Lonely Me And The Lonely Caring Goddess - Chapter 130 - Past (1)
I Reincarnated As A Trash Prince
Chapter 130 – Past (1)
“I also… felt sad these past five days. Since there’s an opportunity, I wanted to stay by Kazunari-san’s side. Would it be okay?”
Sara-san cutely said those killer words.
Hearing such tempting words, how could I say no to her?
I also wanted her – to be spoiled by her.
In short, Sara-san was asking me if she could stay over. It was she who requested it, right? I think that’s what she meant.
From “Let’s sit down and talk” to “Can’t I sleepover?”. It all started with that.
It’s alright. We’re just going to have a serious conversation.
Sara-san was saying that with pure intentions, so as long as I can control myself, there shouldn’t be any problems.
“U-understood. Will we talk till both of us fall asleep?”
“Yes. If the conversation took awhile, it would be better if both of us lay down, right?”
She seriously doesn’t have any other intentions. She wanted to have a serious talk.
Since the bed was narrow for both of us, I laid my spare futon on the carpet.
I am trying to convince myself that we are only going to talk. But upon seeing the futon laid out, my self-doubt kicked in. Was that really what we were going to do?
Why do I imagine other things!?
Sara-san laid down first and patted the space beside her, signaling me to take that place.
“Come now, Kazunari-san. Please lie down too.”
Sara-san… looked very happy.
I wouldn’t want her to be disappointed. That’s why I don’t have to do this.
“E-excuse me!”
Surprised by what came out of my mouth, I lay down timidly beside Sara-san. Sara-san hugged me tightly as if she had been waiting all this time.
Sara-san smelled so good. It’s probably because she just got out of the bath.
Her smell was different from usual. It’s not the body soap or shampoo that I use. Sara-san’s bag probably has it.
She wore thin pajamas, unlike the usual. I could feel something soft when Sara-san hugged me.
Maybe Sara-san doesn’t know that I’ve made up my mind. That’s why she made it a little easier for me to open up to her.
That’s what it felt like, at least to me.
And before my determination weakens, I need to tell her.
“I want you to listen to what I’m about to say, Sara-san. This story was from my third year in junior high school.”
And at long last… I have started talking about my past that I’ve been avoiding.
Upon hearing my words and seeing my resolved look, Sara-san loosened her hug.
“Yes, I’m all ears.”
Thus, I started recalling those sorrowful days.
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“Kazu-chan…”
Yuzuha was a shy crybaby when she was a child. She was always following me around and always on my side.
Knowing she was like that, my childish thoughts made me think, “I am the one who will protect Yuzuha.”
“I LOVE YOU, Kazu-chan!”
Our relationship was still the same, even during elementary days.
We were always together. That’s why I didn’t have the chance to make any friends.
I wanted to join when I saw other girls playing – but I couldn’t. At that time, I was bullied at places I knew nothing about.
*Beep*… *Beep*…
*Ker-chak*
It felt like a dream.
But ‘that’ Yuzuha was gone.
She’s a different person now.
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“Good morning, Kazunari!”
“Morning, Yuji!”
We are now in third-year high school. One month has passed since school started.
Finally, I have adapted to my current classmates. Though it’s a pity that Yuji isn’t in my class.
I have friends with whom I share the same class as before.
But Yuji will always be my special friend.
After splitting up with Yuji, I ran into Yuzuha on my way to the classroom.
As always, she wore that flashy makeup.
Yuzuha had brown hair with opened button shirt – what you call a gal. It doesn’t suit her at all.
She was 100 times cuter in her normal looks.
She probably read my thoughts that upon seeing my face, her face distorted. Yuzuha looked like she had seen trash.
“What? You have a problem with me?”
Yuzuha looked adorable in elementary school! How did she become like this?
“Rather than that, don’t you know your hair color and makeup are illegal? You should stop that.”
“Everyone was doing it, so why should I be the only one to stop? And don’t talk to me. I might catch your lameness.”
Where did the cute and quiet Yuzuha go?
She just became like this because her peers were probably half-teasing Yuzuha into doing this.
However, Yuzuha was probably enjoying playing with someone of the same gender.
Belonging to a group of the same gender, I wouldn’t know how that feels.
“Gross! Why don’t you die?!”
“Yes, yes.”
As she cursed me, I believed in my heart that the old Yuzuha would return.
Even if she was like this, Yuzuha was still my childhood friend.
Also… I’m still holding on to these feelings for her.
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“Good morning, Yamazaki-kun!”
“Morning, Yamazaki-kun!”
“Hey, hey, hey, Yamazaki-kun~.”
Yamazaki here, Yamazaki there. Such awful noises.
Every morning it’s like this.
Kazuma Yamazaki.
According to the girls, he was a model or something. Well, Yamazaki has the looks for that, I guess.
And his parents were something like a president of a company. That’s why Yamazaki has a lot of luxury items.
If you ask me, I dislike him. Yamazaki was a violent person.
Also, there were rumors about him flirting with numerous women. Though if you say it out loud, girls will ridicule you for being unpopular and annoying, so no one has the guts to say it.
“Next time, Yamazaki-kun…”
The one who said those words and came barging in was Yuzuha.
She was openly approaching Yamazaki and looked serious about him.
I haven’t heard that they were together, but I bet Yuzuha was keeping tabs on the other girls about Yamazaki.
Yamazaki and my level were worlds apart. And Yuzuha has hated me for some time now.
I know that I should give up on Yuzuha.
But I have been watching over her for a long time, even putting behind my social life.
I don’t have the slightest idea why Yuzuha hated me. However, if the conclusion was that Yuzuha was to be taken by that man…
Maybe it’s some salvation for me? Though all those efforts will be down the drain.
But it does not mean that I won’t do anything…