The Reason Why I was Cheated on By My Girlfriend - Chapter 19

Kaguya Sakashita’s Decision (2)

Haru’s POV

“Haruki-san.”

After asking Yua to leave us alone, Kaguya called out to me.

I hold my breath and look at her.

“Go ahead!”

Once again, she catches me off guard. She moves the desk aside, spread her arms wide, and looks at me.

“Go ahead!”

She repeats her words.

Just trying to figure out what she means is giving me a headache.

“Sorry, I don’t get it. What are you doing?”

I asked so because I can’t tell what she wants.

“I’m waiting for a hug!”

Kaguya said so with a bright smile on her face.

“…why?”

I don’t understand?

A hug? Right now? Why?

“Do you hate hugs?”

“I don’t hate them, but…I’m sorry, why?”

Kaguya looks slightly annoyed.

“There are three reasons.”

She brings her hands back to the front, this time holding up her index finger, middle finger and ring finger.

“The first one is because I’m jealous. Despite everything that’s happened, it turns out you value Yua-san the most.”

“…sorry.”

“It’s not necessarily a bad thing. It’s just that I’m feeling jealous.”

Kaguya’s unexpected words hit me hard.

It feels like I’m kicked in the shins while I’m bracing myself to protect my face.

“The second reason is because a sense of crisis. I gathered up the courage to confess my feelings, and I absolutely don’t want a breakup in such a short time.”

“I feel the same way. If anything, I’m more worried about being hated by you.”

“That’s naive. I’m far more worried than you are.”

Kaguya said so, narrowing her eyes slightly.

At that moment, all of the tension from before has disappeared.

I begin to think that she’s really just jealous of Yua.

“The last reason is to reward you, Haruki-san.”

Kaguya’s words completely surprised me.

“I won’t ask for details, but I can tell from your face that a lot has happened.”

Kaguya gets up and kneel beside me.

She then grasps my hand, smiles gently, and says,

“You did your best, didn’t you?”

…what?

She figured all that based on her deductions and because of that she is spoiling me.

“I respect Haruki-san’s choice. To be honest, I’m jealous, but I won’t tell you not do to it. I am aware that Haruki-san doesn’t truly like me. Even so, I understand you’re still maintaining your relationship with Yua-san because you feel a sense of responsibility.”

Kaguya’s grip tightens.

I can feel her trembling and anxiety through her grip.

“No, that’s not it.”

I grasp her hand back.

“It’s not just a sense of responsibility.”

“…is that true?”

Her eyes look anxious. Thinking about it, maybe Yua was the same.

Maybe Yua was always anxious because I never put my feelings into words.

It’s too late for regrets now.

No matter what I do, the past cannot be changed.

But at least, I want to change the future.

I don’t want to repeat the same mistake again.

“I…”

I love you, Kaguya.

“……”

Huh?

“Haruki-san?”

“…no, umm.”

Why can’t I say it?

Why did Yua’s face come to mind just before I said it…

“Kaguya, you always give me the words I want to hear, don’t you?”

Deceptive words escape from my mouth.

“Thank you. It might be hard to understand, but I’m truly grateful.”

No, that’s not it. That’s not what I want to say.

The words I wanted to convey just now are simply, ‘I love you.’

“Kaguya, you are much more important to me than you might think.”

“…!”

I forced a smile and said so.

Kaguya’s expression changes amusingly, she is blushing in red.

Her grip tightens.

If I weren’t holding her hand, she would probably be hiding her face.

She’s really cute.

I’m so happy that Kaguya has become my girlfriend.

“So umm, is this conversation over?”

“…yeah. That’s all I wanted to say.”

A sharp pain pierces my heart.

“Well then, shall we start eating now?”

“Yeah. We need to hurry a bit.”

I don’t understand…why?

…no, this is the right answer.

I shouldn’t overthink it.

“Umm, I also prepared a bento for Haruki-san today…do you want to eat it?”

“Yeah, I really want to eat it.”

After that, both me and Kaguya have lunch as usual.

We don’t talk about Yua at all.

We just talk to each other casually.

It feels really enjoyable.

Every time I see Kaguya’s innocent smile, I feel like I’m drawn into her.

Yet…

The more I’m attracted to her, the more my heart hurts.

Maybe I’ve made a mistake.

A vague sense of anxiety grows from deep within my heart, but I can’t find the reason why.

I put on the lid of the bento box and look at Kaguya.

She has such an attractive face, truly fitting as the most beautiful girl in school.

She gave off a cold impression at first, but when I got to know her better, she is such a pleasant person.

She might not say anything particularly clever, but she can express intelligent thoughts. She somehow takes pride in not having friends. Her expressions change frequently, so it’s easy to read what she’s feeling.

And above all, she pays close attention to me.

She can see through my emotions even when I don’t notice it myself.

She also always gives me the words that I want to hear.

There aren’t many people as wonderful as her.

Kaguya is—really important to me.

From now on, I’ll cherish her even more.