I Don’t Want to Kiss Until We’re Married - Chapter 1

I Don’t Want to Kiss

I have a girlfriend. Her name is Manami Watanabe.

Manami is very cute, outgoing, and fun.

I love her bright, kind personality, her cute, beautiful face, I practically love everything about her. So, in April, I gathered all my courage and confessed my feelings to her.

At first, I didn’t have much hope of being Manami’s lover, however, it turned out that Manami has the same feelings as me, she loves me too, and so, we started to go out with each other. We became lovers.

Usually, when other couples become lovers, they hold hands, hug, and even kiss each other.

However, we haven’t done anything like that. We have never kissed each other, we even have never held each other’s hands.

Yes, even though it’s been half a year since we started dating, but Manami and I haven’t done anything like that yet.

When I told my friends about it, they said,

‘Oh come on, you haven’t kissed her yet? It’s been half a year since you started dating her, right? Man up, make the first move…’

‘Really, Yuta? After all this time, you still haven’t kissed her? You should make the first move.’

Because I felt like pressured by my friends’ words, I told Manami that I want to kiss her.

Manami’s eyes widened at my words. She looked surprised.

“Yuta-kun, you want to kiss me?”

“Yeah, I really want to kiss you… You are the person who I love the most in this world.”

“……”

Manami falls silent at my words.

After a while, Manami finally replies my words.

“No, we can’t kiss.”

“…eh?”

I can’t help but to be surprised at Manami’s words.

We can’t kiss?

Why?

We are lovers, aren’t we?

Or perhaps, Manami doesn’t want to kiss me?

I don’t get it, why?

“Why not…?”

“That’s…I really like you Yuta-kun, but I don’t feel like kissing you. That’s why…I’m sorry, but we can’t kiss yet.”

“……”

You like me…but you don’t want to kiss me?

What are you talking about?

Do you like me, Manami?

I don’t know what she’s thinking…

I want to kiss Manami, and I thought that Manami want to kiss me too.

However, when I tell Manami that I want to kiss her, she said that she doesn’t want to kiss me even though she loves me.

Damn it, what is she talking about? I don’t understand at all.

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After I went out with Manami, I come back home.

I take off my shoes at the entrance and go to my room.

“Ah, you’re finally home. You’re home pretty late today, Yuta.”

“Hehh…Ayano.”

A beautiful girl is lying on my bed while reading manga happily.

Large, beautiful eyes.

Cute nose.

Thin lips.

Glossy black hair that goes down her back.

Her school uniform suits her perfectly.

She is truly cute and beautiful.

The girl who is happily reading manga on my bed is Ayano Kawasaki.

Me and Ayano have been good friends since kindergarten.

In short, we are childhood friends.

Wait a minute…why is Ayano in my room?

I ask Ayano so.

“Why are you in my room?”

“Eh? Can’t I?”

“Of course you can’t be in my room. I already have a girlfriend now, remember?”

“Ah, that’s right, you already have a girlfriend now~ Manami Watanabe, right? The one who is in the same class as you.”

“Yeah, that’s right.”

“Do you really like her? Or are you going out with her just for fun?”

“I’m serious about her. I’m not dating her just for fun. I really like Manami.”

“Hmm.”

Ayano frowns at my words.

She looks angry.

Hmm? Why is she grumpy?

“So, are things between you and Manami-chan going well? Have you kissed her yet?”

“That’s…”

I’m at a loss for words.

Are things going well between me and Manami?

I don’t even know the answer myself.

It’s been six months since we started dating, but we haven’t kissed each other yet.

I told Manami that I want to kiss her, but Manami said that she doesn’t want to kiss me yet.

So, does that mean things are not going well between me and Manami?

Ayano looks at me in silence and tilts her head slightly.

“What is it? Are you having a fight with Manami-chan?”

“Ahh…it’s not like we had a fight or anything. It’s just that we have been dating for six months now, but we haven’t even kissed each other…”

“Ehhh… You haven’t even kissed her? What a coward.”

“I’m not a coward! Today, I told her that I want to kiss her, but she refused saying she doesn’t want to kiss me yet.”

“Eh? What…? Did Manami-chan really say so?”

“Yeah…”

I told Ayano everything.

That I told Manami I want to kiss her.

That Manami told me she doesn’t want to kiss me even though she loves me.

“Did she really say ‘I don’t feel like kissing you’?”

“Yeah, she really said so.”

“Ehh… Usually, if their lover say ‘I want to kiss you’ to them, they will happily kiss definitely their lover. But why did Manami-chan say she doesn’t want to kiss you? Do you not love Yuta, Manami-chan?”

“Maybe…”

Perhaps, Manami doesn’t really like me?

Or maybe, there is someone else she likes?

Countless of questions come to mind.

While I’m thinking about such things,

“Hey, Yuta.”

“Hmm? What is it?”

“You want to kiss Manami-chan, don’t you?”

“Yeah…I really want to kiss her.”

“But Manami-chan told you that she doesn’t want to kiss you, right?”

“…that’s right.”

“Then, would you kiss me instead of Manami-chan?”

“……”