I Broke Up With My Girlfriend Who Was Cheating On Me, But She Was So Deeply Sorry That I Couldn't Help But Forgive Her. - Chapter 4: Depressing Monday.

Depressing Monday.

Monday.

I slowly shut off the ringing alarm clock.

By the way, I bought this alarm clock with Ayaka in matching colors.

I’ll have to buy a new one…

I feel like I’m going to be dragged down if I have these things around.

I wonder if Ayaka and I will never be together again…

When I went to the living room, there was breakfast on the table already.

Mom has already left for work.

Marin has morning practice on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, so there is no one at home.

While eating breakfast slowly, I checked the time.

I decided to take a shower to wake up my head, which was still not clear yet.

At the nearest station to the high school

I went to the ticket gate on the opposite side of the station from where the high school is located.

Since Ayaka and I have different stations that are near our homes, we always meet here when we go to school.

The reason why we meet at the opposite ticket gate is simply that it is less crowded and we can hold hands while heading to school for as long as possible.

“A very good morning, Umi-kun.”

“Good morning, Ayaka.”

Ayaka greeted me with a ladylike yet gorgeous smile, and I wondered if I was able to smile back.

Ayaka held my hand.

I remember the picture of her holding his hand.

The feeling that was invading my heart… is it disgust?

I feel uncomfortable.

My heart feels uneasy.

I want to check if I can’t be with Ayaka anymore…

“Ayaka… can I have a minute?”

Without hearing her reply, I moved to a secluded place and hugged Ayaka.

“Umi-kun…?”

Ayaka was confused.

“I’m sorry… just a little bit… let me stay like this…”

When I was holding her hand and hugging her, I felt so warm.

But yet…

My heart feels cold.

My body is shaking as well.

“It’s okay…”

Ayaka caresses my head with her gentle voice.

The feeling of uneasiness in my chest is spreading.

Ah…

I knew it…

The feeling I have for Ayaka right now is undeniably…

I can’t help it…

It was a feeling of disgust.

“I’m all good now. I’m sorry.”

“No, I was delighted to.”

“Shall we go to school?”

“Yes, let’s go.”

Ayaka smiled again and held out her hand to me, and I forced myself to smile and hold her hand.

During break time after the first period, I received a message from Daichi.

By the way, Sorahashi and I are in the same class, while Daichi and Ayaka are in the same class.

Daichi: I saw Hanashima go to the infirmary before the first period started, did you guys break up in the morning by any chance?

Umi: No, we haven’t broken up yet, and I didn’t tell her about it, but… she seemed pretty normal on her way to school.

Daichi: I see. Did you go to the infirmary?

Umi: I’ll try going during the next break. However, I will not go there at noon today. I’ll say I have a meeting.

Daichi: Okay.

By the way, we always gather on the rooftop for lunch if it’s sunny, and in the cafeteria if it’s raining, by unspoken agreement.

It’s cloudy now, but it might start raining before noon.

Next break time.

Before heading to the infirmary, I received a message from Daichi.

Daichi: Hanashima is back. She said she had a mild case of anemia.

I let out a relieved breath.

Was it because I was glad nothing had happened to Ayaka?

Or was it because I didn’t have to face Ayaka?

I wasn’t sure myself.

It was now noon, so I told Sorahashi that I would not be going with her today and left the classroom.

I could see from the classroom, but when I looked out the window of the hallway, it was raining lightly.

Oh, I forgot my umbrella.

I didn’t have much of an appetite, so I bought an energy bar at the store and swallowed it right then and there.

Well, what should I do?

I went to the gymnasium for no particular reason, but some people I knew were playing basketball in Y-shirts, so I joined them.

It’s been a while since I played basketball, but it was fun.

After school, I decided to send a message to Ayaka because I didn’t want to see her again today.

Umi: Sorry, I have to go home first.

I sent her a message saying I’d go home first because I felt like she’d wait for me If I went home without saying anything.

The coldness of the rain felt good.

If only the rain could wash away the bad feelings…

I thought as I got drenched in the rain without getting on the train.

Trying my best to wrap up my jumbled thoughts.

I wonder, does Ayaka still love me?

It doesn’t matter.

Or does she not like me anymore?

…Ayaka cheated on me.

I wonder, is there a problem with letting people cheat on you?

…So tomorrow…

I’m sorry for being a bad boyfriend.

Let’s break up.

I went home soaking wet.

No one seemed to be home yet, so I took off my wet uniform at the door and went to my room.

I just changed my clothes and fell asleep on my bed.