Chastity Reversed: Part-Time Life by the All-Girls High School - Chapter 88: The First Person

The First Person

“…I’m sorry. I knew, but still. I’m really not womanly at all…”

She was seriously crying… no, woman-crying on the observation deck, and she stood out a lot. If there were acquaintances around, that would be bad, so I quickly brought her outside. I even gave her a towel!

The pleasant outdoor air welcomed us.

“…”

“…”

Neither of us said anything.

Okay, it was not pleasant after all. There was not enough oxygen!

“Um. Am I really no good after all?”

“I hear persistent women are disliked.”

“Sorry, that was too much.”

“No… It’s all right…”

She kept asking without learning, so it slipped out of my mouth. Yeah, reflection, reflection.

“I’m not going to see you anymore. This is the last time.”

“…Yes.”

“Your campus life has only just started. Don’t worry about it!”

I lightly patted her slumped shoulder.

She must have known. She must have known that if it failed, we could not go back to our original relationship.

“Um. May I ask you something?”

“It’s the last time, so I’ll answer anything.”

“…I was wondering what the person you had your first time with was like, Sato-san.”

She said it while we walked down the night road.

Well, of course she was curious. I understood, I understood. It was about the man she had fallen for. If it were reversed, I would be curious too.

“Nothing special. I think it was normal.”

“…Did you not like that person?”

“Yeah. Before I knew it, I’d done it.”

“That means you were attacked, right?”

“Not really. If anything, I was the one who made the move.”

I still remembered what had happened then.

It was the first time in my life that I experienced the moment my reason lost. Though I had been pent up. The “first person” in front of me had truly been attractive.

Timing.

Encounter.

Age.

If any of those had been different, maybe.

Back then, I had not yet been a “male slut.”

“…”

“The other person wasn’t at fault. They probably didn’t know it was my first time.”

“No, that’s the worst! They took your virginity, Sato-san… without even knowing.”

“Then I’m the worst too.”

“Huh?”

“It was the other person’s first time too.”

She stared blankly, as if she could not understand.

“But virginity… is something you’re better off throwing away!”

…Right. That was common sense. In this reversed world.

“I think virginity and chastity, all of it, are equal.”

“Maybe that person was at fault, but I was at fault too.”

“That’s why I didn’t tell her it was my first time back then.”

I spoke to her calmly while watching the beams of light from cars running through the night road.

“…I knew it.”

“…”

“I knew it, I was the one who took your first time, Sato-san…”

I could have denied it, but there was probably no point.

The moment she asked that question, she had been close to certain.

“Ding-dong! Correct!”

I wondered when she had noticed. Was it Rika-san? Or was it Yuuka herself? Or both?

I just wished it had ended like that – with her knowing nothing. I had tried to clear her suspicions instead by sleeping with her, but it seemed that had been useless.

“…I thought maybe, but I was sure just now.”

“I see. And?”

“Eh…?”

“Don’t say you’re going to take responsibility. This was ‘mutual.'”

“Ngh.”

“Don’t worry about it. It was just a virgin boy and a virgin girl getting horny together, right? Let’s keep it light. Light.”

That was unmistakably how I really felt. That was exactly why I had wanted us to stay on parallel lines.

Even though that was impossible.

“…Sato-san… You’re too kind!”

“If I had known. If I had known that I was your ‘first time,’ Sato-san! If I had realized it!”

“I absolutely would not have let you become the way you are now!”

The sound of traffic on the road did not matter.

Her cry, almost a scream, reached my ears.

Ahh, she surely would have done exactly that. If it were her, she would have literally taken “responsibility.”

Maybe Yuuka would have been my last partner. We might have just kept dating, maybe even gotten married. Of course, I would have stayed good siblings with Akari too.

A future where everything was a happy ending might have been waiting for me.

“It wouldn’t have changed anything. Whether you were my first time or not, Yuuka, I’d still be exactly as I am now.”

“Ngh!?”

But it was already over.

I had been rash. I had lacked any sense of danger. I had fled reality and jumped into the outside world. My past self was at fault. Older or younger did not matter. The world did not matter either.

“Because I was a man, and Yuuka was a girl.”

Everything – all of it, was my own fault.

“Besides, I said it’s ‘fine now,’ didn’t I?”

“Ah… u…”

“Time doesn’t turn back. Even kids know that.”

“…I’m sorry…”

“Stop. I’m the one who should apologize.”

“…No, I’m…”

I left her standing there and walked away.

“See ya. Forget a slut like me already and find someone else.”

After spitting out that line for who knew how many times. This was the end.

With my first person, this was goodbye now.

…The night wind that passed by was lukewarm. Somehow I felt light, floating, and reality would not settle in.

“Ngh-“

Ahh, if it was now.

Maybe.

Thinking that, I closed my eyes, then opened them, but-

“Haa.”

Of course, the scenery did not change.

Had it been a few minutes walking down the night road? Along the path, completely alone.

“…Even I…”

I murmured, so that no one could hear.

“Even I want to go back.”