The Bride Who Wants to Die - Chapter 17 : End
Translator: Sunnyshies
Editor: Ryuubii
Chapter 17 : End
In my blurred vision, I was looking back on my life
Ever since I was born, no one has loved me, and I have been cutting down my own life to heal the wounds of others.
My wounds are only getting deeper and I can only hide them.
I wanted to raise the child that was finally in my belly to love only me, his mother.
And yet, that child gave his life to his father.
To Roy-sama. To the person I loved in the past.
I felt abandoned, even by my own child.
I didn’t care if Roy-sama died.
That’s what I wanted to happen.
“Meg, how are you feeling?”
Roy-sama’s voice echoed in my head.
It reverberated over and over again, to the point of making me feel nauseous.
“Why are you still alive?”
I wish you hadn’t been chosen.
I wanted the child of mine and yours, to be the only one who could love me.
Ten days after the day the King and Queen died, and Roy-sama’s wound was healed.
I woke up in the bed in his room.
My whole body was screaming in discomfort.
The scenery in my eyes was blurry, and I still couldn’t get up on my own.
And then I learned.
Roy-sama is doing well.
I have no child in my belly.
Roy-sama took the throne as the King, and that I, who had risked my life to save him, was proclaimed a goddess.
None of it makes any sense.
“I, I wanted to be loved.”
No one will love me.
Because of the color of my hair, the color of my eyes.
But because I have extraordinary abilities, I am worthy of being used.
“I just wanted to love someone. I just wanted to be loved in return.”
I put the pillow on my waist and somehow managed to sit upright, turning my unsteady gaze to Roy-sama’s beautiful face.
“I should have let you die.”
His face contorts into a crumpled mess.
I put my hand on my stomach and thought of my now deceased child.
“I would’ve given anything to have that child.”
My eyes grow hotter.
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry.
“I’ve never wanted to live…”
“Meg.”
Roy-sama hugs me tightly.
Tightly and firmly, he pressed my face against his chest.
“I only wanted to die.”
The moment I said those words, tears welled up in my eyes.
This time I couldn’t stop, and I didn’t even want to.
I couldn’t breathe, and I cried so hard I couldn’t even speak.
Roy-sama hugged me the whole time and sometimes stroked my hair.
I didn’t feel uncomfortable.
“I’m sorry, Meg. But I still love you.”
I will continue to live with this person.
As a sickly bride with black hair and red eyes, who has no ability to do anything aside from listening to the words of love.
Ever since the day we got married, I thought I wanted to die.
I’m going to live from now on.
– END ☼ –
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