To the Person I Love and Hate the Most… - Chapter 7

A Relationship that Cannot be Told to Others…

After she lets go of her hug, I calm myself down and ask her.

“Why are you here? Why? Wasn’t your roommate supposed to come back today?”

“Yeah…he came back. But I didn’t want to part with Ma-kun like that.”

She replied so with tears welling up in her eyes.

“No…I told you yesterday…I shouldn’t fall in love with you in this situation, it’s hard for me too, you know?”

Oh no, I feel like wanting to cry as well.

Then, Natsumi-chan gently pats my head, as if she is comforting a crying child.

I have never had woman do such thing to me before.

I can’t hold back my tears any longer.

“I…I…I love you too, Natsumi-chan!”

I said so as tears stream down my cheeks.

“However, that’s exactly why…I can’t do this! I can’t bear the idea of you living together with him…”

Then, Natsumi-chan holds my cheeks with both of her hands.

“I will never do that with Ka-kun! I promise! I like you, Ma-kun! It might not be possible right now, but I will definitely leave that place! So, please…”

I know I shouldn’t do this, but I can’t hold myself back from hugging her tightly.

“From now on…call me Natsumi.”

She whispers so in my ear.

“Alright…I’ll remember your promise! Also, if there are no romantic feelings, can you please stop calling him ‘Ka-kun’? I’d prefer if you just call him your roommate…”

“Yeah, of course…”

The weather is very cold today.

She has been waiting for a long time, her hands are really cold.

The coldness of her hands feels like the depth of her love for me…

Even though it is really cold today, I feel warmth deep within my heart.

I’m still not convinced of her living situation with her roommate.

However, I decided that I will trust Natsumi-chan and overcome this situation together…

At that moment, Natsumi-chan and I started a relationship that we can’t tell others about.

I believe that in Natsumi-chan’s mind, her ex is just her roommate, and the person she truly loves is me…

Since that day, I start to spend time with Natsumi-chan whenever I have time.

We would go on dates, have dinners and hang around together.

Natsumi can be quite selfish at times, but I’m happy for the kindness and affection she gives me from time to time.

She just knows how to get to my heart.

I’m falling more and more in love with her.

She also stays over at my place sometimes.

However, I feel like having intimacy with her is too far over the line because of the current situation we’re in now.

I never touched her.

We haven’t even kissed yet.

Holding her hand, hugging her and staying by her side is enough for me.

However, little by little, I begin to notice her lies.

I’m genuinely worried about the abuse she gets from her roommate, but at least since we started dating, there hasn’t been any signs of it happening.

I believe she may be abused by her roommate in the past, but I begin to suspect that she might be exaggerating it.

But instead of getting mad of her because exaggerating it, I feel relieved that she is safer than I thought.

I know that these happy days won’t last forever, but still, I want to cherish the time I have with Natsumi-chan…

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I’m too naïve.

I used to believe that she will definitely keep her promise to me, but the reality is not so kind.

As I’m sitting on the train, I try to hold back my tears as best as I can…