The Reason Why I was Cheated on By My Girlfriend - Chapter 3

Having Your Mind Destroyed

I end up going to school today.

I feel like transferring schools, but I can’t possibly trouble my parents with such a stupid reason.

“Haruki, did something happen?”

A friend of mine asked me during gym class.

“Just lack of sleep.”

“Were you reading some adult magazines or something?”

“…well, something like that.”

He widens his eyes in surprise.

“Do you usually read adult magazines?”

“…well, I guess I do. It’s normal for guys.”

“Seriously? That’s so unexpected.”

He grins and puts his arm around me.

“What genre do you usually read?”

I keep my mouth shut.

Honestly, I’m not good with these kinds of topics.

“Let me guess. The fact that you have that kind of expression means it’s NTR, right?”

“NTR?”

“It’s a story where you’re at a karaoke with a bunch of extroverts. Then a naughty game starts. Your childhood friend gets carried away by the atmosphere and gets swept up by a player.”

“…that sounds disgustingly awful.”

“Idiot. It’s a nationwide fetish, you know?”

He says so with a casual tone as if he’s making a light dirty joke.

Normally, it wouldn’t bother me at all.

But right now, I’m so pissed that I want to erase him from existence.

“Hahaha, I get it. It feels like you’ve had your mind destroyed by combining adult magazines with Yua-chan, right?”

I can’t find the words to deny it.

The silence confirms his words.

However, he can’t possibly know what really happened just by that.

Even if I told him what really happened, he wouldn’t believe me either.

I put on a smile and ask him.

“…what do you mean by having your mind destroyed?”

“Apparently, reading adult magazines damages your mind.”

“That sounds pretty vague.”

“Well, it makes sense. Being cheated on isn’t something that happens in real life.”

He says so, laughing.

“If my girlfriend were ever stolen from me, I’d cut off the guy’s dick.”

“…that’s pretty extreme.”

I can’t laugh at his words at all.

As I let out a dry sigh, I suddenly think.

If that’s the case, how many people’s dick should I cut off?

“Well, that kind of things only happens in adult magazines.”

“…hahaha, yeah.”

Once again, I force a smile.

I’m not in the mood to laugh at all.

(Is this what it feels like to have your mind destroyed?)

Suddenly, I hear a girl’s voice.

I turn my gaze to the voice and see Yua standing on the tennis court.

Until yesterday, I would’ve followed her with my eyes.

Just watching her would have made me happy.

“…ah, she’s really disgusting.)

But now, I feel nothing but disgust.

I feel disgusted not only by Yua but also by how disappointed I am in myself.

The voices I hear and the scenery I see.

Everything should be the same as yesterday, but nothing feels the same.

After that, I continue to avoid Yua.

Normally, we would talk during breaks or have lunch together. But today, I don’t even want to see her face.

Even hearing her voice disgusts me.

After school, I take a route home I usually don’t take to avoid her.

I don’t leave school immediately because I’m sure that I would run into her at the school gate or the way home.

So, I wander around aimlessly in less crowded areas, and eventually end up in the library.

I sit down in a random seat and close my eyes.

The library is really quiet. I can smell a faint smell of books.

It’s such a nice place. It would’ve been great if I have the place to myself.

However, there’s someone else in the library.

The most famous person in the school.

A beautiful girl from the same second grade as me.

She is reading a book alone in the library.