Until My Spirit Was Destroyed By My Super Yandere Childhood Friend And I Fell Into Darkness - Chapter 1 (You look like you’re having a hard time, what happened?)

You look like you’re having a hard time, what happened?

Alan Kisaragi, my classmate and childhood friend in high school, is incredibly popular with girls.

Alan, who is half Japanese and half English, is so handsome that everyone turns to look at him, and his height is around 180cm, which is much taller than average height.

On top of that, his grades were among the highest in the school and he was the ace of the soccer team, so it was impossible for him not to be popular with the girls.

Maybe that’s why all the girls I’ve cared about or liked have a crush on Alan.

Although I was ahead of Alan only in terms of performance, my face and height, needless to say, were so overwhelmingly inferior, that it wasn’t even a matter of comparison.

And today just as lunch break started, I happened to hear that a girl in my class, whom I have been interested in for a while now, was wondering whether she should confess her feelings to Alan; I felt so miserable that I wanted to die.

“This world is really unreasonable, because no matter how hard I try, I’ll never be able to beat Alan in love.”

In the beginning, I had feelings of jealousy bordering on hatred toward Alan, who made every girl I liked fall in love with him, but lately I was in a mood to give up completely.

I would hate Alan as much as I could if hating him would make girls like me, but unfortunately, that is not the reality.

“…… it’s just too hard to stay in the classroom like this, so let’s go to the usual place.”

I grabbed my chopsticks and lunch box and started to leave the classroom and headed for the rooftop.

I always went to the rooftop when someone I liked was in love with Alan and I was frustrated.

The purpose was to calm my mind by looking at the scenery, but I had another purpose.

“Hello, Kaito-kun. You look like you’re having a hard time. What happened?”

“Listen to this, a girl I’ve been interested in fell for Alan again……”

It was to meet my classmate Ellen Kisaragi, whom I often asked for advice on love and problems.

Ellen basically spent her lunch break on the roof, so if I come here, I could see her.

As you could tell from her last name, Kisaragi, Ellen is Alan’s twin sister and my other childhood friend.

Ellen, who like Alan is half-Japanese, half European descent, and with her blond hair, blue eyes, and uniquely Japanese appearance, it is no exaggeration to say that she is the most beautiful girl on campus.

For a time, Ellen and I were completely estranged, but an incident led us to talk again as if we were children.

The incident happened a year ago, just after I entered high school, when my girlfriend, whom I started dating in the third year of junior high school, fell in love with Alan and I was dumped.

My first girlfriend dumped me for an unreasonable reason, and I was quietly crying alone on the rooftop during lunch break, it was then that Ellen approached me.

I was surprised, but also quite relieved, because Ellen was kind enough to listen to me even though I hadn’t spoken to her in years.

At that time, she told me that if I had any problems, she would always be there for me, so we met and talked from time to time, and we even went home together.

“…… I see, that’s tough. But cheer up, there is definitely a girl somewhere who likes you, Kaito-kun.”

“Thank you for always listening to me. And I’m really sorry that you have to listen to this.”

I felt better after Ellen listened to me, but at the same time I felt guilty, so I apologized. Then Ellen cracked a gentle smile.

“I’m just returning the favor for all the help I received in the past, so don’t worry about it, Kaito-kun.”

“…… I didn’t know you still remembered all that stuff from so long ago.”

Actually, Ellen and Alan had a history of being bullied like crazy during elementary school.

They were vilified and ignored because of their foreign appearance.

In Alan’s case, it was not a problem because he was fighting back on his own, but Ellen, who could not resist anything, was left beaten at every step.

I couldn’t overlook such a situation, even though I was a child, so I decided to fight and suppress those who were bullying her, while encouraging Ellen.

I fought back with bad words, sometimes leading to fist fights, but I never backed down and kept on fighting.

Unfortunately, I was not able to eliminate the bullying itself, but I was able to significantly reduce it.

It was no exaggeration to say that my actions were a great success, as Ellen, who had been on the verge of not attending school due to the bullying, gradually regained her brightness and started coming to school in high spirits.

The bullying, which was expected to continue into junior high school, ceased abruptly.

The reason was simple: Ellen had become extremely popular with the boys.

The people who had been bullying Ellen suddenly switched sides and became kind to her. I can still remember being exasperated because not only did she attract so many girls, but there were even guys who started confessing their feelings to her, as if that wasn’t enough to satisfy her.

Ellen, who came to belong to the cheerful upper caste of the classroom, gradually became unreachable to me.

Since then, Ellen and I had grown apart and rarely spoke to each other, and the truth is that I never dreamed we’d be talking like this again.

“I mean, it’s already this late. Thanks for hearing me out.”

“You’re welcome. See you later, Kaito-kun.”

Remembering that the next period was PE, I said goodbye to Ellen and hurried back to the classroom.