Occult: World of Yandere - Volume 1 Chapter 7 - What Have I Become

Nier’s eyes fluttered open, his vision swimming in disorienting patterns of light and shadow. A dull ache pulsed in his temples as he sat up slowly from the large bed he found himself in; his movements were better than ever, and he felt extremely refreshed. 

However, he found himself in an unfamiliar room; its walls were carved from dark stone, pulsating faintly with crimson veins of light. The air was heavy, carrying the faint scent of ash and something unfamiliar.

As his senses sharpened, fragments of memory clawed their way back into his mind. The accident, his erotic encounter, and the taste of Kaly’s milk in his mouth.

But as he pieced it together, he noticed something odd.

The sound of his breathing—it wasn’t right.

It wasn’t his.

“What… happened?”

He muttered aloud but froze.

The words echoed unnaturally, reverberating in the room with a distorted, otherworldly timbre. His voice was unrecognizable, deeper, and layered with a dissonant harmony that seemed to speak in unison with him. It was wrong and out of place in every conceivable way.

His heart thundered in his chest, but as he moved to clutch it, his hand—no, not his hand—came into view.

Blackness.

A swirling, shifting mass of pure darkness where flesh should have been. His fingers were long and jagged, tapering into claw-like tips that seemed to waver and distort as if made of living smoke. He stared, uncomprehending, and slowly moved his other hand into view.

The same.

Panic set in as he flung the blankets off, desperate to see the rest of himself. His legs were no longer legs at all. His thighs tapered into powerful, sinewy forms that ended in goat-like hooves, their ebony surface gleaming faintly with a fiery sheen. His skin, or whatever passed for it now, was a shifting plane of darkness, with flickers of crimson and purple glowing like embers beneath the surface, creating an illusion of something alive and burning.

“No. No. No. No… nnnnoooooOOOOO!!!….

His own voice interrupted him again, the horrific echo sending shivers down his spine. His breaths came in ragged gasps as his eyes darted around the room, searching for anything to make sense of what he was seeing. That was when he spotted it—a tall, cracked mirror leaning against the far wall.

Compelled by equal parts dread and morbid curiosity, he stumbled toward it, his hooves clicking against the cold wooden floor. Each step felt foreign, unnatural, and heavy as it was loud.

*TAP!!…TAP!!…TAP!!*

As he walked, it felt as if his body was no longer his own. When he reached the mirror, he stopped, too afraid to look… But the pull was irresistible… Slowly, he raised his gaze.

What stared back at him, however, was not human but rather a nightmare.

His once fiery red hair was gone, replaced by writhing tendrils of shadow that moved on their own accord, twisting and curling like living creatures. His face was no longer his; it was a void, punctuated by two glowing eyes of horrific crimson that seemed to peer into the soul. But it wasn’t just two eyes. As he looked closer, he saw more—dozens, maybe hundreds of smaller, flickering red eyes traversing his form, peering out from his arms, his torso, even his legs.

And his look down, he saw his inhumane cock, pure black and thick as a lower arm; he was about 7 feet tall, nearing 8, and the head itself was clowing crimson.

But even with these massive upgrades, he couldn’t accept it. 

“No… This… this isn’t real!”

He shouted, gripping the edges of the mirror.

The reflection followed his movements perfectly, mocking him with its grotesque symmetry. His claws left deep scratches in the frame as he trembled, his breath coming out in shallow gasps.

His reaction was that of terror more than anger.

“WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME?”

And the moment he asked that, suddenly he felt the touch of another, as something grabbed him from behind and whispered to him.

“Oh, my beloved, you look so cute when you’re scared.”

Nier eyes went to the figure; the voice he knew who it belonged to, but the form that greets him was not as human as before.

Nier’s eyes widened in horror as he turned to find Kaly standing behind him, her form now more monstrous than ever. Her skin was a shimmering black and not that chocolate brown he came to know prior to now; it was like polished obsidian, and her once human eyes were more monsterous and had a deeper crimson but nocturnal look to it, each one glowing with a malevolent hunger in them.

