My Precious Childhood Friend Got a Boyfriend - Chapter 9

I’m Sorry…

Nanami’s POV

Even though I’m currently dating Ryota Nakamura, I’ve fallen in love with Shogo-kun.

No, that’s not quite right.

To be precise, I’ve loved Shogo-kun for a long time.

But I never realized my own feelings until now.

Seeing Shogo-kun flirting with other girls, I just realized that I love him.

It’s too late, it’s way too late now.

Why am I only realizing my feelings now…?

I really don’t understand.

What should I do?

I know that I have a precious boyfriend now, but I just can’t seem to let go of these feelings towards Shogo-kun.

I don’t want Shogo-kun to be someone else’s.

I want Shogo-kun to be mine and mine alone.

So, I decided to break up with my current boyfriend.

I plan to break up with my boyfriend and confess my feelings to Shogo-kun.

I know it’s cruel for Ryota-kun.

I’m such a terrible person.

If I do that, Ryota-kun will definitely be hurt…

A part of me wants to forget about Shogo-kun and continue to date Ryota-kun.

However, a bigger part of me can’t seem to do that.

It seems like I just love Shogo-kun too much.

I just can’t let go of these feelings towards Shogo-kun.

That’s why…

I unlock my smartphone and call Ryota-kun.

After waiting for a while, the call connects.

‘Hmm? What is it, Nanami? Is something wrong?’

I hear Ryota-kun’s voice through the phone speaker.

The person who is on the other end of the call is my boyfriend…

‘Hey, Nanami, are you there? What’s wrong? Why did you call me? Did something happen?”

“Um, well…”

Is this really the right thing to do?

Will I regret it?

Should I just give up on Shogo-kun and continue dating Ryota-kun?

No, I can’t.

I can never do that.

I just can’t bring myself to give up on Shogo-kun.

That’s why—

“Ryota-kun, please break up with me.”

‘Eh?’

Ryota-kun sounded really confused.

‘Hey, wait a minute. What are you talking about, Nanami…that joke is really harsh, you know?’

“No, it’s not a joke. I’m serious…”

‘No, no, why? Why are you asking me to break up with you all of the sudden? I don’t get it…do you not like me anymore, Nanami?’

“No, I still like you, Ryota-kun…”

I still like Ryota-kun.

I love him.

“R-Really? Do you really like me…?”

“Yes…I like you, Ryota-kun. I like you second most.”

“Second…?”

As I said so earlier, I do like Ryota-kun.

That’s why I became his girlfriend.

But now, I’ve realized my true feelings.

I love Shogo-kun.

I love him more than anyone in this world.

The moment I realized that I love Shogo-kun, I found that I no longer care about Ryota-kun.

‘What do you mean by you like me second most…? Could it be that you have someone else you like?”

“Yes…I’ve recently realized my feelings for someone else. When I see him talking with another girl, my chest tightens. I don’t want anyone else to have him, I want to make him mine…mine alone.”

‘……’

“So please, break up with me, Ryota-kun.”

Ryota-kun falls silent at my words.

He’s probably shocked that I dumped him.

I knew it would end up like this…

Even though I knew Ryota-kun would be hurt, I prioritized my own feelings.

Right now, I’m hurting my boyfriend and trying to find happiness with someone else.

I’m the worst. I really am the worst.

I fall into self-loathing.

However, I just can’t give up on Shogo-kun.

I’m sorry, Ryota-kun.

I’m truly sorry…

‘Umm, so basically, you’re saying that you want to break up with me because you want to be with the person you’ve recently fallen for? Is that it?’

“Yes, that’s right…”

‘What the hell are you talking about!? What the hell does that supposed to mean!? You’re the worst! How could you do something so terrible!?’

Ryota-kun’s words pierces through my heart.

I’m sorry, I’m truly sorry, Ryota-kun…

‘I was really serious about our relationship, you know? I was even thinking about marriage. But why did you have to fall in love with another guy? Why don’t you love me the most?’

“I’m sorry…I’m really sorry.”

‘Damn it…that’s enough! I hate you, Nanami! Don’t ever talk to me again!’

With that, Ryota-kun ends the call.

Ryota-kun’s voice can no longer be heard from the smartphone speaker, and the room is enveloped in silence.

I’ve made Ryota-kun hate me.

Hahaha…well, of course he hates me.

Anyone would hate me after doing something like that.

Ryota-kun, I’m sorry.

I’m really sorry…