While Wandering Around Naked, I Met An Exhibitionist, The Most Beautiful Half-Nordic Girl From School. - Chapter 6: 3D1Y

3D1Y

What is the most important aspect of exhibitionism?

Let’s set aside plausible arguments such as “it depends on the person” or evasive answers with no productivity and consider it.

A sense of taboo? Euphoria? Tension? Liberation?

Various things can be listed, but none resonate with me.

However, for me, exhibitionism is not about excitement.

Perhaps it was initially.

But for me now, exhibitionism is art and self-expression. It’s a means of self-realization.

I won’t deny that there is pleasure in it, but at its core, it’s an expression of an irresistible impulse.

In other words, it’s an explosion of artistic sensibility.

Just as many creators channel their ambitions into their works, I exposed myself naked.

“So there is a definite sense of pride and dedication there. In the absence of recognition from others, one’s own satisfaction is paramount.”

“Huh…”

Despite expressing such a verbose theory, there was a reason behind it.

On Monday, on my way back from finishing lunch and going to the toilet, I was abducted by Shirogane.

If I were a woman or not as physically fit, I might have been able to shake her off immediately. However, I hesitated to resort to violent means against a girl.

In no time at all, she brought me to the landing of the staircase leading to the rooftop, and she asked me, “What does exhibitionism mean to you?”

“Exhibitionism meant to show off to others also exists, of course. There are countries with nudist beaches, and there are cycling events where people ride naked. But for me, it’s not about that.”

“In other words?”

“It’s about expressing one’s existence to the world. I want to prove that I exist here. I think that’s the only time when I can truly be myself.”

That was the culmination of the life philosophy I had cultivated and concluded over the past sixteen years.

Honestly, even I think, “What the hell am I saying?” But that was my heartfelt belief.

Perhaps Shirogane couldn’t understand it.

Even so, I foolishly spoke honestly because she is probably an exhibitionist like me.

“…I don’t really get it.”

“I guess not.”

If someone said something similar to me in a different field, I’d probably think they were crazy.

“I want to see you all red-faced.”

“Is that so?”

“That’s why I tried to understand your fixation on exposure, but it’s difficult and I just can’t get it.”

“Well, I see.”

“You don’t have to force yourself to understand. Just as everyone has their own perspective on life, exposure is also different for each person. You should walk your own path when it comes to exposure.”

“Well, I’m not really walking that path.”

“Huh, then why do you expose yourself…?”

“It’s really upsetting to be looked at by you with such strange eyes.”

I had thought she only showed herself naked to me, but could it be that she showed herself to ordinary people as well? If so, it was not a commendable act.

“Well, it’s just that. I accumulated a bit of stress, got reckless, tried it out, surprisingly felt refreshed, and just kind of continued.”

“Exposure out of inertia, huh. It’s a shame to have such a beautiful body go to waste.”

“Eek…!?”

If she were more conscious of how to showcase herself, she could reach a higher level. Of course, exposing oneself to others in Japan is taboo, but even just the difference in whether one is conscious of it or not can affect the work.

“If you’re going to say that much, then teach me. The real way of exposure, that is.”

“Huh?”

“You’re a veteran exhibitionist, a pro at being nude, right? Then it’s fine, think of it as helping out a junior.”

“Um, is that… okay?”

“It’s fine. Anyway, you’ve already seen everything when we first met. …I’ll wear underwear because it’s a bit embarrassing.”

The sudden proposal left me scratching my head.

By any normal standard, it was an incredibly abnormal invitation. Teaching someone about exposure seemed like madness.

And on top of that, it was a girl proposing it to a guy.

She said she wanted to see me blush, but it was a mystery why she was so fixated on someone like me.

It was a moment where I should have refused.

But on the other hand, I found myself unable to immediately reject her proposal.

I had been exposing myself alone until now.

I didn’t feel lonely about it, and rather, because of that, I felt I had been able to face exposure more deeply and sincerely.

However, the desire to reveal my innermost thoughts to someone had been smoldering inside me, frustratingly.

Maybe I could find someone with whom I could bare my soul.

The sweet nectar of that thought dripped down upon my mind, adding to its weight.

“…Well, if it’s fine with you.”

“So that’s it, then let’s go with that. Shall we plan it now? When should we do it?”

“I was thinking maybe in three days.”

“Then let’s go with that day. Well, see you later. Looking forward to it.”

With a fluttering wave, Shirogane walked away.

Left behind, I found myself holding my head in disbelief, wondering how things had come to this, like an ancient copy-paste meme.