40

The young me.

Was a quiet and well-behaved girl.

Due to my shyness, lack of assertiveness, and gloomy personality, I had no friends. As a useless loner, I always played by myself.

Because of this, I was bullied by everyone.

No matter what they did to me, I never fought back or talked back. I was their perfect punching bag.

“Stop it! Bullying is disgraceful!”

The one who always came to my rescue was Kakeru-kun.

“It’s okay! I’ll always be with you and protect you! I promise!”

I was happy. Someone noticed me, even though I was such a useless person, and promised to protect me.

It didn’t take long for me to fall in love with Kakeru-kun.

After that, Kakeru-kun kept his promise and stayed by my side. He always protected me.

Because of this, I thought I had to change. I didn’t want to stay the way I was and be a source of embarrassment to Kakeru-kun. So, I worked hard to improve myself.

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Time passed, and Kakeru-kun and I entered high school. Together, of course.

Although Kakeru-kun struggled with the entrance exams due to his weak academic skills, he worked hard because we both wanted to attend the same high school.

I loved Kakeru-kun for his hard-working nature.

“I like you, Kakeru-kun. I don’t want us to stay just friends anymore. So, please be my boyfriend!”

I confessed my feelings to him.

Kakeru-kun, who was rather dense, didn’t seem to get my hints no matter how much I tried to appeal to him.

Kakeru-kun, with his bright and strong sense of justice, was popular with everyone. Many girls liked him.

Feeling a sense of crisis and not wanting to lose him to someone else, I took the initiative and confessed.

“Ah, um! So, I… I also… I mean… how should I say this… Like you too?  So, um, from now on let’s get along even better! Please be good to me!”

Kakeru-kun’s shy smile was a little cute.

This is how Kakeru-kun and I started dating.

Kakeru-kun chose me. I was happy.

“Let’s create lots of wonderful memories together from now on!”

I felt blessed. Being with the person I loved, I knew we would be together forever.

I believed that this happiness would continue forever.

We would enjoy our high school life, graduate, go to the same university, become working adults, get married, have children, grow old together, and always be close.

This happy life would continue forever.

Ah, I’m so happy.

Kakeru-kun, I love you.

“Stooooop! ! ! !”

I could hear Kakeru-kun’s voice.

Huh? What was I doing just now?

“Please… Stop it! Why are you doing this? Please… Stop… Stop already…”

My head felt fuzzy.

What is this feeling?

It feels so good.

“Kakeru-kun, look at this. This feels so much better than what you did. It feels so, so good.”

“Ahh… Ahhh… Aaaaaahhhh… Aaaaaahhhh… Aaaaaahhhh… Aaaaaahhhh! ! ! !”

Kakeru-kun?

Why are you crying?

It feels so good.

This is strange.

Huh?

Am I crying too?

Why?

It feels so good.

Why am I crying, then?

Oh.

I see.

I’m crying because it feels so good.

Kakeru-kun feels good too, doesn’t he?

He’s crying because it feels good.

I’m glad.

In that case, I should make him feel even better.

“Hehe… Hahaha, hahahahahaha…!”

“Oh my, did her boyfriend break too? His eyes look glazed over. Wow, look at all that drool… What a wonderful expression! It’s beautiful!”

“This one’s done too. She’s completely gone insane. Did we give her too much of the drug? Hey, Murasaki. Let’s go find another one.”

“Wait a moment. I need to edit the video and send it to Nayuta-chan… Okay, done! Let’s go, Kuroda!”

Huh?

Is it over already?

Is the good feeling over?

I want to do it some more.

Ah.

Kakeru-kun is here.

Kakeru-kun will do.

“Hey, Kakeru-kun? This doesn’t feel that good anymore. Come on, try harder. You’re a hard worker, aren’t you? Come on, try harder. Please? Please?”

“…………………..”

From now on, Kakeru-kun and I will always be together.

Forever.

Ah, I’m so happy.

I hope this happiness lasts forever.

41

I want to violate that woman…

“Sorry for calling you out at this hour, Nayuta.”

Ever since I first laid eyes on her, that thought had been on my mind.

“No problem at all. It’s fine. Really, it’s fine. Finally… We meet, Kuroda-kun. And, what was it that you wanted to talk to me about?”

I think it was love at first sight, to put it bluntly.

“Well, calm down. Now, take a look at this.”

Despicable and the worst.

‘Hey there! Nayuta-chan, are you watching?’

By now, those words were not enough to describe how far I had fallen.

I simply acted on my instincts and impulses.

“If you do something to me… You know what will happen, right? Murasaki will harm those innocent and virtuous people who have nothing to do with this.”

I should have stopped then and there….

“You know what I’ve been doing, don’t you?”

