To the Person I Love and Hate the Most… - Chapter 2

The First Farewell…

The next day, after finishing work, I head to the station where we agreed to meet.

I arrive earlier than the appointed time, but she is already there sitting on a bench with a gloomy expression on her face.

Without saying anything, I sit down next to her in silence.

I look at the sky, and notice that it’s starting to snow lightly.

“Why…did you break your promise?”

I break the silence and ask her so.

“……”

She remains silent at first.

“…are you getting abused again?”

I’m hoping that there is an acceptable explanation behind her actions.

“My roommate threatened me…he told me that I should leave if I don’t want to sleep with him…”

Contrary to my expectation, it is not an acceptable reason at all.

“Then you should have just left! I begged you to leave that place as soon as possible, didn’t I…? Even if you don’t want to live with me together yet, at least you can stay in a hotel or something. I said that I’d cover the expenses, didn’t I?”

“That’s…”

She said so with a troubled look on her face.

I think I need to make it clear, I need to ask the crucial question.

“Natsumi…do you really love me?”

“Of course!”

She answered so without any hesitation.

“But then why did you do it? Why won’t you listen to what I, say? You love me, don’t you?”

“…it’s not that simple.”

I can’t make sense of her words.

So, I probe further.

“Natsumi, do you still love your ex, who is your roommate?”

“That’s…not true…”

Then why in the world did she agree to sleep with him? I’m getting to feel frustrated.

“Then, get out of that place tomorrow! I’ll book a hotel for you!”

“I…can’t do that…”

“Hah?”

“……”

“If you won’t leave that place tomorrow, then we should break up! I’ve compromised for far too long, this is not right! This kind of relationship is not right!”

With a glimpse of hope, I said so.

“I can’t do that…it’s impossible…”

With a painful expression, she said so.

I take out a precious Purikura photo of us, a treasured memory of my memories with her.

(TN: Purikura is a photo sticker booth or the product of such a photo booth.)

With determination in my heart, I start to tear it apart.

“Eh? What are you doing!? Stop!”

She widened her eyes in surprise and said so.

However, I remain silent, continue to tear the Purikura photo and throw it into a trash can.

“Goodbye!”

I get onto the train without even looking back at her.

As the train starts to move, I reminisce all my beautiful memories with her…

……

I met her on an online dating forum.

We exchanged emails for a few times, and finally decided that we should meet and talk in person.

When we met each other for the first time, I was shocked.

She has a charming appearance and such a beautiful face, she almost looks like a model…

For me, who had never been in a relationship with a woman before, it was too much of a shock.

When we actually talked in person, I notice that she was somewhat an overbearing person, but I had been captivated by her charming appearance.

In no time at all, we become really close…

We started calling each other ‘Ma-kun’ and ‘Natsumi-chan’.

I never had such a good time talking with a woman before, so I sincerely wanted to cherish my time with her.

When we were about to part, she had a sad expression on her face.

“Eh…? What’s wrong…?”

“Ah, it’s nothing…I just…feeling a bit lonely…”

Huh? Does that mean?

With hope in my heart, I gathered my courage and said.

“…if you want to…let’s meet again sometime!”

“……”

She stayed silent for a while and gave off an indescribable atmosphere.

At first, I wondered if I had gone too far, if she didn’t want to meet me again. However, when I thought about it, I just asked her if she wanted to meet again, so it shouldn’t be too big of a problem.

It was as if she had something to say but couldn’t…

…an hour passed in silence.

I’m a person from a science background, so I don’t particularly like wasting my time…

But at that moment, I didn’t think that my time was being wasted for even one second…

Seeing her with a somewhat sad expression on her face…makes my heart wrench…

I felt strangely nervous.

I had never seen such an expression on a woman’s face before…

“…umm…well, I’ll send you an email again today. At that time, if you still want to meet, please reply to my email.”

After a while, she finally told me so.

Then, with those mysterious words, she walked away