My Twin Sister Who Looks Exactly Like Me Is Trying To Cross The Line With Me?! - Chapter 28 (The Burden of Heart)

I decided to discuss my relationship with Yumika to Kinoshita-san, but….

“That’s intense, it’s kind of dramatic already!” 

When I finished telling Kinoshita-san about the situation I was in, she was not only not surprised, but was very enthusiastic about it.

“You’re not put off by it? Twins are in love with each other you know.”

“No, no, I will support you. It’s really lovely.” 

Kinoshita-san gave a thumbs up. Seeing that lightened my heart a little. 

Up until now, I’ve felt as if I were a sinner, but judging by Kinoshita-san’s positive reaction, maybe I haven’t done anything that bad.

“I get how Nagasawa-san feels~ you are twins, so you guys can understand everything and share feelings. If I met someone like that, I would fall in love with him too. I’m sure there are a certain number of people out there who absolutely hate people like you.”

Kinoshita-san seemed to sympathize with me or rather with Yumika.

I guess they are both girls and understand each other’s feelings.

“Is that how it is?”

“Yeah. It’s a great feeling to be understood by someone. Especially for girls.”

Since Kinoshita-san said it, it must have been true. 

It meant that Yumika had more than enough reasons to like me.

“If twins lived together all their lives, I’m sure they would grow up to find the same things creepy and repulsive as each other. But because they were separated from each other’s lives, they grew up in their own way and are reunited. How fateful, is it not?”

A Kinoshita-san who was admiring. 

Since it was someone else’s story, she must have been enjoying herself even though it was forbidden love. 

“I love Yumika too, but I can’t respond to her feelings. That’s really painful for both of us.”

“……You are really kind, Fujigaya-kun. If a normal guy were to be adored by a beauty like Nagasawa-san, he would accept her immediately. But Fujigaya-kun, you are suffering because you are kind and care for Nagasawa-san.”

I’m glad Kinoshita-san understands what I’m going through right now.

I’m glad I consulted with you…..

“But, too bad.”

“What is?” 

“That, you won’t get an answer even if you talk to me about it. I think Fujigaya-kun, the person concerned, knows best.” 

Kinoshita-san already came to a conclusion. 

“That’s right…..giving up is the only option, right?”

“Yeah. Of course, there may also be the option of escaping from love. But if you were to choose that, you would have chosen it from the beginning, and the only option left would be to reject Nagasawa-san, right?” 

Right, the answer was obvious.

I had arrived at that answer many times myself.

“That’s how normal people think. But don’t worry, I’m not normal.” 

Kinoshita-san continued to talk as if to offer hope.

“I think you should be in a relationship even if you have to hide it. Of course, you absolutely should not have a physical relationship, but I think it’s best if you accept each other’s love and become lovers.”

Kinoshita-san, who unexpectedly, recommended that we go out.

That didn’t sound like an irresponsible statement, but a sincere one.

“And then, I’m sure the love will cool down in time. That’s how love is, and I’m sure nothing is eternal. That’s why, for now, I think you should enjoy this love as much as you can~” 

Ms. Kinoshita talked about love while dangling her feet.

I agreed with that opinion, but there was also a fear of love with no end in sight.

“You seem unusually perceptive and understanding.”

“I’m just like you too.” 

“Are you in love with a family member?”

I’ll let you know soon enough. Right now, I’m too busy discussing Fujigaya-kun. Since you told me an important secret, I’ll tell you a secret too. Not now.”

It appeared that Kinoshita-san also had some troubling love affairs. 

She didn’t even deny that he was in love, so I guess someone likes her. 

No wonder she knows how we feel, or maybe her way of thinking is unusual.

“I’m curious.”

“Currently we are talking about Fujigaya-kun. You should go out with Nagasawa-san.”

“When you go out with someone, you definitely want to do a lot of things with them. We love each other.”

“I’ll allow up to kissing. It’s an essential act for lovers.” 

Unfortunately, what Yumika is looking for is a relationship that goes beyond that.

The kissing will probably happen sooner or later when I won’t be able to resist it either.

“Why don’t you live more dexterously? Maybe you should get another lover and pour your physical desires into that one.” 

“Out of the question.”

Kinoshita-san, being a hot gal, sometimes says ghastly things with a straight face.

