After Becoming a Counselor for Girls, I Ended Up Producing a Lot of Potential Girlfriends Who Became Mentally Ill - Chapter 24

Chapter 24: Shizuku Wants to Show Her Childhood Friend Pride (Shizuku’s Side)

To follow my own passions—that is the true desire of Shizuku Nogami. It’s my motto.

Since I was born, I’ve never stopped feeling like an outsider.

It’s not because I’m some cringy kid with “chuunibyou” or anything. People can call me what they like, but this feeling of being an outsider isn’t just some delusion—it’s a conviction.

I’m aware my way of speaking is unusual. That’s one reason why my relationships don’t expand. I know I’m hard to approach for countless other reasons too.

I’m used to being treated like an outcast. If I were in someone else’s shoes, I’d want to kick myself out immediately, so I completely understand.

I act strong, but of course, there are times when it’s painful.

For example… hmm… let’s see…

Ah, yes!

Like when Lady Yuria’s voice actress fell ill and had to take a break from activities!

If that happens, I’m absolutely confident I’ll need to take a sick day from school. Lady Yuria is one of my reasons for living, after all.

So in that sense, I guess I’m mentally strong. I go my own way, undeterred by others.

That’s what makes me happiest, and as long as I’m not causing major trouble for others, I think it’s fine. For now, I believe I’m more self-aware than before. At least, I hope it’s not just my imagination.

That’s enough about me.

Thinking that, I glance back at my notebook.

“I really want to write my own life story.”

Suddenly, I felt like writing my autobiography.

It’s because, this winter break—

Ever since I saw Seii-kun again, I feel like my luck has been off.

For some reason, I keep falling behind while Saya Kujo takes the lead. I can’t shake the feeling that I’m being left behind.

I am the one who’s known Seii-kun for nearly four years!

Don’t mess with me, Saya Kujo!

It’s as if drawing that big fortune was a lie. Is God mocking me?

I feel like a woman in a bad luck year, zooming down an unhappy path on an express train, with no sign of stopping until the final station.

In short, I feel like my luck just isn’t turning.

At this rate, I don’t know what might happen to me. So, to prepare for the worst, I decided to write my life story—maybe I’m preparing for the end?

Anyway, next comes the chapter on Seiichiro Yasuda.

No matter what, I think of him as the nice guy who bent my direction in a good way.

I only realized I had real romantic feelings for him recently. When I look back on all the warm friendship and those little heart flutters I had toward Seii-kun, I realized—it might actually be love.

Until now, my passionate feelings for Lady Yuria and her voice actress, Sayuri Ao, were so overwhelming that I didn’t notice. I thought I could only love Lady Yuria.

People are unpredictable creatures.

Once awakened, these romantic feelings can’t be stopped.

In my second year of middle school, we kissed during a game of chocolate-stick-eating competition. That moment keeps looping in my head.

At the moment, I’m losing to Kujo.

However, in that past moment, I won! That’s right! Given our long history, I’ve won before!

By forcefully thinking positively like this, I’m trying to hide my frustration.

It’s upsetting to see Seii-kun taken by some newcomer girl. There’s even the possibility that more girls will become rivals in the future!

After all, Seii-kun acts as a counselor and has plenty of opportunities to interact with girls. Among them, there’s bound to be someone easy to fall for him—a “super easy girl” whose heart pours out like a leaky watering can.

If such a girl appears, I can’t deny the chance she might fall for Seii-kun. That’s the new reality of this era.

“Ah, why couldn’t that kiss have happened now? I regret it so deeply, I could flood my room with tears of remorse…”

When I kissed Seii-kun back then, I thought, “What the hell is this? Why not Ao?”

But now, it’s different.

What a miracle that moment was. And why didn’t I take more action? I torture myself over it.

Just imagine—

If I had clearly realized my feelings back then and made a passionate approach—

I could have been Seii-kun’s official girlfriend by now. I wouldn’t have to participate in this complicated romantic race.

This must be fate’s mischief.

But there’s still a chance for this situation to turn into an opportunity. They say that things you struggle to obtain feel a hundred times more precious.

Maybe this is the ultimate trial given to me by God. That’s what I tell myself to get through each day.

What bothers me a bit is how I can’t stop sneezing these past few days. It’s not pollen or allergies. Maybe someone’s gossiping about me somewhere. I hope it’s not bad gossip.

“And now, let’s think about my next strategy…”

Although I started to write my life story, I’ve ended up focusing on the present and future.

That’s fine. This notebook is just another one of my chuunibyou notebooks. In other words, it’s a free journal—I don’t have to write only about my life story.

It’s perfectly okay to talk about my future.

What I need is to appeal to Seii-kun. With so many other charming girls around, what can I do to stand out?

That’s the collection of moments we’ve accumulated so far.

For example, the “kiss incident.” I apparently once vowed I’d never bring it up. I rediscovered this vow in an old chuunibyou notebook while skimming through it recently.

It’s as if I bound myself with a curse. “Never forget this, and spend your whole life making up for it.” How heavy can I be? If I lived in a different era, I’d probably spawn a vengeful spirit or something.

I want to talk about that incident. But bringing it up myself is impossible…!

In that case, I’ll have to guide Seii-kun into bringing it up through clever questioning. Then, naturally, I’ll make him recall the feeling of that kiss.

I’ll update his memory of my lips to the latest version of Shizuku Nogami. Isn’t that the next move I should make?

And so, I unusually started thinking about a date plan. This chuunibyou notebook of mine—a random scribble pad—feels like it will remain in full operation for a long time to come.