Her breasts were even larger, like heavy orbs that hung from her chest, their nipples hard and erect, or rather, smiling mouths with their own teeth, as hard, long, and flexible black tongues back him hungrily from behind.

It was similar to her monsterous appearance he saw in reality, minus the glitching part, of course.

Here she seems stable.

Her body was sleek and muscular, covered in black fur that shimmered with an unnatural aura. Her tail, now a long, serpentine appendage, coiled around his waist, its tip brushing having fur like mantle to it, black in color as it rubbed up against his enlarged member.

Her horns were even larger and golden, even just like her hooves, as they curled inward many times like mighy rams.

Her face, more goat-like, was vastly inhuman than before; she looked more like animal or humanoid anomaly.

Her slender arms, four of them wrapped around him, moved up his chest, musclar like stone statues made from darkness, holding him with an unsettling tenderness. Her crimson eyes were instantly peering into him with an unquantifiable amount of love, yet it only deepened the dread within him. Nier trembled uncontrollably, not just from fear but from an overwhelming sense of something far larger than himself.

Maybe it was because of his new form, but he was showing levels of cosmic sense he didn’t have as a human.

He hadn’t noticed it before, but now the difference in power between them was undeniable. It was as if the very air around him shifted, suffocating in its vastness. To describe it was almost impossible, but he could clearly see the power difference and just how powerful Kaly truly was.

It felt like being a drop of water in an ocean… No. No. NOOO!! It was far more than that. It was like the ocean itself stretched endlessly in every direction, and he was nothing more than a speck of dust caught in its tide.

In that moment, Nier’s very existence seemed to realize its place in the world. Her presence wasn’t just superior; it was absolute, inescapable. It was as if, in comparison, he was no longer a man but something far smaller, far less significant. Like a bug beneath the heel of a titan… no, even that was too grand. He felt as if he were a germ, inconsequential, utterly powerless, swallowed whole by something unfathomable.

And yet, despite the gnawing questions that plagued him, he couldn’t understand why this was happening. Well, he thought he knew why, but she had rejected that answer, leaving him more lost than before. But still, this higher being, this unimaginable force, held him in her arms, cradling him with a tenderness that seemed completely out of place.

Why?

He couldn’t begin to fathom it.

Why was she so obsessed with him? He didn’t dare ask, not when everything about her presence filled him with such a suffocating sense of dread. His pride as a man was wounded, humiliated by how insignificant he felt and the fact he couldn’t do anything about it. But then again, what was pride worth when faced with something so overwhelmingly powerful, so incomprehensible, and, worse of all, so close to him to the point that the concept of running away was no longer in his dictionary?

He wasn’t even a speck compared to her. In the face of her unyielding power, what was the point of his pride? What was the point of anything? And yet, despite the terror, one thought bled through.

‘What is this crazy bitch deal anyway?’

Nier struggled futilely, but Kaly’s hold was unbreakable. She pulled him closer, her lips brushing against his neck, leaving a trail of burning kisses as she spoke.

“Ohhh, come on, if you start thinking like that, your going to make me feel bad, so why don’t you ease up a little… will yah my beloved? Besides… Your new life as my herald only gets better from here on out.”

Nier didn’t know how to respond, but he tried to temper his anger and frustration. He knew it was pointless—there was no concept of reasoning with someone or something like her. Not in the usual sense, at least. It was clear she had the upper hand here. Still, he took a breath, trying to calm himself, and made an effort to regain control of the conversation.

“…s-Say?!…

Nier mumbled a bit and continued speaking despite his fear.

“You… you’re Kaly, right? The woman who… gave me that strange handjob?”

The goat-like creature smiled, revealing sharp, shark-like teeth as she pulled him closer, her embrace tightening. She responded, her voice dripping with confidence.

