My Precious Childhood Friend Got a Boyfriend - Chapter 13

Heartbreak

Nanami’s POV

I just got rejected by Shogo-kun.

It’s so painful, it’s too painful.

If I knew it was going to be this painful, I wouldn’t have confessed to Shogo-kun.

Why did I confess to Shogo-kun in the first place…?

If I hadn’t confessed, I wouldn’t be feeling this miserable.

It’s too late now. Everything is too late.

I can’t undo the confession now…

Hah…I never expected Shogo-kun to have a girlfriend.

I didn’t hear anything about that.

Yeah, that’s right…Shogo-kun is currently dating a very cute and popular girl in our school.

Her name is Tanimoto Honoka.

In a recent ‘Cute Girl Ranking’ among the boys, I’ve heard that Honoka-chan is ranked number one.

There’s no way I can compete against someone as amazing as her…

No matter how much efforts I make, there is no chance that I’ll be able to steal Shogo-kun away from Honoka-chan.

My love is over…

“Ughhh…ahhh…uwaahhh…”

The pain of being rejected by Shogo-kun is just too much.

I start to cry like a child, it feels like my whole world is falling apart.

It’s been a week since I got rejected by Shogo-kun, but I still haven’t gotten over it.

Sometimes, when I pass by Shogo-kun at school, I feel like I’m going to burst into tears.

However, I hold myself back so that Shogo-kun won’t see my miserable self.

Shogo-kun appeared in my dream again today, because of it I ended up crying again.

Heartbreak is so painful…

I wish all of this would be over soon…

I wish that I’ll be able to forget about Shogo-kun as soon as possible and find a new love…

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I thought time would heal this heartbreak.

But I was wrong.

Even after a year has passed, I still love Shogo-kun.

Yes, it’s been a year since Shogo-kun rejected me, and I still have feelings for him.

At this point, this love has become a curse.

I wonder when will this curse be lifted…

Hah…I want to forget about Shogo-kun as soon as possible.

In order to forget Shogo-kun, I tried dating a boy named Taichi Maeda.

I got to know Taichi-kun through social media.

Taichi-kun is handsome, easy to talk to, and interesting.

I thought that if I dated someone else, I would be able to forget Shogo-kun…but it didn’t work at all.

When I was on dates with Taichi-kun, I always found myself thinking,

‘Hanging out with Shogo-kun is more fun…’

I always found myself comparing Taichi-kun to Shogo-kun.

It’s no use. Even though I was dating Taichi-kun, I couldn’t forget Shogo-kun.

In fact, dating Taichi-kun wasn’t fun at all.

To be honest, it was boring.

In the end, I broke up with Taichi-kun.

I’ve tried dating various other boys, but none of those relationships lasted long.

After all, no other boy will do. I can’t be satisfied unless it’s Shogo-kun…

I want to be Shogo-kun’s girlfriend.

I want to be Shogo-kun’s special someone.

I want him to say ‘I love you, Nanami’ with his sweet voice.

I want to date Shogo-kun, but he’s still dating Honoka-chan…

Yes, Shogo-kun and Honoka-chan are still dating each other.

Whenever when I invite Shogo-kun to hang out saying,

‘Shogo-kun! Let’s hang out together!’

He always turns me down, saying,

‘Sorry, I have plans to hang out with Honoka today.’

Even when I invited him to eat together during lunch break, saying,

‘Shogo-kun, let’s have lunch together.’

He coldly turned me down, saying,

‘Sorry, I’m having lunch with Honoka again today.’

Shogo-kun is so crazy about Honoka-chan.

He doesn’t pay any attention to me at all.

It feels so lonely, I don’t know how much longer I can bear this loneliness.

Hmm? Wait a minute…

Didn’t I do the same thing to Shogo-kun?

When I was dating Ryota-kun, whenever Shogo-kun invited me to hang out saying,

‘Nanami, do you want to hang out after school today?’

I would just turn him down, saying,

‘Sorry, Shogo-kun…I already have plans to hang out with Ryota-kun today.’

Even when he invited me to eat together with him during lunch break saying,

‘Nanami! Let’s have lunch together.’

I always coldly refused, saying,

‘I’m having lunch alone with my boyfriend today, so I can’t.’

There were times when I prioritized my boyfriend over hanging out with Shogo-kun.

Even though I had made plans to hang out with Shogo first, I always put my boyfriend first.

Back then, I was really crazy about Ryota-kun.

At that time, Ryota-kun was all that matters to me.

Honestly, I didn’t care about Shogo-kun at all.

I had no interest in him.

So when Shogo-kun invited me to hang out, I just coldly turned him down.

When you’re in love, your perspective narrows.

You end up thinking only about your lover, and everything else doesn’t matter…

Perhaps, Shogo-kun now is just like I was back then.

He’s so in love with Honoka-chan that he probably doesn’t care about me at all.

It’s unbearably painful…

Back then, I did such horrible things to Shogo-kun.

I’m the worst. I’m truly the worst.

I’m sorry, Shogo-kun, I’m really sorry…