I Broke Up With My Girlfriend Who Was Cheating On Me, But She Was So Deeply Sorry That I Couldn't Help But Forgive Her.

I Want to Walk Next To You.

Hanashima Ayaka’s POV

I’m so glad you’ve been with me. I was so happy.

With those words of Umi’s…

I had lost the hand… I was holding with… the most important person in my life…

Weeping.

There were no more tears left in me, and then I heard someone rushing toward me.

“Ayaka…!”

“…Miku-chan?”

Miku-chan grabbed my hand as if she was wrapping it in both of hers and said with tears running down her face,

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry… I told Umikita-kun… about you, Ayaka… I’m sorry…”

Miku-chan… was watching me…

But… Miku-chan doesn’t need to apologize…

“Miku-chan, Miku-chan… you did nothing wrong… it’s all my fault… all my fault…I hurt Umi-kun…”

That day, I couldn’t get on my feet and Miku-chan took me home.

On the way home, Miku-chan said to me

“Ayaka, when you calm down, please tell me what really happened.”

I nodded my head.

The day after we broke up.

I had a dream of the past.

This was… six months ago, when I went to see the illumination at Christmas with Umi-kun.

I wanted to feel his body heat, so I took off one of my gloves and held his hand with my bare hand, and I made it a habit to hold his hand.

‘It’s cold, but it’s warm.”

I said, and Umi-kun pulled me so that our shoulders were close together and I put my whole hand in his coat pocket.

He looked away a little as if embarrassed.

“Aren’t you feeling cold?”

I was so happy and full of joy that I turned my head to hide my face, which was probably so red that I didn’t even need to look in the mirror to see it.

“Yes.”

I answered.

Then, someone in front of us said,

“Yay! Thank you, Dad!”

Must have got him a christmas present.

I saw a boy of elementary school age, holding a basketball and excitedly playing with it.

Then, he started walking a little slower.

When I looked at Umi-kun, he was looking at the boy with a distant look.

“Umi-kun…?”

“Eh…? I’m sorry, I was in a daze. Let’s go!”

“Ah…”

…I can not say again.

Umi-kun sometimes has a distant look in his eyes like he does now.

But soon he comes smiling back and makes me feel at ease.

That’s the thing about Umi-kun I…

Because it might be something I don’t want to tell him.

It might be something he don’t want to hear

Until Umi-kun tells me himself

“What happened?” I couldn’t say those simple words today either.

……

….

Right…

I’m really…

Everyday life without Umi-kun

…And so began the daily life that Umi-kun gave me.

Miku-chan said that if the class finds out that I cheated on him, I will be cursed by everyone in the class, ignored, or even bullied.

Worst of all, I might be attacked if word got out that I was a slut.

So she told me not to tell the truth.

Even though we broke up, Umi-kun still cares about me and protects me

Even so, my heart…

“Even you, Hanashima-san, who dumped him, got depressed, and you’re wondering if Umikata-kun is all right, didn’t you? You’re really a good girl.”

No, you are mistaken, I’m not a good girl.

“Yes, Ayaka-chan is very kind.”

It’s Umi-kun who is good…

I squeak with guilt every time a classmate says that to me.

The day of the ball game.

I saw Umi-kun smiling and high-fiving a junior.

My heart ached as if it was tightening in my chest.

If I am in this much pain now…

I think Umi-kun is even more…

I’m sorry… I’m sorry…

The place where the junior is

The place where I was not so long ago.

Now it is a place where I should not be.

No, perhaps it was only that girl who could have brought out the current Umi-kun.

Umi-kun is happily playing basketball…

I wonder if that junior was able to ask him…

What I couldn’t ask…

My heart… it’s painful… painful…

My heart… it’s already broken…

“Ayaka? …Ayaka?!”

“Ahh …Miku-chan…”

“Are you okay…?”

“Yes… um, Miku-chan… will you listen to me?”

“Yes! Yes, after the ball game, what about at your house?”

“Yes.”

I told Miku-chan everything that had happened…

Miku-chan kept looking at me with a difficult face.

I wonder if she hates me now….

Miku… my best friend.

If Miku leaves me too… I…

“Miku-chan…”

Miku-chan sighed, looked at me and said

“Ayaka, your character of not being able to leave people in trouble is a virtue and a flaw at the same time.”

“…”

“…I’m sure that the reason you couldn’t leave that crying guy alone in the first place was because you didn’t care about your age or about men, and you just treated him like you would a small child, right?”

“…Yes.”

“I’m sorry to say this, but he showed his weakness and took advantage of your desire to cheer him up.”

“…”

“Aaaaah…! Oh my god…!! This is so hard!”

Miku-chan holding her head.

I was so happy that Miku-chan was willing to help me that I cried.

“Miku-chan, thank you for thinking about me… Thank you for your concern… thank you… thank you… for being my friend… thank you……thank you.”

Then Misku-chan gently wrapped me in her arms

“Ayaka, you are my most precious friend. You were, are, and will always be my most precious friend.”

Until I calmed down, Miku-chan stayed by my side.

Thank you… Miku-chan…

I’m not even at the starting line anymore..