When I Was Presumed Dead, They Became Unhinged Unknowingly - Chapter 39

I haven’t sorted out my feelings yet.

After I cried a little because of Karen and Misuzu, who mourned our parting, I hopped on a train because I had a promise with Kyoka.

Looking at the time, it was already late at night, and Kyoka’s messages kept increasing while I was talking to Karen and Misuzu. The number had exceeded a hundred. While replying to those messages, I still couldn’t decide whether to tell them about my past and the desire to die.

I had no idea how they would react. Especially now, with their mental states being quite unstable. Kyoka, who already knew about my past and my desire to die, had confined me.

If Shoko hadn’t found me, I might have stayed there forever.

So, how would they react?

…Thinking about it, I had absolutely no idea. Due to their current mental state, it was impossible to predict what they would do.

While swaying on the train, I continued to think, but I couldn’t come up with anything. Eventually, I returned to Kyoka without any clear plan.

“Satoru, welcome back. You were quite late.”

“Sorry, Kyoka. Something unexpected happened.”

“Unexpected?.”

“Yeah. I met someone today whom I wasn’t supposed to meet. Because of that…”

I informed Kyoka about me. Whether I would tell them everything, especially about my past and the desire to die, remained undecided. And Kyoka, who heard that, made an indescribable face.

“Satoru, you… don’t want to talk about it, right?”

“Yeah. Well, it’s not a pleasant story to listen to. Besides, I don’t want to make their mental state worse by telling them about my past.”

“…I understand Satoru’s feelings. But, I feel frustrated, and yet, I can understand their feelings too. As a woman who loves the same Satoru.”

Saying that, she gently held my hand.

“I, in a way… I wanted to live together with Satoru, just the two of us, without going outside, until we faced the end of our lives. Life doesn’t always go as planned, though. When that girl, Shoko, found us, I somewhat expected that things would turn out like this.”

“…Sorry for causing trouble.”

“It’s okay. It would probably have turned out like this eventually. It just happened a bit sooner.”

She said that with a resigned expression.

“Hey, Satoru. Can I come with you?”

“Sure. I feel like having Kyoka with me would be better.”

“Thank you.”

…Now, all that’s left is to organize my feelings until that day.