The Reason Why I was Cheated on By My Girlfriend - Chapter 11

Kaguya Sakashita’s Impure Seduction (2)

Haru’s POV

“I understand why you’re hurt, Ogura-kun.”

…what are you talking about?

“It’s because Yua-san looked so hurt, right?”

That’s totally on point.

I thought Yua was laughing at me behind my back.

If that were true, she would’ve never made such a face.

“You think that she might have truly liked you, right?”

That’s exactly right.

That’s why I…

“That’s why you’re thinking…why was she with someone else—”

“Sakashita-san.”

I interrupt her words.

“…Sakashita-san, what were you thinking?”

I’m pissed.

She has touched a sensitive spot without any consideration. My blood is boiling.

“I can’t forgive…”

“…what can’t you forgive?”

If I let my guard down, there’s no telling what I’d do.

Struggling to control my intense emotions, I look at Sakashita-san.

Our eyes meet.

This is probably the first time since I came to her house that I’m looking directly into her eyes.

“I like you.”

……

“I like you, Ogura-kun.”

“…wait a minute, I’m sorry. What are you saying?”

My mind can’t keep up with what’s happening right now.

I put my hand on my forehead and desperately search for the right words.

“Like me as in…as a friend?”

“I like you in a romantic sense.”

I have almost no memory of our conversation.

I don’t understand why Sakashita-san likes me.

I don’t understand why is she telling me her feelings at a time like this?

“I thought there would be no opportunity to express my feelings.”

Is she teasing me?

Or is she just trying to comfort me?

“Because it’s a love that can never come true.”

But her expression is completely serious.

No…when I look at her closely, she’s angry.

“It’s because Yua-san was always by your side.”

I take a deep breath.

I force myself to separate myself from my jumbled emotions and ask a genuine question.

“…why is it because of Yua?”

“I told you, didn’t I? The two of you are like celebrities in our school. You make a perfect couple. From my perspective, there is no room for anyone else to come between you two. So, I decided to give up. Because you looked happy so happy beside Yua-san. I thought that was for the best. And yet…Yua-san betrayed you!”

She clenches her hands tightly and raises her voice.

“How foolish. To betray Ogura-kun like that! Lying to you! Hurting you!”

Her voice is loud.

I’m stunned. All I can do is to look at her with my mouth agape, watching her expressing her emotions.

“…ah, I said it.”

Sakashita-san looks at me with an awkward expression on her face.

“I’m sorry. It was all calculated.”

“…calculated?”

She gets up and stands in front of me.

“Wait—”

She grabs my shoulders and pushes me down.

“Sakashita-san?”

“Please call me by my first name.”

“No, wait, calm down.”

“I am calm.”

“No, no, wait a minute…you say that you like me, but we never even talked before.”

“Yes, we have.”

“When?”

“It was when you were on the library committee. I was being harassed by some boys at the library, and Ogura-kun was the only one who helped me. The others just ignored me.”

“…that was just a sense of duty.”

“I only like the library when you’re there. At first, I thought of you just as a kind person. But before I knew it, I start to be aware of you. I begin to look for you at school.”

The grip on my shoulder tightens.

It doesn’t hurt at all. Instead, I can feel that Sakashita-san’s hands are trembling.

“I love your sincerity. I love your refreshing smile. I love how you help people in trouble. I love how you moved during gym class to make basketball enjoyable for those who aren’t good at sports. But I also love the childish side of you that got determined to win in the end. I love your kind eyes. I love the cat-like smile you have when you make a joke. I love your slightly deep voice. I even love how you’re not good at making ‘ra’ sound. I love your serious profile when you’re reading a book. I love your shy smile when you come across an difficult sentence and laugh while looking around. I love that you’re actually good at cooking. I love the proud look on your face when you were bragging about your homemade lunch to your friends. I think it’s cute that you hate tomatoes. I love the look on your face when you were desperately searching for something a classmate dropped during our first-year social studies field trip. I love your voice when, after finding it all sweaty, you told me to treat you to a juice. I love that you’re admired by your friends. I love that you are kind to both boys and girls. I love that you’re good at studying. In our first-year final exam, you ranked third in our grade. I was ranked first, but you beat me in math. I really wanted to talk to you then. I wanted to ask how you studied and many other things. For a long time. But because Yua-san was always by your side, I told myself that I shouldn’t bother the two of you. I shouldn’t get in your way. I should hold myself back. And yet, I just kept falling more and more in love…I felt like I was going to lose my mind.”

……

“No, that’s not true. I’ve been losing my mind for a long time.”

Her eyes are moist. Her shoulders are trembling. Her heavy breaths are touching the tip of my nose.

“Please look at me.”

We have been looking at each other’s eyes for a while now.

“Please let me overwrite your feelings for Yua-san.”

Even an insensitive person like me can understand that her feelings are genuine.

“I will never betray you. The only person I like is you.”

Alone with her in her house. The distance between us is almost intimate, and she’s confessing her feelings.

Receiving such a straightforward declaration of affection from the most beautiful girl in school—is there really a man who can refuse this?

“…I’m sorry.”

I look away.

“I don’t want to give you an answer with these feelings.”

I squeeze out the words as sincerely as I can.

“No, you can’t. I told you, didn’t I?”

She holds my cheeks with both hands and forcefully turn my face to hers.

I can resist if I really want to. But I can’t bring myself to refuse.

“Please, let me take you away from her.”

My heart skips a beat. Even though my emotions are a mess, my mind is surprisingly calm.

‘─sorry. It was all calculated.’

I finally understand the meaning of those words.

“I’ll wait for ten seconds. If you really don’t want this, you can turn your face away.”

Sakashita-san said so.

I understand what she means immediately.

Her teary eyes are fixed on my lips.

In other words, I’m told to decide within ten seconds whether to run away or accept it.

(…is there a reason to run away?)

Honestly, it hit me really hard.

Yesterday was really a hard day for me.

But talking with Sakashita-san was such a relief.

She is such a great person. She is unique, kind, but has a calculating side as well. I think I can grow to like her more with every conversation. Not to mention her appearance—she’s the most beautiful girl in school. She’s probably the kind of person who wouldn’t look out of place next to a celebrity.

And more importantly, she confessed her feelings to me.

She even told me the words that I want to hear the most right now,

‘—I will never betray you.’

“Time is up.”

She says so, closing her eyes.

Then, she slowly brings her face closer to mine.

—our first kiss has no taste.