The Villainess Who Was Dumped Got Married into My Family, a Mob Noble from the Frontier, and Turns Out, She's an Amazing Capable Wife? - Chapter 58: Jelasis Gran Ignite – Despair

Chapter 58: Jelasis Gran Ignite – Despair

“―Hah! Hah, hah…”

I returned to my original form from one that had been burnt to ashes.

“―Blegh.”

I found myself violently throwing up in the middle of a forest, the location unknown to me. 

Each time I fused with the demon, my heart became more and more mangled.

It was incredibly painful, worse than anything I had felt before, yet I had tried to endure it.

“Again… it was futile…”

Despite fusing with the demon and targeting him at his weakest, I couldn’t understand why it hadn’t worked.

Why, why, why, why.

If things stayed the same, Edward wouldn’t die, and everything I had done would be in vain, leaving me in utter despair.

Why, why, why, why.

“The problem is, your opponent was too strong?”

The demon’s voice echoed in my head. 

“He had an Onyx with him, putting you at a disadvantage.”

“I don’t care! I don’t care! I don’t care!”

I screamed back. 

The demon whispered softly,

“That Onyx, you see, is a dragon that once accompanied the hero. He’s a Curse Eater, which means he can devour us. After his sister Menou fell from grace due to a taboo, he disappeared, but I never imagined he would be here.”

A dragon, a dragon.

How was I supposed to deal with that suddenly? 

“You said I could win!”

I lashed out at the demon. 

Because I believed there was a chance to win, I had accepted the demon as my sister had instructed, offering my entire body to a point of no return.

And yet, to not be able to defeat him, that was absurd, absurd, absurd, absurd.

“Hey, hey, I don’t want to be thought of as all-powerful.”

“How am I supposed to defeat someone like that?” 

Despite fighting with all my strength, I was completely outclassed. 

Even targeting his weaknesses, my flames were neutralized.

My swordsmanship, my everything, was inferior.

The madness hidden within me, the only thing my sister ever praised me for.

“Even that, even that was defeated…?”

“He’s just a monster, gyahahaha.”

“This isn’t a laughing matter!!”

I clawed at my hair.

No matter how much I covered my ears, even if I ruptured my eardrums, the demon nonchalantly continued to whisper in my head. 

My arms and legs could be torn off, my heart pierced, my head crushed, and yet I couldn’t die.

The demon would heal me.

I’ve wished countless times to be turned to ash, to be flung far away, to disappear somewhere distant.

“You’re a monster too, Gyahah!”

“Shut up.”

There’s no turning back. 

Since I can’t go back, I have no choice but to move forward. 

“That’s right, Jelasis, what are you seeking? In the end, it’s not my fault; it’s because your heart was weak. Blaming others without acknowledging your own lack of strength is like denying all the hard work your sister put in, isn’t it?”

“…I wonder if my sister would forgive me?” 

At this point, everything I’ve attempted has been a failure. 

Securing the holy relic, killing Edward and Ragna Vel Brave, all of it, everything, absolutely everything.

“You’d probably get scolded, poor Jelasis. She won’t hug you, nor kiss you, let alone anything beyond that, huh?”

I don’t want to be scolded; I hate it.

The thought of no longer being loved by my sister was unbearable. 

Without that love, my reason for existing would disappear.

“So, what now?”

So… 

“You have to kill everyone, destroy everything, and take Alicia for yourself.” 

I have to kill everyone, destroy everything, and take Alicia for myself.

“—I have to make them all like me.”

“That’s right, Jelasis. Kuhihihi, good boy. I’ll tell you one more way to beat him.”

“What do you want me to do?”

“You still have something you haven’t given me yet, right? Gyahaha!”

There was one thing I hadn’t handed over to the demon. 

Something precious that my sister told me to keep safe. 

In the midst of our miserable home and our terrible circumstances, it was for a day like this that I saved it—my soul.

I remembered my sister’s words, “Jelasis, no matter how hard it gets, cherish it. Even if it’s tarnished or trampled upon, as long as you have it, we can always move forward.”

“No, I can’t do that!”

It was the soul that held my will to move forward with my sister, towards the future. 

I must not give it to the demon.

“But hey, who’s fault is it that everything failed and we can’t move forward?”

“That’s that bastard’s fault.”

“Nope, Jelasis, it’s all on you. You lost everything.”

“That’s… but I tried so hard…”

“Tried hard? Gyahah, despite living for the same amount of time, there’s such a huge gap in your basic abilities. Isn’t that just a fact?”

“Ah, uh…”

“I lent you my power, but since you lost with your own abilities, there’s nothing we can do about it, right? Haha.”

The demon’s voice continued in my head.

“Just a little is fine, right? Jelasis, we share a fate, don’t we? I’m happy just with you being alive.”

“…Alright.”

It felt like I had already given everything. 

Just a little, if it’s just a little, my sister won’t say anything.

“If it means I can win, if I can kill him next time.”

“Of course, haha! With the power of a demon, that barrier won’t hold. You can kill him before it’s reconstructed. So declare it—offer your soul.”

Led by the demon, I declared,

“Okay, for my sister’s sake, right? I’ll offer my soul.”

The moment I said it, it felt like my heart turned completely dark.

Filled with murky black emotions, and at the same time, a strong pleasure surged through my head, sending shivers down my spine.

“Hyahahahahaha! Gyahahahahaha! Good boy, Jelasis, now your body and soul are mine!”

“!? That’s not what we agreed on, demon!!”

“Haa? You still have some will left? Idiot, I couldn’t care less about facing an Onyx dragon. Gyahah!”

“No, this can’t be…”

“My poor Jelasis, but don’t worry, I’ll live as I please in this world, so savor that happiness, huh? Gufuh, Gyahahaha! I’m so lucky, it’s hilarious how easy it is to deceive a dumb siscon with potential. Kuhihi, Guhi, Ahi!”

The demon sneered vilely.

I had no control over my body anymore.

It felt like I was dropped to the bottom of a deep, deep sea, unable to surface, falling into a dark void of nothingness. 

What have I done? 

It was too late for regrets.

“What a pitiful soul indeed.”

I heard a voice.

“To think even the hand of salvation has been twisted, this is a grave situation.”

“Haa? Who’s there, an old man—huh?”

As my consciousness faded, I felt as though my body was being cut in half. 

It felt like my soul was being torn apart.

“GUAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!”

The demon’s screams reached me. 

I didn’t feel the intense pain… My heart hurt more than anything.

“What the hell are you doing?”

“The young master doesn’t yet know how to defeat a demon that has fully fused with someone.”

“Wait, let’s make a deal. I can grant any wish you―”

“No need. The Brave family has always carved their own path with their own strength. Besides… the wishes a lowly, inferior demon like you can grant are hardly worth mentioning.”

With that, it felt like the demon disappeared, or so I thought.

But I can’t go back now. 

It’s like my heart has been broken, and I can’t move my arms or legs anymore.

Ah, Big Sister, Patricia. 

I’m so sorry for breaking our promise.