The Girl sitting next to me is playing with my '--hing' though... - Chapter 21: Trying to get myself rid of the days filled with boredom, led to this.

Trying to get myself rid of the days filled with boredom, led to this.

“You see, I always find the school life as terribly boring.”

With these words, Minamisawa began to tell her story in an eloquent voice.

“Spending dozens of hours a week in classes that I have serious doubts about whether they will serve any use in the future, then spending time in a space with people I have no interest in, and after that, returning going home…… just to repeat it all again in the  coming day and the next. I am unable to describe it with any other word than utterly boring.”

That is certainly hard. It is boring to the degree where you start searching the internet on ‘what is even the meaning of living a life?’ in the first place. I sympathize with you.

“Then why don’t you take action yourself? …… I’m sure Hayami thinking that right. But no, ehen if you take action voluntarily, what you get is just a common outcome, not something that is beyond your realm of imagination.”

Haaahn?

Forgetting that my mouth was now held close by the soles of her feet. I just continue to listen to what she was saying.

“Making friends, having boyfriends and girlfriends, having dreams and goals — which is even glorified later by the people who aspire that category. But all that is something I think is very normal. But then, the same people are so reluctant to let go of this normalcy after achieving it. Why do you think that is the case?”

 Minamisawa put her right foot down and asked me for my opinion.

” … maybe because they want to cover up their indefinite boredom by that ignorace, right?”

“Fufu. That’s exactly what I was getting at.”

After saying this in a satisfied tone of voice, Minamisawa immediately locks my mouth with her feet again.

“I want to cheat boredom, I want to escape from boredom. That’s why we reach for such shiny things like friends, girlfriends, dreams, and goals. And try to get as close to our version of fulfilment as possible. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I’m saying that there’s anything wrong with that. It’s just that even if you do achieve that fulfilment, it’s only temporary thing. Since that fulfilment will eventually escape from you …… that is what I absolutely dislike.”

That’s a statement which is likely to make a lot of enemies, while thinking that to myself, I wait for her next words.

“Once you get used to your present life, the days where you want to escape from boredom will begin again. …… If that repetition is what life is all about, then I’ve already given up on life since I was in junior high school. I’ve been bored enough already for a long time.”

The words sounded like a joke, but her expression told me the seriousness behind that.

I see. So you’ve been this twisted since your junior high huh. …… Well, even I can’t complain about other people either.

I’m not sure if I was right about the affinity I felt for her at the time. That feeling is growing stronger inside me.

 But if that’s the case, then it makes even less sense now.

” —- Then why do that kidn of thing in the first place? WIll be the very first question, won’t it.

The question I had in my mind was spoken by Minamisawa, as she began to express the solution, in other words, the true meaning of the question I had asked her in the beginning.

“I thought that ‘I have given up on life’, but more correctly, it was ‘I thought I had already given up on life.’ You see Hayami-kun … I feel something really close and amicable coming from you.”

After saying this, Minamisawa slowly lowered her right foot blocking my mouth.

“Being cursed with boredom, I seek stimulation. If I free you, a person of the same kind, from the curse of boredom. Surely then later on, you will also release me from this cage of boredom as well ….. This is the answer you’ve been wanting to know. Well? How’s that for something that you have been so eager to open the lid from, isn’t that quite a baseless and self-indulgent reason?”

“… can I talk now?”

“Yeah. You don’t have remain quiet anymore.”

 One of the two fetters(shackles) was now removed.

 I checked my throat and voice “Nnmm,” before opening my mouth.

“… and here I was thinking, that you have started to like me and were just act out your will in order to se—ce me.”

“…… Gag/Sarcasm?”

“No, it’s not. If you do something like that to a high school boy, he’s going to get the wrong impression of you. And I think, everyone in high school would agree with me on this you know? Probably.”

“Arra, Then I’ve done something really cruel to you then didn’t I. I’m sorry.”

 Minamisawa drops her feet on the floor and walked behind me.

“But rest assured, I won’t do it ever again.”

Saying that, Minamisawa went and released the last fetters(shackles) that was binding my hands.

“What’s up with you all of a sudden?”

“I’m already bored of this,…… that’s all there is to it. It was a short interaction, but it was fun, Hayami-kun.”

Saying those words with a somewhat sad look on her face, Minamisawa turned her back to me.

“I will now return to my boring life waiting for me …….”

“Ah, wait right there…”

It was right when Minamizawa was about to leave the classroom that it happened. 

I’m going to go back to my old boring life. Why is the door closed?

『—-A–arre? Why is the door closed? 』

There came the sound of a man, from the hallway.