There could have been other ways…

“………………………… Kuroda-kun”

I didn’t care about the means as long as I achieved my goal.

“Well, it’s too late now. But I don’t want to put them through any more pain. After all, they are innocent people who have lived honest and upright lives. That’s why you can’t move. You have no choice but to obey me. That’s the kind of person you are, aren’t you, Shirai Nayuta?”

Why did I do such a thing?

“Why… Why are you doing this…?”

Now, I have no regrets.

“Why? That’s obvious.”

I was forgiven.

“Nayuta. It’s because I want to possess everything that is yours.”

I was forgiven.

“I want everything that is yours.”

 Once forgiven,

“I want to destroy everything that is yours.”

I lost control and couldn’t stop myself.

“You are the most beautiful, pure, and exquisite being in this world. More than anyone or anything else. You are overflowing with compassion, kind to others, strong in your sense of justice, and you never forgive evil. Your heart is pure and untainted.”

My vision was obscured by the object of my deepest longing.

“Such a sublime being like you deserves a partner who is more than just a petty villain.”

I wanted to trample on the saint’s compassion.

I wanted to pluck the angel’s white wings and stain them.

I wanted the power to violate the goddess.

That’s why I fell.

To become a worthy opponent.

I indulged in every imaginable evil, trampled on people’s hearts, degraded them, humiliated them, and committed unspeakable atrocities.

And now, this is the end.

“I want to make you mine forever.”

I was irresistibly drawn to her.

Her smile.

I wanted everything about her.

“Hey, do you know about ■■Bar■n■?”

Even her life…

“Hehe! Are you really going to do that? That’s crazy! You’re completely insane!”

“I don’t want to hear that from you.”

“Hmm, is that so? Well, I guess we’re two of a kind, huh? Darling! ♡”

“Stop calling me that in such a disgusting way.”

“Aww, don’t be so cold, darling! Sob! Anyway, can you really do that? Losing your virginity to the one you love! Are you one of those delusional people who practice for it? Or are you just going to wing it?”

“I will do it. I’ve prepared thoroughly for this moment. There are no issues. I will definitely accomplish it.”

“Hmm… If that’s what you want, then fine by me. It’s none of Reina-chan’s business anyway. Do as you please.”

Suddenly, Murazaki lost interest and made a bored expression. She turned away and started filing her nails, as if the matter no longer concerned her. What a fickle person.

“So… this lifestyle is coming to an end, huh?”

Murasaki sighed, as if letting out the words.

“Yeah, it’s over.”

“We did a lot of things together, didn’t we?” (Arro Note: Why tf do I feel sad for Reina?) (Shinigami: Yeah why tf do u feel sad for her, she’s a complete b*tch, I was glad she got caught then lol) 

“Yeah.”

“It was so much fun.”

“Well, it’s not like I enjoyed it.”

“Is that so..? But I guess it’s time to move on. It’s getting harder to keep running. The lady I was relying on was also crushed by that guy’s ‘family.’ I guess we can’t stay here any longer.”

“Then go to jail and accept your fate.”

“No way! I don’t want to eat disgusting prison food! Besides, Reina won’t get caught again. I won’t make that mistake again.”

“You got caught pretty easily before.”

“Ugh! That’s true! That cheater… If I ever see him again… Well, I probably won’t. It’s not worth it to mess with him. Let’s just leave it be.”

“That’s the smart choice.”

“And…”

“What?”

“Kuroda, let’s kiss?.”

“What’s with the sudden request…?”

“It’s fine, right? Come on.”

“Well, do what you want.”

I looked straight into her pitch-black eyes.

The arm around my neck was frighteningly cold.

Our lips touched.

It was a fleeting moment that lasted less than a second.

We had mated countless times before, devouring each other.

But this moment, this first kiss, was something new.

“See you.”

With remarkable nonchalance, Murasaki walked away, turned her back on me, and disappeared from the scene with those final words.

I would probably never see Murasaki again.

“Ah, Kuroda, you got caught.”

“I guess he can’t be saved now.”

“Well, I have no obligation to save him now anyway.”

“Kuroda… You were the worst kind of insane trash! ♡”

“Thanks to you, Reina had a lot of fun.”

“Thank you again…”

“Then, I guess Reina-chan should be on her way too.”

“I don’t want to get caught.”

“Afterall,”

“We need to properly give birth to this child.”

“Ah…”

“Reina-chan and Kuroda’s super hybrid!”

“I wonder what kind of child will be born.”

“I’ll be a good mama and raise our child..”

“I hope it’s a boy.”

“His name will be Justice-kun, written in Japanese as ‘Masayoshi’! That’s so lame! My naming sense is terrible!”

“Yes. I’m looking forward to it. ♡”

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