“That’s right, babe. I’m the only one who can make you feel like that. Hehehe… so did you enjoy it? If you don’t, I can give you another one of my handies, and I have three more to spear, two for your balls, one for your shaft, and the other one for your head; the last one was connected to a succubus dream; this time I can make an entire dimension of wonder play with your migthy cock; if you so please, just say the word and I can make all your deprave fantasies come true.”

Kaly said while licking her lips.

Nier really didn’t like the way she did things. She definitely forced him into uncomfortable positions and took advantage of him. But he would be lying if he said he didn’t enjoy that strange, almost surreal experience. Though he didn’t understand how a handjob, somehow connected to a succubus dream was even possible, but he busted a much needed nut, and whatever the fuck she did got him off.

After all the last time he had one of those was the first time he got group rape by a bunch of Yandere emo girls back in highschool.

But Kaly method felt extremley good despite the oddness of it, but he felt his pride as a man has been tarnished.

And with his curse, it was impossible to get close to women. He often had to kill anyone who fell in love with him to spare them the inevitable trouble.

But now the roles were reversed. You couldn’t kill something that was far stronger than you. As such, he knew he had to play a different game if he wanted to survive.

As such he started with this.

“Ahhh, yeah… you’re very skilled. To be honest, I’m surprised I’m even alive. With that much pleasure coursing through me, I honestly thought I was going to die. But aside from that, can I ask a few questions? I feel like you owe me that much at least, since you basically turned me into… well, whatever this is.”

Kaly just look at Nier, her hug getting even tigther, as she soft breast squish into him, as she said.

“Hmmm… of course, go ahead my herald… ask away, mommy will answer what she can.”

‘Great she agreed, finally I can start making sense of this situation.’

Nier said to himself, as he began to asked away.

“Ok so first thing first, am I dead?”

This was very important qestion his last memory of reality was getting into a very bad car accident before he fell of the cliff on the old highway from his way from work to home, so he needed to know if he was dead or not.

Kaly of course just smile, as she responded as such.

“Hmm… well, yes and no. Your body is undeniably dead, the crash took you, there’s no mistaking it. But that was essential. I needed your death because only concepts or abstract things can exist in this space. The soul itself is a concept, a manifestation of being, of self-awareness; and this realm exists beyond all traditional concepts.”

“This is the Immaterial Sphere, a domain that stretches far beyond any concepts, ideas of laws, time, space, or reality as you understand them. It’s not merely another world or dimension; it is the foundation of existence itself, the space from which all other concepts, laws, and realities emanate. It is the source of everything that could be, has been, or will ever be, and it is beyond the reach of anything mortal or even godly.”

Kaly said, as she explain to her beloved Nier his current situation, and where he is currently at.

Natrually this was a lot to take in but what he got froom this was that he was far from home, and worse of all he was dead.

But he listen to her nonetheless.

“Normally, when a soul departs, it returns to this realm, but only in a form that aligns with its particular attributes. If you were bound to a belief, a religion, or even a faith, your soul would follow those constructs back into their respective afterlives.”

“But not you.”

Said Kaly as she continued.

“Those without such ties, those like you, return here, to the heart of existence. This place isn’t a mere afterlife. It’s the very concept of existence itself. Every soul that enters is stripped of its identity, its history, its form, and even it’s story until it is only a raw concept, a shell awaiting reincarnation. This process is universal, one that even the most highest of powers cannot alter.”

Well unless your something like me, my sisters, and other family members.

Explain Kaly to Nier, but it is what she said next that truly scared him.

“But in your case, your soul didn’t follow the usual path. After your death, I reached into this domain and drew your soul into my part of the Immaterial Sphere; my prison, my territory, the one thing that I possess and control in a way that no one else can, but yet I cannot leave due to my seal.”

Kaly said, as she ends with.

“So do you understand, or do you need me to re-explain, but simplier.”