“Oh, sincerity. But you know~ didn’t your teacher tell you that people can’t live alone? Even girls have real boyfriends and insurance boyfriends.”

“If I was a helpless charlatan, I might have had that option. But I really love Yumika, and I want to take care of my family.” (Tl/n: Charlatan: a person falsely claiming to have a special knowledge or skill) 

“You’re serious~ A man you can trust.”

Kinoshita-san was grinning when she heard my comment about how much I love Yumika.

“But…eventually, you’ll probably become Kuzugaya-kun too. Giving up on everything and all.” (Tl/n: this is a play on words, here “gaya” is from Fujigaya and Kuzu means worthless, trash.)

Kinoshita-san pierced a nail in me. 

Apparently She foresaw me going off the road.

“But after hearing your story, I have an even better impression of Fujigaya-kun.”

“It’s usually the other way around. People think, [What’s this guy thinking falling in love with a twin?]”

“That’s why I told you I’m not normal.”

Kinoshita-san is not normal.

That was actually confirmed when I heard the answers, etc, that exceeded my expectations today.

“I think me and Fujigaya-kun might have really good chemistry. I’m sure we’ll get along even better in the future.”

“I’m glad you think so.”

“Un, absolutely. Our distortion is so perfect, right?”

Kinoshita-san tapped me on the shoulder.

I guess she had a lot of sympathy for me, and according to Kinoshita-san, we have good chemistry.

“What do you think of me, Fujigaya-kun?”

“Someone who looks like a gal and seems flamboyant, but I think she’s a good person at heart. She’s actually very kind.” 

Blonde-haired Kinoshita-san looked like a gyaru, but her personality was not gyaru-like.

“I’ll stop being a good person then~ well, Fujigaya-kun, you have angel Nagasawa-san, right?” 

“Stop giving Yumika weird names. Well, sometimes I think of Yumika as an angel.” 

“You got that right. If a handsome boyfriend twin suddenly showed up and understood me and stayed by my side, I’d think he was heavenly.” 

Yes, everyone will fall in love with a twin of the opposite gender who has great looks and suddenly appears. 

“I’m rooting for you both. I wish you all the best.”

“you’re a good person, really. You are the number one good person in my good-person rankings I’ve ever met.”

“No, I’m not. I’m a bad girl.”

Kinoshita-san gave a mischievous smile.

“Thanks for listening to me today. I didn’t think it would result in a push back. I feel a little better about it now.

“Thanks for talking to me too. I think it’s a great pain to have worries that have no solutions. So I think we need people we can confide in about anything. I’ll listen to anything, whether it’s complaints, worries, or petty laments about fate.”

Kinoshita-san left the store walking beside me with little space between us.

Occasionally, Kinoshita-san’s chest was against my arm, which made my heart beat a little faster.

Kinoshita-san’s sense of distance was very different before and after entering the restaurant.

I am sure she felt secure with the person with whom she shared her secrets.

“Why are you being so kind to me? You said something about me looking for your phone together before, even so, you’re too kind to me, we’re just classmates after all.” 

“You are a skeptic, Fujigaya-kun. Not the type to accept kindness with open arms.”

“I’m sorry I doubted you. I apologize if I offended you.”

“No need to apologize. In fact, I’ve been unnaturally kind to Fujigaya-kun.”

Kinoshita-san stared straight at me and looked deep into my eyes. 

“When it comes to being kind to others, ulterior motives often come into play. That’s just how it is. Well then, take care.”

Kinoshita ran away and went through the ticket gate. 

It seemed that she had her own reasons for being nice to me.

Does she think she can get something out of me if I owe her something…

At any rate, my day off with Kinoshita-san turned out to be a wonderful time. 

A love affair with identical twins was not a case you can handle alone. 

You have to talk to someone and confide in them to get your mental state right. 

When you hear of a forbidden love, you may feel a sense of destiny or specialness that makes you love the other person more. But more often than not, they are anxious, fearful and impatient.

I’m still in high school and immature.

I don’t have the financial resources or ability to live as I please.

There is no ideal way to live.

I got to think about a lot of things and take action.

There may be hidden choices that lead to a BADEND.

No, wait…

If I’m consulting with someone, that means my twin Yumika, who looks exactly like me, is with someone…..