Chapter 43: The Next Day’s Test Study (Girlfriend’s Perspective ①)

Today too, test study with friends. Walk home together after?

A message like that came from him.

I replied the instant I saw it.

“Of course! Let me know when you know the time to leave”

After sending the reply, I let out a sigh. Savoring the happiness.

Today is the peak of happiness. A smile naturally spreads on my face. To be able to make plans to walk home so smoothly. No, not just that. For him to send a message initiating the plans!

I pinch my cheek. Ouch, ah, it’s not a dream. Good.

I let out a relieved breath.

Until yesterday, it was like hell.

In middle school, we were together every day, and even if we couldn’t talk at school, we walked home together, or at least I could see him, so there were plenty of chances to feel him close.

Since we were in the same class, there wasn’t a day we didn’t meet, and friends around us were considerate.

So, even if schools are separate, we won’t break up like others, we’ll meet every day and have lovey-dovey days, I thought.

But actually entering high school, it was completely different from imagination. Studies at a different level of difficulty, preview and review, making friends in new environment,,

Before I knew it, more than a week without meeting. Well, we still called or messaged, so I thought we were fine!

One day, at school, a friend was crying. She had a boyfriend from middle school like me.

Huh? Why? She was excited about a date with him after a long time yesterday.

What’s wrong? When I asked, she said a shocking word while crying.

“He dumped me”

Eh? Why? What happened? You were so close!

She confessed while crying.

Yesterday, excited to go out, but next to him was an unknown woman. And he said,

“Sorry, I fell for this girl. So, can we break up?”

She of course said no, impossible, but the girl he brought said,

“Can you just break up already? He doesn’t like you anymore.”

And she came home crying.

What the hell, unbelievable!

She is very kind, always smiling, I love her.

And her best expression is when talking about him. How they started dating, what she likes about him, where next.

She talked so happily.

Yet,,

We all comforted her, encouraged, went out a lot to distract.

Gradually her smiles increased, back to normal.

But I had a slight anxiety.

Maybe him too?

Our schools are different, and he’s the type who is popular.

Maybe he’ll fall for someone? Will he say break up to me?

Thinking that, anxiety overflowed, and I started contacting him more.

“Can we walk home today?”

“Call tonight?”

“What did you do today? Where did you go?”

“How’s school? Made friends?”

Even when replies came, I couldn’t feel assured, kept sending next and next.

His replies were enthusiastic at first, but gradually colder, intervals longer, but I couldn’t stop.

Because, if I don’t send!

If no message from him, maybe cheating with someone, maybe forget me.

Thinking that, couldn’t waste even a second.

Chapter 44: The Next Day’s Test Study (Girlfriend’s Perspective ②)

One day, I was sending messages to him as usual.

Today too, probably reply won’t come soon. I know that. Even I am not just dreaming about him.

But can’t help sending. Even if can’t meet, need to prove I exist.

That said, he usually replies in 1 or 2 hours.

I can only wait.

How much time passed. My phone shows no notification.

1 hour, 2, 3 hours, no reply.

Not even read.

Eh? Why?

Anxiety builds in my chest. What’s wrong? Why no reply?

Hate me now?

No accident, right?

You wouldn’t say you’re with a girl, right?

Before I knew it, I was sending a torrent of messages.

What? What’s going on?

I can’t control my emotions. Like not myself.

But can’t stop. Because, maybe meeting unknown girl? Of course worried.

Don’t know how much time passed. Can’t take eyes off phone.

Hey, why no reply?

Am I nothing to you now?

『Piron』

Suddenly, phone notification.

Greedily looked, the screen had the words I least wanted to see.

“Let’s break up”

Ah, it’s over.

The moment I saw it, the thread holding my feelings snapped.

Tears overflow from my eyes nonstop. Don’t understand. Why?

After all, new girl?

From there, don’t know what happened. When noticed, I was at the park.

Now I look terrible. Worn-out dress, dirty sneakers.

Eyes bloodshot from crying, eyelids swollen, hair messy.

But, I won’t forgive just because I look bad.

Why break up with me? You have a new girl, right? Unforgivable.

I waited quietly for him to start talking.

Hey, talk soon. Why silent?

Don’t understand, what he’s thinking.

Want to break up? Or not? Which?

Want him to talk soon, but not. Because next he speaks is our breakup time, right?

Don’t know how much time passed.

He stays silent. Time passes quietly.

That time calms me.

Was frantic from being told break up, but did he really cheat?

Is he the type to do that?

Remembering memories with him: movie theater, amusement park, clothing store.

He’s kind, bright, cares for friends.

No way he’d cheat.

What was I thinking.

Calmed, I look at his face again.

He has a strange expression, looking far away.

Ah, he’s probably troubled.

Said break up, but doesn’t know how to start.

Because he’s kind.

Hey, what should I do? If you can be happy, anything for me.

He suddenly faces me and says.

“Sorry, actually don’t want to break up”

Eh? What do you mean?

Thought hallucination. Because thought next he opens mouth is dumping me.

But he said completely different from my imagination.

Means no break up? Really? Of course I don’t want to!

I hugged him desperately.

Good, we were destined not to break up. After all.

I’ll do my best from now on!

So, don’t abandon me.

Why that day, he tried to break up but suddenly changed mind.

Don’t know. But means no cheating, right?

That fact is enough.

With that fact, I can live.

He’s obsessed with me.

No one can tear us apart, right?