Nier at this time just shook his head, as he replied.

“No need to explain, I get it. I’m dead, and you brought me here. Now, for my next question…”

Nier said, as Kaly just continued to rub his chest, her tail stroking his cock playfully, stimulating it in a loving manner, but it was not getting hard. Rather, the way she did it was offering him a calming comfort akin to a massage to ease tension. But that aside, Nier just let it be, as he continued with his questions.

“Okay, so you said I was dead, and this is a place where only concepts or abstract things can exist, right? So tell me, this form I am seeing, is it my soul? If so, why did you turn me into this thing? And why are you so obsessed with me? Earlier, I could recall you saying that you were watching me from the day I was born, right? You seem to know my family’s condition, if so, did you play a part in our family’s suffering? If it is a yes, then why?”

Kaly’s smile remained unchanged, her amusement evident as a soft, loving chuckle escaped her lips.

“Kihihihih!!… First of all, my beloved, you’ve disguised seven questions in one, but I’ll answer them all nonetheless.”

Kale said to Nier as she continues.

“First and foremost, yes, by your mortal standards, you are dead. Your soul has long departed from your body.”

“Secondly, yes, only abstract things can exist here; nothing bound by the limits of the physical.”

But what she said next shocked him, as he finally found out what he became.

“Now thirdly, the soul itself… it’s often described as the true form of one’s being, the essence that transcends the physical. It’s the most abstract presentation of one’s truth of self existence. When you drank my milk, I sired you into my race. You’re not simply a normal soul now, you are something far more… how do I say this… hmmm… let just say your something very primordial. You’re a lesser version of me, but still, you are not merely a soul, you’re an idea. What you’re looking at in this mirror is a representation of that idea, your true self, in its most raw form.”

“I am a being cast into the unknown by humanity, a fear they cannot truly grasp. I embody fertility, but not just in its nurturing form; no, I represent its most negative unknown aspects of it, the very essence of corruption around the very idea and all its branches, even beyond the singular prime.”

“Most Outer Gods like myself are embodiments of chaos, the all-encompassing featruless force of existence that corrupts and dismantles all formality. We exist beyond concepts, and hierarchies that transcends them, which is why we are classified as unknowns by human defintion, as such we cant enter the physical world… not normally at least, even weakest of us can end all of reality as you know it if we do in our true forms.”

“We are the greatest fears in existence, outside the reach of human imagination, and that is why we remain so incomprehensible to your kind.”

Just at her mere words, Nier trembles, but he didnt aske anymore question, he would wait till she answer all his prior one first, and foremost, and that exactly what she did.

But next answer completely shocked him.

“And for your fourth question, well, to answer that, let’s just say, I played a big role in your birth, although my sister played an even bigger role. You were made for me, Nier, you’re basically a gift out of pity for my station, given to me by my eldest in the hope of me getting out of here.

“…Butttt…to make a long story short, your mother was obsessed with your dad, but she was also infertile. In desperation, she prayed and prayed, and given the nature of your family’s curse being eldritch, she kind of had an affinity for me.”

Kaly explain, as she continued.

“So, I was going to screw over my younger sister through a family she ruined as a result of her childish herald that destroyed the Featherburn family normality. But either way, your mom made a deal with me: in return for her giving birth to a healthy child, she had to offer that child’s soul to me. In return, your mother gave birth to something I own—you. That’s why I said you have the greatest affinity to me.”

“I also scheduled a ritual that would have allowed you to strengthen your soul. Every morning at 3 AM., your mother had to offer me the sacrifice of 666 virgins under the age of 20, eat their hearts, and offer me their wounds and souls.”

“During that period of time, she was able to alter her breast milk through a ritual she learned from me, which strengthened your soul just enough. Over time, your soul began to strengthen even more, which is why you could handle my presence when you met me for the first time. Typically, your soul would have collapsed under madness, but the ritual also strengthened our affinity. Now, you are my greatest weapon, and the very embodiment of my one and only hope.”

