To the Person I Love and Hate the Most…

Worst Day of My Life… Part 1

After that incident until the end of the year, we enjoy our peaceful days living together as if the previous storm had been a lie.

We did things that we had never been able to do before.

Such as going to Disneyland, watching movies, and having fancy dinners together…

Because Natsumi has such a beautiful appearance, she always attracts attention in public, being by her side as her boyfriend, I can’t help but to feel a sense of superiority.

Every night, we made love…

Those days are really special for me, it felt like all the hardships we’ve been through finally is being paid off…

However, those happy days didn’t last forever…

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On the night of New Year’s Eve in the year 2000, the first day of the 21^st century…

“Happy new year, Natsumi! I wish we can have a great year together♪”

“Happy new year, Ma-kun♪ Yeah, let’s start the new year with lots of love♡”

After wishing each other happy new year, we both make love passionately at the beginning of the new year.

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The next morning…a trauma that I still can’t forget to this day…

The worst day of my life begins…

As I’m having my breakfast,

“What should we do…I haven’t received any messages from Ka-kun!”

Natsumi rushes to me and says so.

I feel angry when I hear those words.

“What do you mean? Are you saying that you’re still in contact with him?”

“Well, you see…he is mentally fragile. If I suddenly stop contacting him, I can’t imagine what he might do to himself, so I figured it would be best to stop contacting him gradually.”

Natsumi told me so.

“What he does or what happens to him doesn’t matter anymore, does it? Besides, didn’t you already break up with your boyfriend in the first place? You shouldn’t care about him anymore.”

I told Natsumi so.

“However…I feel bad for leaving him at his lowest. He can’t even find a proper job, and I left him all by himself. At least until he manages to get a job somewhere, I should support him emotionally… You are talented, smart and works for a prestigious company, Ma-kun. You can’t possibly understand what it’s like for someone who can’t do it.”

Natsumi pleads so, looking down.

“Wait a minute! I didn’t just get my current job effortlessly! I worked really hard while everyone else was enjoying their lives, and finally, I’m able to get into a respectable company because of my hard work! Don’t say that I’m able to get my current job just because I’m ‘talented’! Don’t compare me with someone who can go on overseas trips just for a change of mood! You have no idea how hard I worked to get this job!”

I told Natsumi so.

“But, if he is really thinking about suicide or something like that…if something were really to happen to him, we will carry that burden for the rest of our lives, you know? If he writes a suicide note that mentions Ma-kun’s company or something…it would cause a lot of trouble for the people at your workplace, wouldn’t it? If he’s okay, then it’s fine! However, just in case…we might still be in time to save in if we go now!”

Natsumi cries out loud, trembling.

“T-That’s…”

It’s true that it would be unfair to cause trouble for my company because of my own personal problems.

Reluctantly, I agree with Natsumi and decide to go to her roommate’s place together.

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“I wonder…will I ever be able to be with someone I truly love.”

Natsumi murmurs to herself so.

All I can do is sigh at her words.

When we get off the train, we run towards roommate of Natsumi’s place.

He lives in an apartment, and the door is unlocked.

Natsumi screams, calling out to her roommate, but there is no response.

With no other option, both me and Natsumi enters his apartment.