you and I are the same in that regard. Nayuta, you felt good when I forced myself on you, but you didn’t enjoy it. I felt good when you forced yourself on me, but I didn’t enjoy it.”

“No, that’s not true. I didn’t enjoy it, but you did.”

“How can you say with certainty that I was enjoying it? If you’re going to make assumptions about my feelings based on your own imagination, then I can also assume that you were enjoying it based on my imagination.”

“Don’t decide my feelings based on your assumptions, Masayoshi-kun.”

“Don’t decide my feelings based on your assumptions too, Nayuta-chan.”

“The one who’s wrong is you, Masayoshi-kun, who started it all. If you hadn’t committed a sin, none of this would have happened. It’s all your fault.”

“I only committed a sin once. How many sins have you committed since then? Compared to me, you’ve committed countless sins. Can you say that you, who have committed more sins than me, are less guilty? You can’t, can you? If you call me a sinner, then you, who have committed more sins, are a greater sinner.”

“That’s why I said it’s different.”

“No, it’s not.”

The fruitless argument continued.

If you say this, I’ll say that. If you say that, I’ll say this.

It’s an endless, futile, parallel line of argument.

But that’s fine.

This is the answer I sought.

“Just admit it already.”

“No, Masayoshi-kun, I can’t accept anything you say.”

“I see… “

“How about we end this here?”

“Have you finally come to accept it?”

“No, I don’t accept your argument, and Nayuta doesn’t accept mine either, right?”

“Yes, I don’t accept it.”

“I don’t accept it either.”

The arguments like parallel lines will never intersect.

“Nayuta… let’s end this soon. If I get back at you because you did it to me, and you get back at me because I got back at you, it’ll never end.”

It’s only natural to get back at someone who did something to you.

If one of us doesn’t endure it, this endless, futile cycle of revenge will continue forever. It’s a pointless, muddy water-throwing argument.

But now, I’m going to end it.

“Nayuta, you can’t even say sorry. But I’ll forgive you. You may not forgive me, but I’ll forgive you for the sins you’ve committed.”

“I… I haven’t done anything wrong…”

“Yes, you didn’t realize you were doing something wrong. Nayuta, you unknowingly carried the burden of sin. But I forgive you for everything.”

“I… I haven’t committed any sins…”

“You don’t have to worry about anything anymore. All your sins have been forgiven.”

“…………………..”

“I forgive you, Nayuta. But you won’t forgive me, will you?”

“…… I…”

“I?”

“I… Even then, I won’t forgive you, Masayoshi-kun.”

“That’s too bad, but there’s nothing I can do about it.”

“There’s no way I can forgive you…

“Because you can’t forgive me… Will you adding more sins to carry on your shoulder? Even though I already forgave you, you still plan on committing more sins?”

“…………………..”

“Is that how you will keep on living?”

“………………….”

“Will you keep doing this forever?”

“…………………..”

“That’s… well… “

“…………………..”

“You look like you’re suffering.”

“—-!”

A crack appeared.

The smile that had never faltered until now shattered with a loud noise.

“Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!”

Along with the scream, a fist was thrown.

It accurately hit my face.

The impact and pain knocked me off my feet, and I fell onto the floor on my back.

Nayuta pounced on me and took a mount position, choking me.

“I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I! All of it, all of it, all of it, all of it, all of it, all of it! You’re the one who’s wrong! You’re the one! You’re the one!! I’m not wrong, I’m not wrong, I’m not wrong! “

She choked me while shaking me vigorously.

The backlash caused my head to hit the floor repeatedly, making loud noises.

“Why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why! You’re mine, you’re mine! Why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why! It’s my business how I treat my own things! There’s no way that it’s a sin! The one who committed the sin was you! The one who’s right is me!! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! I’m right! “

My head hit the floor over and over again.

Intense pain.

My consciousness gradually faded.

“There is no way I could be suffering at all!”

41 (END)

A scream pierces through my fading consciousness.

“I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering, I’m not suffering!”

Screaming hysterically, Nayuta repeatedly slammed my head and body against the floor.

“What is? Where? How? Why? What is? How? How? How am I suffering? Suffering? Suffering? I’m not suffering! I’m not! I’m not! I’m not! I’m not! I’m not!”

“…… So-someone who isn’t suffering wouldn’t say such things……”

“ーーー”

I somehow managed to squeeze out the words.

Nayuta stopped moving abruptly and looked down. I can’t see her expression.

“…… Let’s end this……”

“……”

“Holding onto resentment is…… painful, isn’t it?”

“……”

“More difficult than forgiving……”

“……”

“I’m the one who caused this. It’s not my place to say, but……”

“……”

“Nayuta……”

“……”

“I’m really sorry……”

“……”

“……”

A long, long…… silence falls.

“……………………”

“……………………”

After the silence,

“……………………Yes, that’s right.”

Nayuta spoke.

“Let’s…… stop this already……”

“……………………”

“Enough with the excuses and deceptions.”

Nayuta raised her head.

“Masayoshi-kun”

She was smiling.

“I……”

With a smile I had never seen before,

“I want all of you.”

It was,

As dark and wicked unlike a goddess,

As ugly as something far removed from an angel,

Overflowing with a madness unbecoming of a saint,

“Oh, I see.”

With a smile stained by dark emotions, she laughed.

“That’s all there is to it.”

If there was any mistake,

It was likely that I had misjudged the true nature of Shirai Nayuta.

Nayuta was undeniably a real demonic creature hiding behind a mask.

◇

I should have done this from the beginning.

I should have forced everything to go my way from the start.

I am right.

You are wrong.

It doesn’t matter.

I can do anything I want to you.

Because I want to.

As I wish.

I can do whatever I like.

Reasons don’t matter.

I do what I want.

If I want to kiss you, I’ll kiss you.

If I want to intertwine our tongues, I’ll intertwine them.

If I want to make you swallow my saliva, I’ll pour it in.

If I want to drink your saliva, I’ll suck it out.

If there’s a place I want to lick, I’ll lick it.

If I want to be licked, I’ll let you lick me.

If I want to become one, we’ll become one.

If I want to eat you, I’ll eat you as much as I want.

Because everything is mine.

I can do whatever I want.

Sin.

Punishment.

Atonement.

Forgiveness.

Unforgiveness.

None of that matters anymore.

I will do what I want.

Here, just the two of us.

That’s all that matters.

Nothing else matters.

As long as I can be with you.

It’s all thanks to you.

You made me realize this.

You set the true me free.

This is the real me.

I just wanted you.

I said a lot of pretty things.

But the truth is, I just wanted you.

You made me realize that.

My heart was this pitch black.

The same black as you.

A very lovely color.

You and I are a perfect match.

I’m happy.

I want to merge more and more.

I want to combine with you and become one.

That’s all I can think about.

I don’t want to think about anything else.

I just want to think about you.

That’s all I need to be happy.

In this world, it’s just you and me.

Happiness.

Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness, Happiness…

Happiness and.

And then.

Suffering.

Suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering, suffering,

Happiness and suffering.

Because I am happy, I suffer.

Because I am suffering, I am happy.

Happiness is suffering.

Suffering is happiness.

Suffering?

Then.

I must be happy right?

I am happy.

This happiness will continue forever, won’t it?

Let’s suffer more.

Let’s become happier.

MORE.

MORE and more.

More and more and more.

More and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more……..

Give me happiness.

Love me more.

Violate me more.

Fill me completely with you.

Ahaha.

“Hahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡”

The End

Shinigami-san: Hey guys this is the fallen angel end, there are other routes so check them out. Comment which ending you guys liked. Hmm, this one felt like a typical yandere ending to me.