“Www-wHAT?!…

Nier’s voice trembled, a mix of disbelief and anger bubbling up inside him. He didn’t want to accept it, but with how powerful Kaly was, it didn’t feel as impossible as it should have. Still, the words slipped out before he could stop them.

“I see… it makes sense now… My mother always said she was sorry for what my future would hold, but her love for my father came first. She said if I were anything like her, I’d understand. But this… this is just… it’s all so messed up. So in the end, I’m nothing more than a damn tool, huh?”

“A-A-And now I am dead… hehehe… in the end my life didn’t amount to anything but being your plaything hehehehe… sigh don’t answer anymore question, tell what going to happen to me now.”

Nier asked, truly anyone would react in the way he was currently behaving if their birth was just some grand scheme, however, what he heard next brogtuh back some hope him.

“Hmm… I’ll admit, your birth was mostly the result of my sister and me, but I was desperate, Nier. You have no idea how long I’ve been trapped here, starved for attention to the point where I’ve wished for death. Do you know what it takes for an eldritch abomination to crave nothing but oblivion? But then you were born, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I had something that was mine.”

Kaly said, a sad look appearing on her face, as she continued.

“Ah, Nier, I love you. You don’t realize what you have until you’ve lost everything. I once had it all, everything a deprave being like myself could have ever want. In my family’s hierarchy, I was rank the fourth highest. But one treacherous bitch ruined everything, and because of her, I’m stuck here. I have no one, Nier. No one but you.”

“Don’t ever mistake my love for something it’s not. Yes, you were created as a tool, but I don’t want to use you that way. I know what it feels like to despair, to be utterly alone. That’s why, out of love for you, I’m giving you a choice.”

“Help me, and together, we can take our revenge on the one who trapped me here and the true mastermind behind your family’s curse. Or I can send you back, erasing your memories of me. You won’t remember any of this, and your death will never have happened. You’ll live a normal life, at least for a while. But it’ll only be temporary, your soul will inevitably return here, im sorry but this is permanent, I cant undo this part, what done is done.”

“However when you’re ready, whether now or later, I’ll be here. I owe you that much, at least… but one day, you will have to face your destiny my beloved… but think about it Nier, arent you tired… your entire life you have being a subject to a curse your never want, with my help I can help you turn this curse into a blessing like you never imagine… so what do you say, can you please help me, I am going as far a begging you… so what is your answer?”

Kaly asked Nier, but she already knew she his responce would be.

Nier began to think about it, but the chance of being revive, was tempting as such he asked.

“If I say yes, can I be revive regardless?”

“Of course, I will rebuild your entire body from scratch.”

“I see.”

Nier said to which I ask once more.

“Ok I will do it… however, you need to fill me in, how do you unseal you, and what do I get from this, apart from revenge against Ishtar.”

Kaly smile, as she hug Nier her head sinking in his back as she said.

“I need your help to rebuild my cult, Nier, but it has to be done without my sisters finding out. That’s why I’m making you a part of my aspect, essentially, my avatar. Through you, all worship and sacrifices will be directed to me. With enough worshipers, I can finally escape this prison.”

She explain, grabbing Nier interest.

“But there’s only so much I can do from here. You’ll have to start a cult from scratch. As you gather followers, their devotion will create a stable bridge, allowing me to subtly manifest in the material world. Free me, Nier, and I promise you a eternal life of endless and unimaginable pleasure’s when it’s all over. Anything you desire, I will personally grant despite how impossible it may be. My body is already yours, but in this world, power is everything.”

Said Kaly, in a way she was rigth.

“Also, don’t worry too much about the truly serious divine details, I’ll handle that. Your focus should be on building the cult, gaining worshipers, and expanding your influence. And yes, more lovers too, as many as you possibly can. As a fertility goddess, the more children you father, the stronger I become. Any lover you take will also serve as an avatar for me.”

