A Twisted Introvert loner Like Me, Mentally Wrecked One-Sidedly due to Love, Throws Away the Love Letter Sent by the foremost School's Beauty, Leading to an Unwanted Romantic Comedy - Chapter 19: Self Defence

Chapter 19: Self Defence

“…I see.”

As I replied quietly, Hiiragi let out a voice filled with surprise.

“Eh?”

“What is it?”

“No, well… you accepted that so easily, I thought you would definitely doubt about everything.”

“That assumption is correct. I’m generally the type who is skeptical of whatever people say… but.”

“But what?”

Hiiragi tilted her head, blinking rapidly.

“For Hiiragi right now, you don’t have the luxury to lie, nor do you have any benefit in doing so… It’s quite a confident statement, but what do you think about it? Am I right?”

“Well, since I am not lying, I guess you’re right about it… But, you know, it sounds kinda rational? Couldn’t you have said it a bit differently?”

“True enough… How about, ‘I wanted to believe in Hiiragi,’ then? How’s that?”

“Ah, not good. Feels awfully forced now. No matter how you put it now, it will feel befuddled with lies.”

Excuse me? I went out of my way just because you were complaining, you know? And yet here you react like this, isn’t that terrible instead?

Seeing Hiiragi with her mouth in a pout, the little girl in me wakes up. Wtf am I rambling on about? Damn it.

“Oh well whatever. Expecting such thing from Kazari was useless to begin with.”

Old man, you should immediately expel this impudent one right here and now! But of course, I didn’t say that, and just replied with, “I suppose so.”

“Anyway―― If you have accepted the fact that it was not a prank, then that means you also acknowledge Sayo’s feelings was actually real to begin with, right?”

“…I acknowledge that you’re not lying. But as for Sayo and me, that is, liking and stuff… I’m basically still in a skeptical ‘half yes and half no’ about it.”

“Why? Why would you acknowledge the prank but cannot accept Sayo’s feelings? Isn’t that incredibly contradictory as well then.”

Her words made perfect sense. It’s indeed contradictory, very much as she points out.

But still, I just can’t shake the feeling off. I can’t help but wonder if there’s something else behind it as well, what if Sayo’s actions were driven by a similar calculating thought as Hiiragi’s. That possibility floats in my mind. For someone as weak as I am, I just continue on holding to that suspicion.

I just can’t believe it from my heart… No matter what.

From the present strong Hiiragi’s perspective, I probably look as someone annoyingly undecisive.

“You won’t know unless you ask.”

Her lowered voice speaks volumes.

If I convey what I’m thinking, she’ll definitely get mad. But staying silent is also out of the question. It’ll also probably get the other party yell at me eventually.

“What I’m about to say will undoubtedly be rude to both you and Katase. Are you still okay with hearing me out?”

“Out with it.”

“Got it.”

Having Hiiragi’s consent, I exposed the low-quality self, that I actually am.