She is Reading My Thoughts Again Today - Chapter 48
Dream Day
‘Do you hate me?’
I repeat those words of Kisaragi’s in my mind over and over again. It’s as if she didn’t think I would reject it. It’s as if she assumes that I have feelings for her which is more than friendship.
“I…”
I can’t continue my words.
“I am afraid that I am interrupting you, so I will leave now. Please take your time and think about it carefully.”
After she said it in a tone so light as if she was singing, Kosaka-san briskly left the classroom. I front of me is Nao Kisaragi who is staring at me with her black eyes. What is reflected in her eyes is my face with such terrible eyes. I lower my foot to get away from her stare, but she steps forward.
“You what?”
I have no choice but to stop where I am right now. I’m sandwiched between a wall and Kisaragi. There is no escaping this, so I took a deep breath to regain my composure. Then I began to talk to her again.
“I don’t hate you at all.”
“I see.”
“And I want to help you if I can.”
“Yeah.”
“But I can’t do it.”
“Why?”
The fact that her expressionless face and tone of voice doesn’t change at all is frightening.
“It’s too risky to keep reading my thoughts.”
She wants to kiss— No, she just doesn’t want to hear other people’s thoughts.
“I heard that you know? Anything else?”
There must be some other ways.
“A kiss should be done with someone you like after taking proper steps. It’s not a trivial matter.”
I feel a little guilty for rejecting it, maybe there is no other way than this.
“Anything else?”
But still, if we kiss here, there are things that will never be the same.
“Even if we love each other, I don’t want to treat you disrespectfully like this.”
I’ve prepared another counter argument in my mind, but she doesn’t continue the argument.
“Let’s find another way.”
She doesn’t reply my words. I can’t read anything from her expression, and for a while I am distracted by the lively voices of the club’s activities. Just as I was beginning to wonder if I should join a club for the sake of my youth or has it been it too late, I heard her laugh.
“I knew the serious Hokuto-san would say so.”
It is such a teasing laugh that I feel kind of embarrassed at myself for taking it so seriously.
“Would you have done it?”
“I really would’ve done it, but I changed my mind.”
‘I really would’ve done it.’
Her words almost choked me. If she hadn’t changed her mind, I’m sure she would’ve raised her voice continue to argue with me.
“There may be someone in the world who can really inhibit my ability completely. Until I meet that ‘prince,’ I’ll still be dreaming about it.”
There’s a distinct colour in her eyes, it’s hope. It shines brightly. It’s good to know that she still has hope. I’m relieved.
“If you see him, don’t let him get away. Promise me.”
“Yeah, of course. I promise.”