When I, a streamer with some more than 10 registered subscribers, announced my retirement with a face-reveal; as all my viewers were the Madonnas of the school, I ended up losing my current place at school all in all. - 49_ Determination

49_ Determination

According to the story, Toa-chan had promised to have an overnighter with Akane-chan, so she wanted to ask my for my permission to do so.

And just as I thought so, Kureha-chan wanted to exchange contact information with me, I let her do so, even though I was a little skeptical about it.

I also exchanged contact information with Toa-chan while at it.

After that, the four of us got along together… or so didn’t happen actually, as some of their friends happened to come there by chance, and they went off with them together.

It seems that the sleepover party will be held tonight, and they have already gotten permission from my mother.

So why was there any need for them to ask me?

Even though they would just normally having fun kyaa~kyaa~ in Akane’s room at that.

I wonder she was being humble since they would be making a lot of noise in the room next door I wonder.

It’s not that I mind, so even if they didn’t have to ask me, but then I guess they must have told me just in case.

It’s nice, isn’t it. Enjoying a sleepover with friends. I feel so envious. Really, how did me and Akane went on to become such different characters after growing up,

…… I already know the cause though.

I just try not to think or remember about it anymore, but for some reason or another it keeps popping up in my head from time to time.

I guess that’s how much I regretted it.

Well, it something unavoidable.

But then again, I do think it’s about time for me to get back on my feet after that incident as well.

If I stay like this forever, I will never be able to move forward. All this time I’ve been trying to maintain my will to never fall in love again, but there is no point anymore I guess.

I should abandon that kind of thoughts by now. After all, I stopped being a streamer, and even went ahead to change my overall image by trimming down my hair and style, but if I don’t change from inside, which is the most important thing, then this all would be of no use.

To say in short, it’s a character revolution.

Denying my character from the very core and transforming it into something that doesn’t connect with my past in any way.

I dream of such a world line.

But even if I say that, I can’t possibly do that with my power alone. To some extent, I’d like to get confirmation from people I’m close to.

Family is out of the question. I don’t want to embarrass myself or make them worry.

I haven’t even told my family why I decided to be change my image to what I am now as well.

In order to get back to the cheerful personality I was when I was in elementary school, I think I should ask someone with a strong and cheerful character to help me out.

And there is only one person who comes to mind when I think of those conditions.

Kageno-san.

My one and only best friend, although I am a bit unsure if she think of me as one as well, it’s that Kageno-san.

If it’s her, she’s has a strong character, and I think she can teach me a lot of things alongside as well.

Also, I would like her to teach me how to react in a sudden and unexpected situation at that.

But then, to become someone like an Eminence in the shadows is not something that I am aspiring for, just to be clear. I just want to hear and get tips and tricks from her on how to stay cheerful as she is.

Although I don’t think there is a trick to that as well. Maybe it can be simply decided with my personality at that.

I want to believe in that one thing, somehow, I want to put my faith in that understanding.