Hey, Please Tell Me You’re Lying

“Eh….what did Ayaga just say?”

I couldn’t believe what my best friend Ayaga, standing in front of me, was saying.

“I just said it, Kaito-kun got a girlfriend. It seems that Chisato Kawasaki, a member of Class 3, confessed her feelings during lunch break, and Kaito-kun said yes.”

I think I heard Kaito-kun got a girlfriend, but I feel like there’s some kind of misunderstanding. Because Kaito-kun likes me. As such, it would be impossible for him to go out with another girl who is not me.

So, I’m sure Ayaga must be joking.

“It’s unusual for Ayaga to suddenly make a joke like this. April Fool’s Day was three months ago, remember? And I don’t think it’s a good idea to make jokes like that.”

“I would never say such a thing, even as a joke. Anyway, what are you going to do about Kaito-kun getting taken away?”

Seeing Ayaga’s rather impatient expression, I began to think that maybe she wasn’t kidding.

At the same time, I began to feel intense chest pain and breathlessness.

“I-It’s a lie, right? Ayaga, please tell me you’re lying.”

Not wanting to accept the reality by any means, I voiced this with a pleading expression, but Ayaga just shook her head with a sad face.

“It’s a lie, a lie, a lie. Kaito-kun has a girlfriend, it’s a lie.”

“Ah, Ellen wait. Where are you going?”

I screamed hysterically and ran out of the classroom, shaking off Ayaga’s restraint.

And then, I ran towards Kaito-kun’s classroom, but it was already too late, he wasn’t there.

Currently, it was the parent-teacher-student week before the summer break, so maybe that’s why he left early.

With that in mind, I immediately head for the shoebox.

Since I know the road that Kaito-kun takes on his way to and from school, I should still be able to catch up with him if I run.

I changed from indoor slippers to shoes and started running along Kaito-kun’s school route.

It’s mid-July, so the temperature is fairly high, and when I’m running, I started sweating all over my body, but right now I don’t have the luxury to worry about such things.

In any case, I would not be satisfied unless I talked directly with Kaito-kun to confirm the truth.

I ran for a while and identified a familiar back, but there was also a back I didn’t recognize next to it.

And the two of them were walking happily talking and holding hands as if they were lovers.

Seeing the two of them together made me realize that Kaito-kun really got a girlfriend.

“N-No…Kaito-kun, why.”

Watching the scene unfolding before me, I couldn’t accept it and crumbled to my knees in the end.

As my sight began to blur, I realized that I must be crying.

My mind was completely dominated by a deep despair.

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It has been two days today since Kaito-kun got a girlfriend.

Because of the betrayal from Kaito-kun, I could not eat properly and could hardly sleep at night.

After witnessing the two of them walking happily together that day, I have very little recollection of what happened after that.

I couldn’t remember anything about how I got home after that, or how I spent the last few days.

For me, the shock of heartbreak was that great.

The mental damage was greater than that day in the fifth grade when Alan abandoned me, and I was completely ill, with a fever of nearly 39 degrees Celsius.

“…I shouldn’t have fallen in love with Kaito-kun in the first place if I was going to feel like this.”

I even began to think that it would be easier if I just hated Kaito-kun from the bottom of my heart like I hated Alan, but unfortunately I couldn’t do that.

Kaito-kun was the savior who saved me from the hell called bullying, the ideal prince who protected me, and the sun who shone warmly on me when I was depressed.

No matter how hard I tried, there was no way I could ever dislike Kaito-kun.

Rather, the more I try to dislike him, the more I end up liking Kaito-kun, which in turn torments me intensely.

“….uuu”

I imagined a scene in which Kaito-kun and Kawasaki-san were kissing, and I felt an intense disgust.

I took the basin that was placed next to the bed, and vomited everything I had eaten into it.

Even though I was not able to eat, I was losing weight rapidly over the past two days because I was regularly spitting out what little food I could eat in this way.

“I look… terrible.”

When I looked in the mirror, I saw my reflection, pale and gaunt as if I were dead, and it made me feel deeply miserable.

“I, what should’ve I done….?”

I wonder if things would have turned out differently if I had confessed to Kaito-kun as Ayaga had advised me to do before instead of being passive.

I started to think about it, but now that it was all over, it was too late for me.

The mental strain had reached its breaking point, and I could feel something inside me had started to break.