After rebirth, I confessed to the losing heroine - Chapter 42- Guilt?

Hiroto’s mind was a lot clearer in the morning as he sat on the bed with his knees curled up and gaze fixated on the side of the bookshelf. There was nothing, in particular, he was looking at since his mind was currently clustered with numerous conflicting thoughts.

A situation where you begin contradiction your own thoughts despite having given facts in hand…that kind of situation he was facing currently.

Last night, Hiroto had some ways to negate the effect of the drugs and keep his claws away from Miyuki. Yet he took advantage of her fondness toward him and in a way, forced his desires on her.

‘I should have thought this more clearly…’ Unlike what he was habitual of, Miyuki wasn’t the kind of girl who was all right having a physical relationship with the person she had just begun dating.

Hiroto, in his previous life, has met many women who don’t mind getting laid even without committing to a relationship. But Miyuki was not like that. She has her dreams for a perfect dating life. She wants to do many things with him, in a definite order.

To go on dates with him. To hold his hand and share their first kiss. To recede the distance between them physically and emotionally before finally moving things to the final stage.

However, Hiroto being a greedy and lustful creature…didn’t even take Miyuki on an official date before having his way with her.

‘…I wouldn’t be surprised if she suddenly starts pulling herself away….’ Remembering last night, Hiroto wondered if he had somehow traumatized Miyuki.

It was her first time, and the experience told him to not do it more than once or maybe two times with someone who had never experienced intercourse. However, her expression was hot and that vulnerable self she presented before his eyes…he just couldn’t stop himself from devouring her.

‘…how can I be so pathetic…’ Hiroto groaned before he took a pillow and rested it over his lap. Although he was wearing pants, the obvious tent would give away the proof of him being a sex-crazed lunatic.

*Click*

It was then, suddenly the lock of the bathroom twisted open and the figure of a freshly bathed Miyuki appeared from the other side.

She was wearing a bathrobe over her body with her skin flushed red since the temperature of the water was higher than she normally prefers.

Her silver hair was tied in a high bun with a towel wrapped around it. Her pale neck still had some reddish blue marks, kudos to the person, who was currently marveling at Miyuki’s beauty.

Miyuki smiled at Hiroto before greeting him, “Good morning. Did you sleep well?”

Unlike him, who was drowning in guilt and depression, Miyuki’s voice suggested freshness.

‘Ah…my soul is being purified…’Being in her presence felt like he was praying to a goddess and receiving her divine blessing.

However, soon Hiroto collected himself and without looking at her, asked, “Miyuki…last night…did it hurt?”

There was a small pause from the other side, but Hiroto didn’t turn his head to look at her.

After a moment of silence, she responded, “Yes, it did. However, it wasn’t as unbearable as I thought.”

Only a drop of relief did he feel from that as his main query still remained pending.

‘Don’t be a coward…’ Hiroto steeled his nerves and turned toward Miyuki; intending to ask something he was fearing.

However just as he turned his head, he found Miyuki’s face inches apart from his.

Hiroto was drawn in her violet orbs in an instant and lost all his motivation to ask anything.

Those eyes…clearly held concern for him. And her following words proved his hunch on point.

“Hiro-kun…are you worried that I might start disliking you because of what happened between us?”

He didn’t deny it and nodded in assent.

Miyuki sighed before she settled down in front of him and cupped his cheeks.

“How can you be so adorably foolish, Hiro-kun? You have done nothing that could make me dislike you. Although it was sudden, I never said that I didn’t want you…more like I wanted you as much as you did. So please, stop worrying about such nonsensical stuff since nothing in this world could lessen the feelings I carry for Hiro-kun.”

Her thumb softly rubbed against his skin as she confessed her true feelings about this matter.

Maybe because he loved her so much, he was able to easily discern how sincere she was with those words.

She wasn’t hurt by his actions…the realization helped him calm down greatly.

However, just as he was about to embrace the girl and thank her for letting him know her honest thoughts, Hiroto found himself getting pushed on the bed.

Miyuki lay on his bare chest with her previous soft smile morphed into a sadistic one. Her loving eyes adapted a crazed look as she encircled the long nail of her index finger, on his chest.

“That reminds me, Hiro-kun…last night, you were really considerate and cautious…which makes me wonder if Hiro-kun had any experience before meeting me?”

Hiroto didn’t panic hearing that rather he was surprised that his animalistic behavior was still seen as ‘considerate’ in her eyes.

It should be that despite not being in his right mind, he was careful with his actions.

However, there was no time to self-appreciate now since his lover was anxious here.

“Miyuki, until last night I was a virgin(in this life) so no, I don’t have any experience.”

Hiroto didn’t feel guilty saying such a thing, after all, ‘Hiroto’ indeed never had any sexual relationship with anyone before.

Miyuki looked unconvinced but didn’t try confronting him directly. Rather, she decided to do some investigation behind his back.

After all, as his lover, it was her right to know about his past, no?

“Ah…” Miyuki yelped in a dim voice as she was suddenly pulled by Hiroto in a tight embrace.

“…I know you don’t mind it, but still I want to apologize for my rashness. From here on, I will be more sincere in our relationship.”

Miyuki didn’t refute him, knowing that this could turn into an endless argument. She knew that he was guilty of yesterday’s suddenness, and despite how she felt about it, Hiroto was still feeling a little guilty.

That was why, she didn’t rebuke him, but rather encouraged him,

“Mm…I am looking forward to it.”

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While Hiroto was being lovey dovey with his girlfriend in the bed, far away from the place, a young boy could be seen inside a bathroom—currently wearing a very anxious expression on his face.

He had his phone connected to his ear while he paced around the small bathroom in stress.

Yesterday…something happened and Yuichi ended up doing something something.

And now, he doesn’t know what he can do to handle this situation.

As such, he could only contact his pillar of support—Hiroto.

‘Come on, pick it up, you asshole!’

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A/N:- Damn…Hiroto is just like that friend who never picks phone on time.

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