Something’s definitely wrong with me right now

Ever since that day when I confessed my feelings on the Ferris wheel, Yuki-nee has been getting more clingy with me.

I think that skinship from a beautiful woman is normally something that makes one happy, but to be honest, I wasn’t happy at all.

On the contrary, I don’t even know why I feel such discomfort, and as this goes on I’m becoming more and more unable to understand myself.

Up until now, I would definitely have been absolutely delighted. Even if it wasn’t someone I was in love with.

“……In the first place, do I still like Yuki-nee as a woman?”

More than two weeks have passed since the confession, so I would like to make a decision soon, but I still don’t know what to do.

Quite a bit of time passed while I was thinking about this, and before I knew it, it was time for my snow sister to arrive.

“Good morning, Kaito.”

“Good morning Yuki-nee”

As usual, I greeted Yuki-nee when she came to my room. Today she was carrying a paper bag in his right hand, which was unusual, so she may have stopped somewhere before coming here. As I was thinking that, Yuki-nee held out the paper bag in front of me.

“This is a present from me to Kaito.”

“……What for?”

When I murmured that to myself, wondering why she gave me a present, Yuki-nee made a somewhat astonished face and said,

“Because it’s your Birthday.”

“…..What!?”

I finally realized that today was my birthday when I heard Yuki-nee’s words, and exclaimed. I guess being out of school for so long had completely messed up my sense of days.

“Go ahead and open it.”

“Okay, I wonder what’s inside.”

I slowly removed the neatly wrapped rectangular box from the paper bag.
And as I carefully opened the box, I found a stylish blue checkered scarf inside.

“I had a hard time deciding what to gift, but I got some advice that this would be perfect for this season, when it’s still cold and January.”

“I always wanted a muffler, so I’m happy. Thank you Yuki-nee.”

When I conveyed my gratitude, Yuki-nee began to speak with a slightly embarrassed look on her face.

“It’s great that you’re happy with it, so please use it carefully. By the way, the muffler I gave you is a different color from the one I’m using… well, it’s a so-called matching look.”

When I heard the phrase matching look, I imagined Yukine wearing a different colored muffler and walking around the city, but momentarily, a fierce discomfort attacked me.

I had no idea why I felt that way, but it was just so upsetting.

“Oh, that’s right. While we’re at it, I’ll wrap it around your neck, Kaito.”

Yuki-nee, who didn’t seem to notice anything strange at all, said that with a happy expression and reached out to take the muffler I was holding.

But it didn’t come true. Because I shook off Yuki-nee’s hand with all my might and rejected her.

“……eh!?”

Yuki-nee froze with a face that seemed to say she didn’t know what had happened. But soon she realizes the situation and she looks like she’s about to burst into tears.

“…I’m sorry, I’m going home today.”

After saying that, Yuki-nee left the room, leaving me dumbfounded on the spot.

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It’s been a week since my birthday, but Yuki-nee hasn’t come to my room since that day.

The cause must have been that I shook her hand away, but I didn’t really understand why I did that.

At that time, my body just moved unconsciously, and I had no intention of doing such a thing.

“As I thought, there must be something wrong with me right now.

Far from feeling sad that Yuki-nee didn’t come, for some reason I felt relieved. Quite frankly, I’ve completely lost my sense of self.

“Cheer up. I’m sure Yukina-san will understand that Kaito-kun didn’t do it on purpose.”

“Yeah, I hope so.”

Every time Ellen came to my room after learning about the unfortunate incident that happened between me and Yuki-nee, she encouraged me like this.

Such kind words made me feel really comfortable, but at the same time, I realized that my feelings toward Ellen, like a malicious desire of possessiveness, were getting stronger day by day, and I was becoming afraid of myself.

I thought that if things went on like this, I would do something irreversible someday, so I thought about keeping some distance from Ellen.

However, recently, for some reason, I feel restless when I’m not with Ellen, so in the end I couldn’t do it.

“Kaito-kun, you’ve been frozen while looking at my face since a while ago, are you okay?”

“… Oh, I’m sorry. I’m a little dizzy.”

After hearing Ellen’s words, I returned to my senses and hurriedly replied.

At this time, I didn’t realize that it was already too late.