No Matter What, I Can’t Help But Look at Her with Lewd Eyes

According to Kaede, I still couldn’t see her as a romantic interest right now.

But that didn’t seem entirely true. Apparently, I was far more of a womanizer and quicker to fall in love than Kaede had imagined—several times over.

To put it bluntly, I was intensely aware of Kaede as a woman. Even if I refused to admit it, my body was telling me so. Especially my crotch.

She had made my heart race so many times already, and gotten me erect just as often. I wasn’t some kid; I could recognize my own feelings right away.

At this point, it was safe to conclude that I was in love with Kaede.

I had fallen for her… I had gone and fallen. Already?

I had just been dumped by my ex, and here I was, already starting a new romance.

Was I that easy? That shallow? But Kaede was seriously too cute; that was downright unfair. It was all Kaede’s fault for being so adorable—I wasn’t to blame!

…

At my age, making excuses like that was pathetic. Blaming it on a younger girl and claiming I wasn’t at fault was, to put it mildly, garbage.

Anyway, I liked Kaede.

—But I couldn’t forget Unma either.

I had already been dumped, so I should have wiped the slate clean and erased those memories. Yet every time I acknowledged my feelings for Kaede, another part of me pushed Unma forward. The seven years of memories with Unma came back vividly.

It was as if another version of myself was saying, “I won’t let you forget Unma.”

Even after such a brutal rejection. Normally, that kind of treatment would cool even a century-long love. And yet, even now, I still loved Unma.

Was this two-timing? I was the worst.

Did I seriously think a guy hung up on his ex had any right to pursue romance with Kaede? Self-loathing and guilt threatened to crush me.

In my current state, there was no way I could respond to Kaede’s feelings. It would be far too disrespectful.

It was impossible right now, but somehow, I had to cut off my lingering attachment to Unma.

Kaede had said she would wait for me, but I couldn’t keep taking advantage of her kindness forever. I had to change as quickly as possible.

For now, I just wanted some time alone. I needed to think things through carefully…

“Ryoma, let’s head to school.”

Three days had passed since I started working at Hoshimitsuin Academy.

Once again, Kaede dragged me forcefully to school.

I wanted some time alone, but it seemed Kaede had no intention of giving me any.

“Um, Kaede, could I maybe take the day off today or something…?”

“Huh? Why? Are you feeling sick or something!?”

Kaede leaned in close with an extremely worried expression. Seeing her so concerned made my heart ache.

“Oh, sorry… It’s not that I’m sick or anything…”

“Then no. Come on, let’s go.”

Yeah, I figured as much. Trying to skip work over romantic troubles was ridiculous. I really needed to know some shame, huh.

—

I arrived at school and got to work on cleaning, just like today.

Even after a few days, I was still on cleaning duty. I just focused on doing the job I was given, but I wondered if I’d eventually get something better. Anyway, time to give it my all.

Today, I was cleaning around the gymnasium.

This school’s gymnasium was impressive too. I hadn’t seen the inside yet, only the outside, but even that view alone made it clear how amazing it was.

The gymnasium was huge. Clearly bigger than the one at my old high school. It was massive and exuded this incredible aura. No doubt I had no business stepping inside. All I could do was gaze at it from afar and think how awesome it was.

Keeping this incredible gymnasium beautiful. Yeah, that was an important job. I had to do it properly, no cutting corners.

I focused on cleaning. Cleaning let me concentrate pretty well. Maybe I was cut out for janitorial work after all.

Let me concentrate even more, cast aside these worldly desires.

If I kept dragging Unma along and ended up making a move on Kaede, that would be the absolute worst scenario. I had to avoid that at all costs.

To do that, I couldn’t look at Kaede with lewd eyes. Even though she was unfairly erotic and had already killed me with temptation multiple times, from now on, I had to avoid it as much as possible.

We were living together now, and in my current state, there was no way I could hold back. I needed spiritual training. For me, the most effective way to achieve mental unity was this cleaning.

My mind was still too weak. I had to focus more during cleaning, become one with the task—focus, focus…

Waaah, waaah.

Hm? The gymnasium sounded noisy… Was it a PE class?

On closer look, the entrance door was slightly ajar, so I peeked inside on impulse.

I probably wasn’t allowed to go in, but just a quick look should be fine.

“—…!!”

It was Kaede. Kaede was there.

Her aura was so strong that even from afar, I spotted her right away.

Even with about twenty people in there, I could pick her out instantly—that just reinforced how much I was into her.

Or rather, Kaede… she was in her gym uniform…!

It was PE class, so of course she was, but still, gym uniform.

A female student in a gym uniform—something even adult men rarely got to see—was right there in my field of vision.

Kaede in her gym uniform was too cute.

Since she was exercising, she had her long blonde hair in a ponytail. Ponytail Kaede was divine.

The gym uniform really highlighted her great figure. Those tight white thighs, her slender and beautiful bare legs, that plump butt, and the swell of her ample breasts… My gaze was completely fixed on Kaede, nothing else in sight.

Ah… this is bad. No way I can handle this.

In that instant, I realized the truth. Trying not to look at Kaede with lewd eyes was impossible.

Faced with her in that gym uniform, my so-called mental unity was worth less than a flea’s shit.

I had to give up on my goal of not looking at Kaede lewdly. Yeah, impossible things were impossible. There were some things in this world you couldn’t achieve no matter how hard you struggled or tried. And that was Kaede’s female body.

It looked like they were doing volleyball right now.

Just then, Kaede entered the game.

The ball flew toward Kaede. She leaped high into the air.

—Jiggle.

“!!!!!!”

Kaede’s huge breasts bounced.

Her soft, fluffy ponytail of blonde hair swayed gently too.

In that moment, I burned the sight into my eyes without blinking. Every visual detail I captured rushed straight to my crotch on reflex.

“—Hah!!!!!!”

With a spirited shout, Kaede’s powerful spike sliced through the opponent’s court.

It made an incredible sound. That single play alone showed just how insanely good her athleticism was. The strength she used to drag me along was impressive, and her grip was strong too.

She wasn’t just cute and erotic. She was cool.

I was so entranced by Kaede that I couldn’t even move.

“Huh, are you peeking?”

!!!!!!

A girl’s voice came from behind me, and I thought my heart would stop.