When I Was Presumed Dead, They Became Unhinged Unknowingly - Chapter 1

“I think it’s time for me to die.”

On the way home from school.

Those were the words that escaped my mouth. I would never say such things in front of them, but when I am alone, the words that come out of my mouth are things like “I want to die” or “I want to die soon.”

It’s not that I admire a certain famous novelist or that I’m suffering from chuunibyou. (TL/n: also known as 8th grade syndrome)

I really want to die.  

It’s because I’m a criminal.

I said to the girls, they have a bright future ahead of themselves, I will watch over them, and other empty things, in reality, that person himself wanted to die from the bottom of his heart.

 I truly thought that the words that I spoke were full of deceit, and that they were too lighthearted; I wasn’t sure if they would resonate with them, but with those words and actions, I succeeded in getting the girls back on their feet, although not completely.

Why I wanted to help these women was, in a way, a kind of atonement.

It is more correct to say that I saved them to atone for the sins I committed. 

So maybe this is not even atonement, because in a way I am saving myself.

“At least I’ve achieved my objective. I think it’s about time.”

Objective.

My objective was to save five people for now.

Which has been accomplished recently, and I’m beginning to think it’s time for me to die. 

I still have some concerns about the girls’ future, but I think I’ve done my part.

“Hey, Satoru.”

As I was thinking about this, I heard my name called from behind and I turned around.

There I saw the Student Council President coming toward me with all her might, her large bre**ts shaking.

“I finally caught up. Satoru, isn’t it cruel that you left me and went home first?”

“No, I thought that since Misuzu is the Student Council President, you might have some kind of work to do, so I refrained from that.”

“It’s just me and Satoru, so you don’t have to be so reserved.”

With that said, Misuzu gently took my hand, and while I smiled bitterly, the two of us started walking.

Misuzu Kamiyama.

The Student Council President, well behaved, a peony when standing, a peony when sitting, a lily when walking. Her long black hair is elegant and carefully groomed for all to see. She has a well-defined face, so much so that I can only say she is favored by god.  

A body that attracts the gaze of all the boys in school, and right now, her large bre**ts, which are now pressed against my arm, were big enough to fool me into thinking that I was under an enchantment.

I think she said something like J cups. It could be said that it is inevitable that boys are attracted to them not only because of them, but also because of the large a**.

“Hey, Satoru. Do you want to come over today? My mother likes Satoru, and I’d be happy if you came to our house.”

“No, not today.”

“Eh, why not? Let’s be together.” 

“Misuzu is a student preparing for an entrance examination, right? You have to study hard.”

“It’s all right. I got an A on the mock exams.”

In front of the students, she is calm and composed, as if to say, “I will not allow anyone to disturb the public morals,” but in front of me, she is spoiled and disturbs public morals.

Well, given her past, I can’t help but say that I have to encourage her independence by keeping my distance and responding coldly.

“Still, no. Next time, we can go see that movie you’ve always wanted to see together, so just bear with it.”

“What? Really? You will go on a date with me?”

“Yeah. That’s why I’m sorry about today.” 

“It’s fine. But, we are definitely going on a date, right? It’s definite, okay?” 

“I got it. Definitely. I promise.”

“Yes!!”

She nodded her head with a smile in full bloom, and I couldn’t help but smile at this.

After that, Misuzu and I continued to talk about school and home, as we were both on our way home.

“Then, see you later. Mizusu.”

“Yeah, see you later. Also, can I call you tonight?”

“Yeah.” 

“Yay!! Then, talk to you tonight.” 

“See you soon.” 

Then I left her.

A date, huh? Will I be alive by then? Even though I want to die today, will it ever come?

It’s totally irresponsible of me, but I can’t help it. This is the kind of person I am.

A helpless human being.

Now, what should I do now? My aunt looks disgusted when I’m at home, so I should go home late. No, I guess I should go find a place to die. Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow are holidays.

Once that decision was made, action was quick. After checking my wallet, I decided to go as far as I could and so I took the train without having a destination in mind.