The Reason Why I was Cheated on By My Girlfriend - Chapter 40

Mixes, Melts and Sweetness (2)

Haru’s POV    

“Please do to me what you did with Yua-san.”

“……”

Eh? What’s Kaguya trying to say?

“Last night, you slept close together, right?”

…wait a minute.

“How was it? Should we just lie down for now?”

…no, that’s not okay.

“It’s fine for Yua-san but not for me?”

My thoughts are probably written all over my face.

I hold my head with my hands and try to come up with a response.

“The situation is different.”

“I don’t think there’s any difference.”

“I’m not as safe as you think I am, Kaguya.”

“I’m not as beautiful as you think I am either, Haruki-san.”

Neither of us is giving in.

To be honest, I have no reason to refuse.

I also have a sex drive, and of course I find Kaguya attractive.

But this is not right.

With Yua still in my heart…

I really don’t know how to tell Kaguya about it.

I’m so tired.

There is no reason to worry about this in the first place.

Neither Kaguya nor I have any objections.

“Please sit down.”

After a short pause, Kaguya sits down on the futon.

I let out a light sigh and get on my knees.

Then I suddenly realize, even though she only asked me to sit down, but she is turning her back to me.

Ah, I see. Her deductive skills are truly frightening.

Kaguya doesn’t even turn around.

She must know exactly what’s going to happen.

I gaze at her back.

Her long hair, which is different from Yua’s, is striking and catches my attention.

I wonder what it would feel like if I touch it.

Ahh, I truly am the worst.

Even though I’m feeling aroused by the person I’m about to touch, there is someone else in my mind.

“…Haruki-san?”

Kaguya calling my name snaps me back to reality.

I lightly slap my cheeks and try to clear my thoughts.

Then I do the same thing as yesterday without thinking.

“……”

“……”

Silence.

Despite my empty thoughts, my senses continue to transmit vivid sensations.

The slight prickle of her hair. The softness of her skin beneath it, and her sweet scent.

My heart is beating really fast.

“…this is all.”

Unable to endure the silence any longer, I spoke up.

“…I just waited like this until Yua fell asleep.”

Kaguya didn’t say anything back.

Instead, she gently touches my hand.

(…it’s the same.)

Yua did the same thing to me last night.

(…but it feels slightly different.)

The length, shape, and texture of her fingers.

It’s because I remember last night so clearly that I can’t help but compare even the slightest differences.

(…disgusting.)

A strong feeling of disgust arises.

It’s because a certain thought crosses my mind.

—I wonder if Yua was thinking the same thing?

It really makes me sick.

Why? Why am I thinking about such things…even though such a wonderful girl like Kaguya is right in front of me…

“…I’m sorry.”

Kaguya murmured so.

“I really can’t hold myself back anymore.”

Suddenly, Kaguya turns around.

And then—I feel a sensation that I could never feel from her back, being pressed against my chest.

(…whose heartbeat is this?)

I’m shocked.

All the distracting thoughts I had just moments ago is completely overwritten by the shock I feel now.

“Haruki-san…”

She lets go of me.

Then she grabs my shoulder and stares intently at me.

I close my eyes.

There is no reason to refuse, nor is there any time to think about it.

Even without seeing, I can sense it.

A few centimeters, a few millimeters…and then, we touch each other’s lips.

I still can’t get used to this sensation.

There’s no taste. I even almost can’t feel our lips touching.

All I can feel is just my heart pounding.

(…hmm?)

There’s a different sensation from usual.

Something soft is pressing against my lips.

(…could this be—)

I open my mouth.

The next moment, what must be the softest thing in the world is being pressed against my tongue.

I open my eyes and look at Kaguya.

She has her eyes tightly shut and her body is tense.

My mind goes completely blank.

We both hold our breath and freeze.

Then, Kaguya slowly pulls her face away from mine.

Her eyes are dreamy, her mouth is slightly open, and her cheeks are more flushed than when we saw each other after the bath.

She has an expression on her face that I’ve never seen before.

“Are you disappointed?”

Kaguya asked so.

“I have a dirty side too.”

My empty mind is filled only with her voice.

“I’ve been holding back for a long time. I tried really hard to avoid the choices that would make you suffer, Haruki-san…”

Her eyes are slightly moist as she said so.

“I’m sorry. I don’t want it to be the same after all. I want to do something more special with you, Haruki-san.”

She touches my cheeks with both hands, looks at me intently, and then brings her face closer to mine again.

On the second time, I accept it easily.

I don’t know how to do it. I’m sure she doesn’t either.

However, I can feel a very soft sensation moving in my mouth.

(…what is this?)

Every time our tongues touch, my body tingles.

The sensation of her pressing against my chest gradually intensifies, and before I knew it, she has somehow wrapped her legs around my waist.

My brain is melted by this unexpected act.

Our tongues, which has only been touching, begin to intertwine.

Saliva starts to accumulate in our mouths.

Suddenly, I hear a sound I have never heard before.

Sucking, pushing…it seemed like Kaguya is trying various things.

Suddenly, she opens her eyes.

Our gazes meet immediately.

Her eyes are filled with a pleading look, it’s as if she’s seeking something.

It’s decisive.

There’s more than enough seductive power to melt away what rationality I have left.

I tentatively lick the tip of her tongue.

Kaguya let out a surprised sound.

Actually, it might be just the sound of her breathing.

However, I don’t have the clarity to think about it.

The sound grows louder.

Our tongues intertwined, and saliva overflowing from our mouths.

It’s hard to breathe.

However, neither of us wants to let go.

We both eagerly seek the unfamiliar sensations from each other.

Each time our tongues touch, the boundaries between us blurs more and more.

All the worries and doubts I was thinking about before melts away.

My mouth grows hotter and hotter.

The bitter taste that was there at first gradually fades, and eventually, it becomes sweet.

What is this?

We both brushed our teeth beforehand, there couldn’t have been any food left in our mouths.

In fact, the food that we ate earlier couldn’t have tasted this sweet.

It’s much sweeter than cake or cookies.

(…I wish this moment can last forever.)

Just as I’m thinking about that.

“……”

Kaguya holds my cheek and pulls her face away.

Her expression is even more dreamy than before.

She is breathing heavily as if she’s having a fever.

Each time, she blows hot breath onto my face.

“This is as far as we can go.”

Kaguya said so.

“As long as Yua-san is still in your heart, this is the end of the line.”

This is different from the Kaguya I’ve seen before.

She’s clearly turned on.

“I’m also holding back.”

She brings her face close again.

“I’ll make sure to fill that void.”

Her whisper in my ear sends shivers down my spine.

“I’ll make you forget about Yua-san, who has been causing you to suffer, Haruki-san.”

She rests her chin on my shoulder.

Then, she puts her arms around my back and hugs me so tightly that it almost hurts.

“…please choose me, Haruki-san.”

I—feel completely drained.

My brain can’t process all of this information.

I fall backwards onto the futon.

Kaguya is still clinging onto me, not wanting to let go.

I look up at the night sky.

The starry sky is still there.

A quiet place, far away from where people live.

In the room with only the two of us, the only sound that can be heard is the sound of our heartbeats.