“Of course, I won’t send you back empty-handed. As a token of my commitment, I’ll grant you an ability, the most powerful one I can give you in my current state. With it, you’ll have the tools you need to begin.”

Kaly confirmed to Nier, natrually Nier asked as such.

“That being?!”

“I call it Unlimited.”

“That sound overpowered, what does it do?”

Nier, and Kaly gave him a devious smile, as she began to explain.

“The power of “Unlimited,” is the ability to create occult magic entirely shaped by your imagination, magic with no predefined rules or boundaries. Sounds incredible, right?”

Said Kaly as Nier many eyes open up in shock as he said.

“Holy shit, that is overpowered.”

Kaly giggled at his reaction, however, she just continued, while saying.

“Hehehe… I knew you were going to say that, but don’t get too excited, because their is twist.”

“…Figured, but its better than something that is not useful.”

“Well of course I will give you something useful my beloved, what kind of cosmic abomination of a wife would I be if I didn’t.”

“But either way, listen up, let me explain how Unlimited works, Your ability is essentially the power to create and wield magic based entirely on your imagination meaning you can choose to abide by logical or just say fuck you to logic altogther and go the illogical route. If you can conceive it, you can create it, there are no limits to the type of spells, effects, or abilities you can design. You’re essentially rewriting reality through sheer force of will. Sounds incredible, right? But here’s the thing: creating and using magic doesn’t happen for free.”

Said Kaly, as she went on explaining the mechanics behind Unlimited.

“The fuel for this power is negative energy. Negative energy comes from all the darker, raw aspects of existence: fear, hatred, despair, sorrow, chaos, basically anything tied to concept of negativity in either good or bad ligth. These are universal forces, so there’s plenty of it out there. Your soul has the unique ability to absorb and store this energy.”

“Here’s where it gets tricky. While your soul has infinite capacity, meaning you can store as much energy as you want; you don’t start with infinite reserves. At first, your absorption rate is slow, like trying to fill an ocean with a leaky faucet.”

“You’ll have to be careful about how much energy you use since it takes time to replenish. But, as you use your powers, your ability to absorb energy will improve. Over time, you’ll go from collecting small fragments to pulling in massive waves of energy. Eventually, you’ll become a natural conduit, drawing in negative energy passively and effortlessly.”

Explain Kaly, this of course shock Nier, but he listen in, given this was going to be his new power.

And his new way of life.

“However, absorbing negative energy isn’t just about the fuel, it comes with a side effect. Every time you absorb negative energy, you also absorb the memories tied to it. Think of it as inheriting the pain, despair, or anguish from wherever that energy came from. These memories will flood your mind, and while I’ve made you resistant to insanity, you’re not completely immune. If you take in too much too fast, the sheer weight of those experiences could overwhelm you.”

“Now, let’s talk about limitations and strengths. While you can create any magic you imagine, the range, potency, and complexity of your creations all depend on how much energy you have and how much you’re willing to use. For example, a simple spell like conjuring a flame might cost very little energy, but something massive, like bending time, altering reality, or summoning catastrophic forces, will require enormous amounts of power.”

“The good news? As you absorb more negative energy, these limitations shrink. Your creations can become more powerful, your reach farther, and your ability to affect the world even greater.”

“But this power isn’t a free pass; it’s a double-edged sword. The more energy you take in, the greater the strain on your mind. The stronger you become, the greater the temptation to push yourself further, risking losing control. So there is a lot of little ups and down you have to watch out for.”

Said Kaly, and Nier nod in agreement.

“This ability is both a gift and a burden. You have infinite potential sure, but harnessing it will demand patience, discipline, and a strong will. If you can master it, you’ll be unstoppable. But if you let the memories or the power itself consume you, it could destroy you from the inside out. So do be careful on how you use Unlimited my beloved.”