The Reason Why I was Cheated on By My Girlfriend

The Continuation of First Love (1)

Kaguya Sakashita’s POV

The moment I see them, my mind goes completely blank.

But when our eyes meet, I immediately understand.

This is Yua-san’s way of getting back at me.

She is doing to me exactly what I have done to her that day.

(…this is how Haruki-san must have felt.)

Before the incident happened, whenever I watched Haruki-san from afar, he always had a smile on his face.

(…so this is Haruki-san’s choice.)

Seeing is believing.

For the first time, I feel like I truly understand what that phrase means.

Back then, Haruki-san clung to me.

Surely, it could have been anyone.

When someone is kind to you during such painful times, you could fall for anyone.

─but I want that someone to be me.

I enter the classroom.

I rush over to them and firmly grab Haruki-san’s cheeks.

Haruki-san’s eyes widen in surprise.

Without saying a word, I hold his face between both of my hands.

And then─

After our tongues intertwined for a while, I gasp for breath.

I let go of Haruki-san.

Then, I looked at my friend who has lost her mind.

Yua-san is stunned.

She probably can’t understand what just happened.

Now, what should I do?

It would be easy to follow my emotions and condemn Yua-san, but no one would be happy.

Haruki-san’s suffering won’t disappear, Yua-san would continue to go crazy, and I’m sure these vague feelings will remain inside me as well.

I understand the situation.

I told Haruki-san, ‘It’s okay to choose both of us’.

But he is hiding this situation from me, that means he didn’t choose both of us.

If he chose me, he would break up with Yua-san.

So, let’s assume Haruki-san did tell Yua-san that he wants to end his relationship with her.

Of course, she wouldn’t want that to happen.

She would try to keep Haruki-san by her side somehow.

If I were in Yua-san’s position, what would I do?

What could I do to get Haruki-san back?

—my life is all I have.

I would tell him that if he didn’t choose me, I would die.

…no, that’s not enough.

That doesn’t explain why Haruki-san didn’t break up with me.

Yua-san probably has some conditions for Haruki-san.

Considering that Haruki-san kept their relationship a secret, it’s highly likely there are some conditions that he needs to follow.

For example, something like kissing every day until graduation.

Or perhaps…taking Haru-kun’s first time.

“…Haruki-san.”

I look at him.

He has a terrible expression on his face

He looks like a defendant awaiting verdict.

I understand how Haruki-san feels.

No matter how cruel Yua-san is to him, no matter how much he is betrayed, he still can’t hate her because she is that important to him.

If someone like that threatened their life, he’d have no choice but to obey.

I think it’s incredibly foolish, and yet so wonderful.

Yua-san understands that too. Probably even more than I do.

That’s why she took advantage of his weakness.

Even though she knows it would only cause him more pain, she acted on a faint hope.

Haruki-san has no way of refusing.

It’s just a matter of time.

From Yua-san’s perspective, all she has to do is wait for Haruki-san to give in.

However, why can’t she wait?

It’s probably because Yua-san has reached her limit as well.

If I were in her position, I would definitely do the same thing.

(…the deduction is over.)

I understand the past.

So now it’s time to decide the future.

(…I feel really nervous.)

I take a deep breath.

And then—a sharp, dry sound echoes throughout the classroom.

Slap!

“That isn’t kindness at all.”

I slap Haruki-san’s cheek.

This is probably the first time I have ever resorted to violence.

“Even a corpse can just accept everything.”

A strange sensation spread through my palm.

It’s hot, painful, and incredibly unpleasant.

“Get a grip on yourself!”

I understand how he feels.

I have been watching his expression whenever he talks to Yua-san.

But this is not right.

Endlessly wavering like this…all of this is not only hurting Yua-san, but also himself.

Why do I love Haruki-san?

After a brief moment, the answer comes to me immediately.

It’s because he can accept someone as ugly as Yua-san.

If that’s the case, then I can be like that as well…that’s what I thought at first.

However, that’s before I get to know him.

Haruki-san is the kind of person who will do everything he can for someone else’s sake.

Everyone has their weaknesses.

Haruki-san’s weakness is that he can’t bear to hurt someone important to him.

Some might laugh at him and say it’s pathetic.

But I don’t think that way at all.

Sacrificing himself to protect others, he sounds like a protagonist of a story.

That’s why…at that moment, my admiration towards Haruki-san turned into first love.

I’m sure he must be crushed by guilt.

To hide his guilt, or perhaps to make up for his sins, he is acting kind towards me.

That’s not right.

I don’t like it when Haruki-san hides things from me, it feels lonely.

──that’s cowardly.

Believing that the other person will act in a way that is convenient for you and not doing anything about it is like being carried on someone’s back.

I don’t want to ride on his back.

I want to walk next to Haruki-san. So I, so I—

“Haruki-san, you can do better than this.”

I kick him in the back.

“Show me your cool side.”

“……”

His expression stiffens and he looks down.

“Wait.”

I’m sure Yua-san feel the same way as I do.

“…Kaguya-chan, will you forgive me?”

I immediately understand.

She has given up on persuading Haruki-san and has come to try to break me.

“Of course not.”

“Well then!”

“But even so──Yua-san, you are my only friend.”

I know that I’m being naïve.

It’s an idea that I couldn’t have imagined just a short time ago.

I used to hate Yua-san with all my heart.

I was determined to exterminate any pests that hurt Haruki-san.

But──even if it was all an act, even if it was all a setup to hurt me in this very moment…the fact that she gave me an enjoyable school life isn’t a lie. So…

“Yua.”

Haruki-san said so.

I look at him and swallow the words that I was about to say.

Everything is okay now.

I truly feel that way from the bottom of my heart.

“You remember your promise, right?”

“…wait, wait a minute.”

“Let’s do it.”

…promise?

“Haruki-san.”

“I made a promise with Yua.”

As soon as I called his name, he begins to explain.

“That day, after Kaguya and I went stargazing, I told Yua that I want to end that relationship with her. However, Yua said that she would just die. Then, she gave me a condition, either kiss her every day or have sex with her just once. In return, things would go back to how they were.”

“……”

“I’m going to end it now.”

“……”

I can’t bring myself to say yes.

That means Haruki-san is going to have sex with Yua-san.

I have imagined that Yua-san would threaten Haruki-san to end her life, but still…this is emotionally overwhelming.

“Don’t decide things on your own.”

Yua-san said so.

“I won’t keep such a promise.”

Haruki-san sighs and looks at me.

“I want to meet you here tomorrow.”

If I nod, he will take Yua-san somewhere.