When I Used a Love Strategy App in a Chastity Reversal World, All the Beautiful Girls Turned Into Yandere - Chapter 58 - My Desire for Souta-Sama [Saionji Yua’s POV]

Chapter 58 – My Desire for Souta-Sama [Saionji Yua’s POV]

I moved my body vigorously while singing on the glittering stage.

On stage, I can show off my charm to the fullest. I think being an idol is the right job for me.

However, today I feel a bit unsettled and can’t concentrate on singing and dancing.

This is the first time this has happened to me.

“Yes! OK!”

The director called out energetically.

“Wow, Ai-chan! You did great today too!”

“Thank you… But I’d give myself a 60 points today.”

“Really? I feel like you did better than usual…”

“I want to be an idol who can entertain the fans even more.”

“You’re so stoic… Well, today’s rehearsal is over.”

“Thank you for your hard work!”

I said goodbye to the director and headed to the dressing room.

As I walked down the studio hallway, my manager called out to me from behind.

“Yua, you were more enthusiastic than usual today! Did something good happen?”

“But I couldn’t concentrate very well.”

“It didn’t seem like it… Did something happen?”

“For some reason, I just feel uneasy inside.”

“Hmm, it’s hard to pinpoint the cause with just that.”

I don’t know either.

Why did this suddenly happen… An unsettling, inexplicable anxiety is attacking me.

“Anyway, get plenty of rest today and get a good night sleep! If you do that, you’ll be able to return to the energetic Ai you were before.”

“Yes… You’re right.”

“Well, I’ll go greet the producer, so you should take a taxi home first.”

“Okay.”

After that, I went into the dressing room to get changed.

I took off my costume and was left in just my underwear.

Looking at myself in the mirror, I touched my small breasts.

“Does Souta-sama prefer bigger ones?”

I suddenly muttered something like that.

“W-what am I saying… Even though I decided to give up, I feel so guilty to Akane-sama.”

I lightly slapped both cheeks and changed into my casual clothes.

“I’ll have to replenish my Onii-sama energy when I get home… Please wait for me, Onii-sama!”

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I got in a taxi that my manager called for me and went back home.

The sky was already completely dark, and the beautiful moon was shining faintly in the sky.

“I’m home.”

“Welcome home, Yua-sama.”

The butler bowed to me.

“Is Onii-sama home?”

“Yes, he’s relaxing in his room.”

If he’s relaxing in his room, that means he’s already had a bath and dinner.

I have a perfect grasp of Onii-sama’s routine so there’s no mistake.

“I see… I’ll go take a bath first.”

“I’ll prepare it right away. What would you like to eat?”

“I ate the lunch that was prepared in the dressing room, so I don’t need need dinner tonight.”

“Yua-sama… You’ve been doing that all the time lately. It’s bad for your health. Please sometimes enjoy the food made by the Saionji family chef.”

“But the lunch box prepared there is delicious too.”

“……”

The butler didn’t answer, but narrowed his eyes and stared at me.

“Yes… I understand. I’ll be careful.”

I walked down the long corridor to the bathroom.

I entered the changing room the size of a classroom and took off my clothes.

“What is Souta-sama doing at this time of day? …No, this is not good!”

I shook my head from side to side, trying to clear my evil thoughts.

“Give up now, Yua! You already decided to support Akane-sama, didn’t you…”

Telling myself that, I opened the bathroom door.

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After taking a bath, I changed into my favorite negligee and headed to Onii-sama’s room.

Knock, knock

“It’s Yua. I’m coming in.”

“Eeekkk!”

I heard Onii-sama’s voice from inside, so I opened the door and entered the room.

Onii-sama is sitting in a chair, his face pale.

“Onii-sama, it’s time for our usual hug!”

I spread my arms wide and approached him.

“N-no, stop it.”

“That’s impossible. It’s just the way our family is.”

When I said that, Onii-sama seemed to give up and his body lost its energy.

“Fufu, I’ll be taking in my Onii-sama energy again today.”

I gently hugged him from the front as he sat in the chair.

“……”

Then I quickly moved away from Onii-sama.

“Eh?!”

Onii-sama then looked up at me with his eyes wide open.

“I-it’s completely different from that time…”

Even when I hug Onii-sama like this, I don’t feel anything and I’m not satisfied.

Feeling that way, I quickly let go of his hand.

“O-Onii-sama!”

“Yes!”

“Can you please try patting my head?”

“Huh?”

I threw myself at Onii-sama with enthusiasm.

“Y-Yua…”

I could feel his body stiffen.

It wasn’t like that time, I don’t feel like I’m being embraced.

“Onii-sama, please pat my head quickly.”

Onii-sama placed his hand on top of my head and moved it gently.

I could feel his hand trembling from my head.

I couldn’t feel at ease at all, and my heart still felt unfulfilled.

I thought that if Onii-sama patted my head, I would feel fulfilled, but nothing changed from earlier.

“……”

And again, I quickly pulled away from Onii-sama.

“W-why is it that the more I hug Onii-sama, the lonelier I feel?”

I muttered, standing there.

“Until yesterday, hugging Onii-sama made me feel fulfilled. But today…”

I don’t understand. What’s different between yesterday and today?

No, one thing that’s different did happen.

“Souta-sama…”

Just muttering his name and hugging myself while imagining him made my heart feel a little fuller.

I had pretended not to notice, trying to turn my eyes away from reality because I didn’t want to lose Akane-sama.

“W-what the… Kagurazaka was right…”

It’s not that I’m no longer fulfilled by Onii-sama, it’s that I was never fulfilled to begin with.

Mother also spends far less time with Father than I do.

I had resigned myself to the fact that I had strongly inherited the characteristics of the Saionji family.

“But I was wrong. Being hugged by someone you love can be so fulfilling. Onii-sama.”

“Huh?! Y-yeah…”

Actually, I’ve already been fulfilled to a certain extent.

The reason I wanted to hug Onii-sama was to forget Souta-sama, and to believe that having Onii-sama was enough for me.

“I love Souta-sama~”

Just by voicing the emotions I had been suppressing, I could feel my heart being fulfilled.

That’s right, I am a woman of the Saionji family with a strong desire for love. It was impossible for me to give up on someone once I became obsessed with from the start.

“S-Souta. I can’t believe you even made Yua fall for you…”

Onii-sama looked at me with his mouth agape.

“Onii-sama.”

“Y-yes!”

“I’ll stop hugging you from now on.”

“Really?!”

“Yes! In exchange… Tell me all about Souta-sama.”

My eyes turned black as I said that.

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