Maou Reijou no Kyouiku Gakari - Chapter 38 - To Love Yourself
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Chapter 38
To Love Yourself
“I told you it’s not the same.”
“Wo… how is it different…?”
“This is how it’s done! My cuddle is at stake!”
“It’s none of my business.”
“Y-you two don’t… fight, okay…?”
I looked at two people fighting amicably on the other side of the square and one person interceding.
Perhaps because there was nothing to block their voices, the voices of the three could be heard this well, despite the distance between them.
“I’d really like to talk about the book again …but before I do, can I ask you one question?”
In response to my question, Femu turned her face toward me and shook her head.
She pulled the cloth back over her eyes, and her head was once again completely hidden.
“Is it so embarrassing for you to be seen?”
I ask straightforwardly without equivocation.
It is said that there is a strong correlation between magical control and emotions.
The fact that being seen has become one of the triggers for her outbursts indicates that she has such a strong sense of inferiority with regard to her appearance.
In response to my question, Femu turned her gaze away from me and faced the front of the room, then gave a small nod.
“I see.”
I stopped myself from saying, “I think you have a pretty face that you have nothing to hide.”
It would have been a mistake to let it get out of control.
“It’s weird, so….”
Femu muttered in a voice so small that it was faintly audible.
It was clear that the word “strange” does not refer to the shape of the body, but to the transparent body.
The document said that femu has a mother of a race called the casper species, which is quite rare among the demon races.
This was the first time I had seen the real thing, but I remember reading in some literature in the past that the translucent body is a characteristic of the ghost species.
It was essentially just a tribal trait, like Isuna’s tail, San’s ears, or Fear’s fangs.
However, I can imagine that in addition to Femu’s naturally introverted personality, the fact that there was no one around her with the same traits as hers caused her to feel inferior.
Still, she must have a strong desire to change herself, to do something about the uncontrollable forces within her.
“As a matter of fact… I also used to hate myself so much that I couldn’t help it.”
Then what I have to teach her is not to force yourself to change.
Just have teach her that anyone can change if they have a chance.
“I that so…?”
“Yeah, that was over a decade ago.”
In my case, it wasn’t how I looked, I hated myself for being nothing but a helpless kid who couldn’t do anything.
“….Now?”
I guess I was able to get her interest, and unusually, Femu delved into the story.
“Now it’s so-so. I kinda hate this habit of having my hair all mussed up every morning.”
When I touched my slightly quirky bangs to scare her, Femu giggled and let out a cute little laugh.
“How did you come to like it?”
Femu leaned forward a little and asked me a question that brought back both good and bad memories for me at the same time.
I was aware of my breathing, and after calming down, I recalled only the beautiful memories.
“There was someone who made me like him.”
Naru Peridot. I remember that girl who saved me in the midst of despair.
“What kind of person…?”
“Yes. …She was always smiling and laughing. She was always pestering me even though I didn’t ask her to.”
Looking back, I guess I was too rough in the past for her to leave me alone.
As a result, she has become a tremendous presence in my life.
It is no exaggeration to say that my current personality was almost entirely formed by her.
To calm my mind, I listened to the sounds of nature.
The hustle and bustle of the three of them was still echoing from the other side of the plaza.
Femu, who was sitting next to me on the same rock, just kept quiet and listened to my story.
“I’ve chosen to be a teacher because that person told me I’d be good at it.”
“I see…”
“Yeah, she said I have the power to change people.”
After all, I may not be able to change people in the way I promised her.
And yet, for whatever reason, another path had been prepared for me in this way.
I don’t know if this path is the right one, but I am certain that it is the only one left.
“I hope someone like that will appear for you, Femu.”
Femme was silent without any reply.
Naturally, I don’t expect anything to change anytime soon.
If something has been conveyed, even a little, that’s all that matters.
“All right! Then it’s back to training!”
Femu stood up from the rock on which she had been sitting, and without hesitation, I stood up as well.
I tightened the straps of the cage and faced the girl in the robe.
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The night after morning training and then noon classes.
It has been a while since I came back to my room, so I should get some sleep… on second thought, let’s just do this pile of documents.
The documents were about the demon tribe in both the human and demon worlds, which I asked Rosé to collect for me.
I tirelessly read through them without sleep or rest.
What I was looking for was information about the casper blood that runs through Femu’s body.
I had heard that they were a rare race, but there was almost no written information about them.
Their bodies are translucent.
They do not like to fight.
They do not form a specific community, but drift around alone at will.
They are sometimes seen in the human world.
There is a little information available.
But the information I want is hard to find.
As I continued to dig through the piles of literature, I notice that the scenery outside my window had somehow turned pale.
In the end, I greeted the morning without going to sleep again.
I always told my students to take good care of themselves, but this is a little bad.
But the sleepiness had passed its highest peak and has already reached a strange realm.
This makes it impossible for me to rest my body.
Thinking about this, I decide to call it a day and get ready for lunch after reading this, and open the book that was at the top of the pile.
“Hmm…? This is…”
It contained interesting information about the casper species.