The Boy Who Gave Up on Romantic Feelings ~I’m Done Because I Was Betrayed by The Girlfriends I Used to Date~

Chapter 3

—it happened a few days after entering high school.

“Please go out with me!”

In front of me was a girl with a ponytail, bright atmosphere, cute face, and beautiful chestnut hair.

She seemed truly liked me.

That was my first encounter with Sayaka Hanamoto, my first girlfriend and the source of my trauma.

“Hey, hey, Shintani, let’s go to karaoke after school.”

“Yeah, sounds good.”

I was really excited and nervous because she was my first girlfriend. I didn’t want to do something terrible and break up with her.

So, while getting advice from friends who were in relationships, I gradually grew closer to Sayaka.

That was probably the happiest time of my life, or at the very least, every day I spent with her felt enjoyable.

Everything was a first. My first girlfriend, my first date…

However, those happy days came to an end.

—it was because of Sayaka’s infidelity.

While we were dating, me and Sayaka usually go home together, however on that day, Sayaka had some ‘business’ to attend to. However, on my way back, I realized that I had forgotten something and went back to school.

Looking back now, it might have been a mistake to go back to school…but if I didn’t, I would’ve continued my relationship with Sayaka, without knowing about her infidelity.

When I arrived at my classroom and about to open the door, I heard it.

“S-Stop…ahnnn!”

Then, I heard sounds of pounding.

I didn’t want to believe that voice.

However, when I opened the door.

“—!”

“Ah…”

“Wha—!?”

Right in front of me, they were right in the midst of the act.

—my girlfriend and a boy from the same class.

At that moment, I understood everything.

That confession was a lie, I was just being manipulated by that girl.

I was played with so well. I was toyed with so effortlessly.

“I see. Yeah, that makes sense.”

“W-Wait a moment…this is…”

“I was just overjoyed. I got my first girlfriend, it makes me really excited. Honestly, I’m disgusted with myself.”

“N-No, it’s not like that…it’s not what it seems…”

“What do you mean it’s not what it seems? It’s not like that? Hah, it’s always like this. Every girl I like ends up with someone else. In the end, I got dumped and left behind. I keep blaming others and running away. This is the result. I guess it’s impossible for me after all.”

“Wait…hey…”

“Goodbye, Sayaka. No, Hanamoto-san. Let’s break up. Be happy with that person.”

“No…! Wait!!”

I closed the door, ran down the hallway, sprinted home, and locked myself in my room.

“Aaah, aaahhhh, aaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!”

That heartbreak was more painful than any other heartbreak I had ever experienced.

It felt like my heart was being ripped out, I felt empty inside. It’s as if there was a hole in my heart. I wanted to vomit everything out. The scene I witnessed was stuck in my head. I couldn’t forget every detail of it.

My mental state, which was already weaker than tofu, crushed by that scene.

“Aaaaahhhhh, aaaahhhhahahahaha!!!”

Cheated on, betrayed.

Sayaka was my first girlfriend, I had never received such sincere affection from anyone before. Because of that, it felt even more painful.

I genuinely liked her with all my heart. Her appearance, her personality, her gestures, and her affection—I loved them all. But it was all a lie.

For someone with a weak mental state like mine, being betrayed like that was absolutely unbearable.

Because, I loved her from the bottom of my heart.

I understand saying such things about love as a mere student seems exaggerated. However, I lost my mother in the past, and perhaps because of that, I found myself longing for affection.

“…hah.”

I didn’t think I can go to school the next day. So, I decided to take a day off. After witnessing that scene, I lost all desire to go to school.

Lying on my bed, I fell into self-loathing. I didn’t want to do anything anymore.

As summer comes to and end and autumn begins, the love that came in the spring has disappeared as the seasons change.