When I found out about the student council president's secret, she became my exclusive maid [Haitus] - Chapter 41 - Venting the frustration of past
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- Chapter 41 - Venting the frustration of past
Naturally grabbing the wire fence on the rooftop, I began to tell Yuki about my past.
“—I started playing baseball when I was in elementary school, and I was always the ace pitcher.”
“…..”
“I was an ace that everyone acknowledged. Even when I entered junior high, that didn’t change, and I was always praised by everyone. Yoshiki and Shogo, in particular, looked at me with respect.”
“…..”
“Of course, I never let it go to my head. On the contrary, I practiced desperately every day to live up to everyone’s expectations.”
As I spoke, I couldn’t help but remember my past self practicing, and my grip on the wire fence on the rooftop tightened.
“Because everyone knew about that scene, though I don’t know their true thoughts, I think everyone recognized it too.”
“…..”
“Our desperate training paid off, and Yoshiki and I were chosen for the Japan U-15 national team.”
“…..”
“Unfortunately, Shogo wasn’t selected, but he genuinely celebrated our success and sent us off to face the world.”
“…..”
“But sadly we lost to the United States.”
I said softly, then continued speaking.
“Losing to the United States was frustrating, infuriating. It made me want to vomit. But the experience of competing on the world stage was more than enough for Yoshiki and me. Now, scouts came immediately from the high school where Yoshiki is. With this frustration and the experience of battling in the world, I had enough confidence to think, ‘I will completely rewrite the history of high school baseball.’ No, I was convinced. I could change the history of high school baseball. I would change it and make a dazzling debut in the professional world. And then, I would change the history of professional baseball as well.”
However, I held my right shoulder.
“God is cruel right? I injured my right shoulder in the last game of junior high. Overuse syndrome, they said. Surgery was necessary due to excessive strain. They even said my right shoulder might become unusable. After desperately practicing to live up to everyone’s expectations… Why does this have to be the result?”
As I explained, she watched me with an indescribable expression, not forgetting to nod occasionally.
“The surgery was successful. They said my shoulder would heal. They said I could still play baseball. But they also said it would take over a year of rehabilitation.”
As I remembered, a dry laugh escaped me unnaturally.
“They indirectly told me that injured players aren’t wanted in prestigious schools. I decided to refuse on my own, knowing that if I forced my way in with this kind of shoulder, I would only tarnish the prestigious school’s reputation.”
“…..”
“It’s so disappointing. Even though I fought against the world, all that experience vanished because of one injury.”
“…..”
“After that, well, I thought there was no point in playing baseball anymore. Over a year, for us students, is an excessively long period. That number felt like an eternity to me. So I quitted baseball. When I quitted, I wondered what my life was supposed to be. I had only played baseball my whole life, so I didn’t even know how to make friends or what I should do to live. I even thought it would be better to be dead.”
When she heard the word ‘dead’ coming from my mouth her eyes went wide and she stopped nodding to my words.
“At that time, my parents and Shogo were the ones who supported me all along. Shogo was always by my side, making me laugh. He said that if I quit baseball, he would quit too, and he really did quit baseball and stayed with me. He lied, saying, ‘I decided to support you because I don’t have as much talent as Akira or Yoshiki.’ I thought he was a terrible liar, easily caught in his lies, but I was incredibly grateful for it. It made me want to live for Shogo’s sake.”
“…..”
“My parents also suggested that I should try living alone in a place not too far away when I became a high school student, as they thought it might be tough for me to stay in this town where I had only played baseball. Originally, I thought Yoshiki would be entering the dormitory when he became a high school student, so I told him not to worry about it.”
“…..”
Thanks to my parents and Shogo, I was able to become a normal high school boy. I can’t express my gratitude to them enough. I have nothing but gratitude that can’t be put into words.
“Yoshiki, too… He was really considerate of me. But he has talent. He has experience fighting in the world, so Shogo and I told him to go to a strong baseball high school just like that.”
“…..”
“I think Shogo and I were really worried about each other. He’s an incredibly kind guy. He would even sacrifice himself without hesitation. He’s a good guy… a really really good guy.”
“…..”
“Even when I met him today after a long time, he was still the same good guy. He’s still the same as before…”
I leaned roughly against the fence with a loud crash. Then I looked up at the moon.
“Even though his character hasn’t changed, the public’s perception of him has. He has become a star of Koshien. He has become like a moon that is out of reach.”
And yet, and yet…
“He’s someone who is not pretending with a facade on his face. He is genuinely someone who is kind and gentle… But I wished Yoshiki would be a bad guy.”
I managed to say while on the verge of tears.
“I could say that I’m jealous of his success and say out loud, ‘I would have been more successful,’ ‘I would have been more praised.’ I could say that, but he’s a good guy, so I don’t want to think that way. It’s just my personality… being bad… somewhere in my heart… I end up feeling jealous of his success even though I don’t want to… I just want to continue as we were until now… genuinely…”
Unable to endure it any longer, tears welled up in my eyes.
“I can’t tell Shogo either… Shogo is always by my side, and he’s also best friends with Yoshiki… That’s why I can’t tell him… I can’t tell anyone… My mind is getting all messed up…”
Suddenly something soft enveloped my whole being tightly.
At first, I didn’t understand, but I realized that Yuki was hugging me gently, as she looked at my face with a gentle and understanding expression.
“It’s okay to rely on me without holding back anymore. After all, I’m your exclusive maid.”
“Yuki…”
With her kind words, the dam of my tears collapsed, and tears flowed from my eyes all at once. Yuki held me under the moonlight until I stopped crying.
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