The Reason Why I was Cheated on By My Girlfriend - Chapter 14

Rejection (1)

Haru’s POV

“What are you doing here…Yua?”

I’m surprised to see Yua inside my toom.

If I was my usual self, I might have reacted with a scream or something exaggerated like that.

However, all I can feel right now is…disbelief.

I’m stunned, completely stunned.

I’m disappointed…not at Yua, but in myself for feeling a tiny bit of happiness when I see her.

(…end this.)

I scream inside.

(…I have to end this.)

I truly am the worst.

I accepted Kaguya’s confession, and yet I’m still holding on to my first love.

That’s why, I’ll end this.

I’ll have to clearly reject Yua.

I take a deep breath and sit up.

Then, I look at Yua and open my mouth.

“……”

Please disappear from my life.

However, those words never came out.

The reason is because of Yua’s expression.

I expected sadness, or maybe anger.

However, what I see is Yua holding her cheeks with both hands, lost in ecstasy.

“Ahaha.”

She laughs happily.

“…why are you laughing?”

I ask her so fearfully.

“You called my name.”

I feel chills run down my spine.

“Haru-kun is looking at me.”

This isn’t normal. I don’t know this side of Yua.

I really don’t know this side of her, but…for some reason, I feel like I’ve seen her like this before.

“Haru-kun…”

Her voice sounds dreamy.

Yua reaches out her hand towards me.

In that instant, a dreadful memory resurfaces.

Her debauched face, slightly open mouth, and the sweet tone of her voice escaping from her soft lips.

It’s just like what I saw that night in the classroom.

“Stop it!”

I swat her hand away with all my strength.

A sharp sound echoes, and my hand slowly starts to burn with heat.

“…it hurts.”

Yua grasps her smacked hand with the other and looks down.

Seeing her like that fills me with intense guilt.

I want to apologize immediately and check her hand.

But I bite my lip and hold myself back.

I still have a conscience. I still have feelings for Yua.

This isn’t good. I can’t keep holding my feelings towards her.

I have to let go. I have to end it.

“…ahahaha.”

Yua laughs.

“Haru-kun touched me.”

My mind goes completely blank.

“Ahaha, I’m so happy. Touch me more, Haru-kun.”

Yua places her hands on the bed.

Instinctively, I throw off the blanket and put some distance between us.

But there is nowhere to run.

Before I knew it, my back hit the wall.

“…stay back.”

Yua keeps getting closer to me.

“I said stay back!”

When I shouted, Yua flinched.

Her shoulders are trembling.

Then, she finally shows a sad expression.

“What the hell…”

I cover my eyes with my hand arm.

“…what do you want from me!?”

I raise my head and screamed so from deep within my heart.

It’s a mess. I want to reject Yua, yet I’m so shaken that I feel like crying.

It’s contradictory, nothing makes sense anymore.

“Haru-kun.”

That’s the voice of the Yua I know.

The voice of the kind girl who can’t abandon someone in need.

I wipe my tears and open my eyes.

Yua, looking like she’s about to cry, speaks to me.

“Let’s have sex.”

“…are you kidding me?”

Yua shakes her head.

“You know that I’m dating Kaguya, right?”

“…I know. I know.”

Big tears start to stream down her face.

“I’m not asking you to choose me. I have no right to say that.”

With a strained smile I have never seen before, she continues.

“So please, just choose my body. Is that okay?”

I’m at a loss for words.

A rush of emotions overwhelms me.

I take a moment to sort them out before replying.

“Of course it’s not okay.”

“Why? No one will find out. I swear, I won’t say anything.”

I take a deep breath.

After slowly exhaling, I speak to her.

“…get out of here. You damn bitch.”

She looks shocked once again.

“Haru-kun, you’ve changed. You weren’t like this before.”

I don’t understand what’s going on.

Why are you acting like the victim?

“What the hell are you talking about? Seriously.”

That scene just won’t get out my head.

That scene of you happily having sex with another guy and insulting me as impotent is burned into my mind.

“You! …I have no idea what you’re thinking.”

We were always together all the time. I thought I knew everything about you—your favourite foods, your hobbies, your friends, even your test scores.

“…why did you something like that?”

That’s why…I don’t understand.

I can’t imagine what could have changed her.

“Hey, Haru-kun.”

I look at Yua.

“Was your first time having sex felt good?”

I bite my lip.

It’s painful just to make a sound now.

“My first time…was the worst.”

Yet Yua said it with a face that looks even more pained than mine.

“My hands and feet were tied up by strangers…”

“…wait.”

“Even when I cried and begged, they wouldn’t stop…”

“Hey, wait a minute…”

My mind can’t keep up with what’s happening.

No, my mind must be refusing to understand.

“It felt disgusting…it was really painful…”

Yua quietly gets off the bed and stands on the floor, looking down at me.

“…what are you doing?”

Suddenly, she pulls down her pants.

“Look, here.”

She is pointing to her right thigh.

There are marks there—there are bumps, like a clean paper has been stained with black ink.

“…what is that?”

Instead of answering, she takes off her underwear.

Then, she holds it out to me, leaving me stunned.

“Do you know what this is?”

It’s her pure white underwear.

The light coming through the window behind her illuminates the heavily stained part.

“My body…it has become strange.”

My mind refuses to understand again.

I don’t want to know what Yua is saying.

“Just being with you made me so wet.”

Stop. Please stop.

I try to cover my ears with my hands, but I hesitate.

I mustn’t run away.

I have to listen to this.

“At that time, I cried the whole time.”

Yua said so with a faint voice.

“Hey Haru-kun, do you remember? About six months ago, when I was bedridden?”

I nod at her words.

“I was so happy. Every day, you took care of me. I realized I really like you. So, I tried really hard to show you my true feelings. My body was always so hot, and I felt like I’d go crazy if I didn’t get touched by you…”

Her words are interrupted by sobs.

“I’m sorry. I must be making you feel sick.”

She wipes her tears and pleads.

“But I really do love you, Haru-kun. I just want to be by your side, in any way. That’s why, please…let me by your side.”

…I feel absolutely terrible.

It’s as bad as…no, it’s even worse than when I saw that scene.

I take a deep breath to calm my emotions.

I repeated her words over and over.

Then finally, I give her my response.

“Of course I can’t let you by my side.”