Until My Spirit Was Destroyed By My Super Yandere Childhood Friend And I Fell Into Darkness - Chapter 30 (You look much better than you did three months ago, and that's a relief)

“Good morning, Kaito. How are you today?”

“Yeah, I feel fine today. Thank you, Yuki-nee.”

It was my cousin who called out to me Yukina Kenjo, so Yuki-nee.

(TL/n: So I made a mistake, it’s not Kenjo, it’s Tsurugi, but I’ve been using Kenjo so I’ll keep it that way)

Yuki-nee, who has long black hair and is as tall as me and has an outstanding style, and has always been like an older sister.

By the way, she is also my first love, and I actually confessed to her when I was in elementary school.

Well, at that time I was shaken to the core.

But even after I got dumped, we weren’t particularly awkward, and Yuki-nee and I remained on good terms.

“Well, that’s good. Compared to three months ago, your complexion has improved considerably, so I’m relieved.”

“… I’m really sorry for worrying you back then.”

“You don’t have to apologize. Anyone can get sick.”

It’s been three months today since the day I collapsed at school.

After that, I was rushed to the hospital, and as a result of many twists and turns, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and forced to be hospitalized in a psychiatric department.

I remember that it was really hard because I had to take a break from school for a while.

Now I have been discharged from the hospital safely and am recovering, but at the time, I had symptoms such as suicidal thoughts, auditory hallucinations, and hallucinations due to the shock of being betrayed by Hikaru. It can be said that those measures were unavoidable.

My symptoms started to improve thanks to Ellen and Yuki-nee. They devoted themselves to supporting me when I was suffering from schizophrenia.

In particular, Yuki-nee lives in Yokohama City, which is a little far from our house, and on top of that, she’s quite busy with university classes, but she shows up almost every day.

That’s why I really have nothing but gratitude for Yuki-nee.

I will return the favor in some way when I get better.

As I was thinking about that, Yuki-nee opened her mouth as she noticed something on the screen of her smartphone.

“… Oops, it’s already this time. If I don’t leave soon, I’ll be late for the second class, so I have to go now.”

“Oh, thank you for coming today.”

“I’m honestly happy to hear that, I’ll come again.”

While expressing my gratitude, I saw Yuki-nee off at the entrance.

Then I started spending my time doing what I love as usual.

Although I have been discharged from the hospital, I am still instructed to recuperate at home for a while, so I don’t go to school.

In the beginning, I felt a strong sense of guilt for spending time at home instead of going to school, but I soon got used to it after thinking that it was for medical treatment.

Just between us, it now feels like a slightly longer summer vacation.

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While I was spending my time studying, playing games, surfing the net, etc. and also having lunch, it was time after school before I knew it.

It was almost time for Ellen to come over to my house, and I honestly couldn’t wait.

“… I want to meet Ellen soon.”

When my schizophrenia was at its worst, Ellen even took time off from school to take care of me.

I was grateful for Ellen’s kindness, and at the same time, a twisted feeling began to swirl in my heart that I wanted her kindness to be directed only toward me.

I’m sure I didn’t have such a muddy, possessive feeling toward Ellen before.

Furthermore, I didn’t like Ellen until the seventh grade.

I went out with Chisato Kawasaki in the third year of junior high school because I had lost romantic feelings for Ellen, who had become really popular and unattainable.

In the first place, Ellen, who is beautiful and has a good personality, and I, who have only mediocre abilities except academic ability, would never be a match for her.

Well, it goes without saying that my academic performance has also declined significantly due to long absences from school, making it even more disproportionate.

While I am thinking about this, the intercom rings and Ellen, in her school uniform, comes up to my room.

“Hello, Kaito-kun. I’m glad to see you’re doing well.”

“Thanks, I’m feeling much better now, so maybe one day soon I’ll be able to go to school normally again.”

“I hope it happens soon. I’ll be waiting for Kaito-kun to get better and come to school.”

Ellen was truly like an angel as she spoke with a gentle smile on her face.

I must be a scab for wanting to keep her kindness to myself and monopolize it.

I was sick and tired of my ugly feelings, but the thought didn’t seem to subside.

“Well then I’ve got some errands to run later, so I’d better be on my way.”

“….see you later.”

“Yeah, see you later.”

When I heard that Ellen was leaving, I felt that I didn’t want her to go.

It looks like quite a long time had passed while the two of us were having a good time talking.

To be honest, I would have liked to spend more time with her, but I couldn’t say that because it would have been a nuisance to Ellen.

I just wonder what Ellen has to do after this and where and with whom she will meet and what she will do.

Maybe I’m becoming somewhat strange because I keep thinking about that kind of stuff these days.