The Boy Who Gave Up on Romantic Feelings ~I’m Done Because I Was Betrayed by The Girlfriends I Used to Date~ - Chapter 35-36

Chapter 35

“Long time no see, Shintani.”

Shinozaki is blocking the path on my way home.

Ugh, I want to run away. Okay, let’s just ignore her and walk past.

As I try to walk past by her, she grabs my arm.

“Hey, why are you ignoring me like that? Are you okay?”

Your head is the one that’s not okay.

“Hey, why don’t you say something?”

“Well.”

I shrug off her arm and keep walking.

“Hey! Wait!”

Shinozaki quickly grabs my arm again.

“Let go, I want to go home.”

“Then listen to what I have to say.”

“I’m not interested in what you have to say.”

“…!? Just listen to me! It’s not like I’m going to say something bad to you!”

“Everything that comes us from your mouth is bad news for me. See ya.”

“Wait! Please just calm down for a moment! Just listen to me, please!”

“It’s going to be something like ‘let’s start over’, right?”

“Y-Yes! That’s right! I know what happened back then hurt you, and I’m really sorry for that! I think we can still start over again.”

Hah? What is she talking about? I instinctively look towards her face.

She looks terrible. She looks tired and has dark circles under her eyes. Her hair is a mess—she looks completely different.

“I still love you. Please, won’t you give me a chance? So…”

“What an eyesore.”

“…!? What’s wrong with you!? You think that girl is better than me?! I’m superior to her in every way! In appearance, in everything! Why would you…”

“Superior to her? Hah, don’t make me laugh. I’ve never seen someone as disgraceful, pathetic, and filthy as you are now.”

“—wha?”

“Should I tell you how I feel right now? I feel relieved. Seeing you like this, I feel incredibly relieved. My heart is filled with joy. Your current appearance, your miserable attitude, pitiful state, your desperation, all of it makes me happy.”

“What…what are you saying…”

“Ah, I feel like I’ve finally regained some emotions… Thank you for meeting me in such a pitiful state.”

“Ahhh…ahhh…ahhhhhh…”

She takes her hand off me, crouches down, and begin to hold her head in her hands.

Luckily, there is no one around here. No one will hear anything I say to her. The two years of suffering, finally…

“I’ve been suffering. All this time. And recently, losing my emotions made it even more painful. But you know, thanks to you, I found hope. Ah, that’s right, should I tell you the answer to your question just now?”

“S-Stop…don’t say any more…”

“The answer is NO. I’ll never, ever consider getting back together. You should be happy that you can spend the rest of your life with Yasumoto.”

“Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!”

My expression right now must be awful. But I can’t stop. This is just too enjoyable…I want to hear more of her scream.

“Should I say it again? Hmm?”

“P-Please…stop…”

“I see, I see. Then, one more time…”

“Shintani-kun!!!”

Suddenly, I feel being embraced from behind.

“You’re going too far, Shintani-kun.”

Turning around, I look at her face.

“—eh? Why are you here…?”

The person who is embracing me from behind is…Sayaka Hanamoto.

Chapter 36

“Hanamoto…”

“You shouldn’t do this any further…those aren’t the kind of feelings you should harbour. Absolutely not.”

…why is Hanamoto here?

“Why are you here…?”

“I’m worried. You’ve been acting strange lately.”

I’ve been acting strange lately? What is she talking about?

“I noticed that day by day, you are losing your emotions, Shintani-kun. So, I thought that you might break down with just a little push. That scared me, so…”

I can feel Hanamoto is hugging me more tightly.

I can feel her body trembling with fear.

Thanks to Hanamoto, I calm down a bit.

Indeed, now that I think about it, I realize that I was acting quite strange.

“Thank you. I feel a bit calmer now.”

“Yeah.”

Saying so, Hanamoto lets go of me and then walks towards Shinozaki.

“Shinozaki-san.”

“Huh?”

Hanamoto looks Shinozaki with pity in her eyes.

“Stop…don’t look at me like that…please, stop looking at me like that!”

“I really feel sorry for you…why you can only do something like this? Move on and be better.”

“Don’t look at me with those eyes…I’m begging you.”

“I have something to say to you, for someone who is abandoned by your parents.”

…abandoned by her parents? What does she mean?

“I’m not a saint, so when I said I feel sorry for you…it was a lie.”

“—eh?”

“You brought this on yourself, didn’t you? Even now, you haven’t reflected on your actions at all, have you? That’s why you’re in this situation. Don’t get involved with us anymore, especially with Shintani-kun. Shintani-kun is mine.”

—hmm!?

“So don’t you ever show yourself in front of Shintani-kun anymore! You damn bitch!”

U-Uwaa…Hanamoto is really angry…I’ve never seen her like this before.

“Don’t mess with me! We’ve experienced suffering far beyond what you’re going through! And now you have the nerve to try to get back with Shintani-kun as if nothing happened! Are you stupid!? If you truly understand our pain, you wouldn’t even consider getting back together with Shintani-kun, and don’t you think what you’re doing is way too selfish!?”

Eh, is she really Hanamoto?

“W-Wait a minute, Hanamoto-san? Let’s just calm—”

“Shintani-kun, shut up!”

“Y-Yes!”

“Have you ever thought that something is wrong with you!? You’re not even human anymore! You’re just a monkey indulging in your lust! And—”

“—Calm down.”

“Ah…”

I found myself instinctively holding Hanamoto’s hand. Why am I holding her hand…? But somehow, I just understand that this is a way to calm Hanamoto down.

“…even though I just said so to Shintani-kun…”

“It’s okay. You needed to get it off your chest, right?”

“Y-Yeah.”

After making sure that Hanamoto has calmed down, I walk towards Shinozaki.

“Shinozaki.”

“Y-Yeah.”

“Don’t show your face in front of us ever again. You’re nothing but an eyesore for us. Your existence only brings misfortune and curses upon us.”

“……”

“Farewell. I’m grateful for our time together.”

With that, both me and Hanamoto leave Shinozaki alone.

“Ahh…ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!”

Shinozaki’s scream echoes far into the distance along with the sunset.