Yayoi Can't Hide Her Secrets - 13 - Chapter 13 - This Is The Way I Live
This Is The Way I Live.
“I’m home.”
When I came home, my mother was cleaning up as it was past lunchtime. She gave me a startled look and said, “You’re home early,” but I didn’t want her to worry, so I told her “It was planned.”
Even though it was a date, I came back in the afternoon and it wasn’t on par with my schedule.
Mom was going to be gone for a while in the afternoon to be an agent, so she didn’t pursue the matter any further.
It seems that Uzuki was visiting a friend’s house for the time being, and dad hasn’t come home from work yet.
I walked past her and went back to my room.
I took off the clothes I borrowed from my mom. I was happy that Satsuki-kun said they looked good on me. Although, I wanted to wear the clothes I picked out myself next time.
“Maybe next time…”
I arrived two hours early for the date, but for some reason, Satsuki-kun was already there. I was nervous and so I left early, but Satsuki-kun was in a worse condition than me.
I was so nervous that I couldn’t say anything the whole time. I could think of things inside my head, but I couldn’t put any of those thoughts into words.
I was trying to do my best until recently, but when I actually saw Satsuki-kun in front of me, I couldn’t move my body.
I tried not to make eye contact with him so that I wouldn’t glare at him at least, but then that meant I couldn’t interact with him at all. I didn’t say anything either, so Satsuki-kun got concerned and proposed we go home early…
That’s right. If I was that unsociable, Satsuki-kun would be in trouble too.
But I didn’t want to leave like this, so I tried my best to smile back at him.
I couldn’t resist blushing back then, but I was so embarrassed that Satsuki-kun was staring at my face, you know?
But I was glad that he understood that I hadn’t been glaring at him purposefully.
After that, the misunderstanding had been cleared up and I could finally talk to Satsuki-kun for a little bit.
…But, I met my dad soon after that, and things got weird again.
I don’t know why my father was there in the first place. I don’t want to think that he was following me so early in the morning, but it’s not impossible either.
It’s because I’m an agent and I’m in a position to take over the Kinoshita family’s business. They might think that dating a boy is out of the question for me.
When I met my father, the mood of the date was completely blown away, and I faced reality immediately at once.
After all, reality does not simply just disappear. You can’t hide from reality with a dream.
I am an agent. This is how I should live.
I’m glad I could be a normal high school girl for one day, and I’m grateful to Satsuki-kun for that.
Tomorrow, I’ll be an agent again, just as usual.
But…
There are some things that can’t end like this.
So far I’ve only been thinking about myself. I’ve put up with a lot of things just because I’m an agent, like being alone at school and everything. That just made the class atmosphere worse.
Satsuki-kun was such an awkward person in the class, yet he approached me and asked me out on a date…
He did all of this for me.
So I at least wanted today’s date to go well. I don’t care about my job as an agent or my father, because they are none of Satsuki-kun’s business…
But in the end, I said something very selfishly without thinking about Satsuki-kun.
I asked him to play the piano for me…
Satsuki-kun, you said that you forgot the sheet music, but that was probably a lie.
When you tried to play the piano, your hands were shaking. Your breathing was getting worse.
He can’t play the piano anymore.
The reason must be because of his mistakes at the school festival. He might have been traumatized by that event.
Without realizing it, I insensitively tried to get him to play the piano.
I thought I was the only one who was troubled, but Satsuki-kun was hiding various things together as well…
I don’t want to see Satsuki-kun troubled anymore.
I want him to be able to play the piano again.
Now it’s my turn to return the favor.
What can I do for him?
I look at the closet in my room.
After last year’s festival, I actually found something I wanted to do.
The pieces of that wish are now tucked away somewhere inside the closet. I couldn’t say I wanted to do it back then, so I gave up on it like I always do.
For the first time in six months, I pulled it out of the closet.
If I show him what I really want to do, I wonder if Satsuki will have the courage to do it. Will he be able to play the piano again?
When we went on our date, I wished time would stay like this forever, but that wouldn’t help me move forward. I have to step forward for you, Satsuki.-kun
I can’t quit my job, my future may be set, but I don’t want to give this feeling I have to anyone else.
I can no longer ignore this gentle sound thumping in the back of my heart.
This time I want to be there for you, Satsuki-kun!
That’s how I can repay Satsuki-kun for making my wish come true.
(TL Afterword: I’m sick rn so chaps may be coming in slow)
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