Magic Maker - How to make magic in another world - - Chapter 170

Magic Maker – How to make magic in another world –

Chapter 170   Love consultation 1

During the lunch break, my sister and Dominic returned from their monster exploration. I still couldn’t recover from the incident of inadvertently staring at Winona, and I avoided looking at her face.

I haven’t given an answer to her confession, and I wonder what I’m doing. I haven’t forgotten about the confession a single day. I’ve been thinking about giving an answer constantly. However, I don’t know how to respond.

There are considerations on both sides. It’s not that we can’t have a relationship just because she’s a maid, but our situation is quite complicated. Her father, a marquis, ordered a night visit to unite Winona and me in marriage. Moreover, we have a master-servant relationship.

It’s nice that she has affection for me, but our position is not equal, and there’s a possibility that she’s blindly devoted due to our unequal status. In reality, Winona has some dependence on me. It’s heartwarming that she has feelings for me, but does she really like me?

However, she mustered the courage to confess, so maybe I shouldn’t be thinking about such things.

But what about me in the first place? Do I like Winona? Ahhhhh, I don’t know anymore! It’s the first time I’ve been confessed to in my life!

Well, to be precise, I’ve had something that resembled a confession from my sister when I was a child, but she shouldn’t see me as the opposite sex now. She asked me to forget about the promise we made back then.

“Shion, your expression is all over the place. It’s like a roller coaster of emotions… What’s on your mind?”

My sister, who had somehow taken a seat next to me, peered into my face with a concerned look. We were sitting on the makeshift chairs that Winona had prepared.

Winona seemed busy preparing lunch, while Carla and the Count were engrossed in their usual conversation. Dominic, on the other hand, was earnestly practicing sword swings.

“Uh, yeah. No, it’s nothing.”

“Really? Well, if you say so.”

My sister didn’t press further. Well, that’s how it always was. Whenever I said it was nothing, she wouldn’t ask any more questions. Maybe it’s her consideration and trust in me. She might think, “If he needs to talk, he’ll talk; if not, it’s not something he should talk about.”

My sister is mature. There’s no trace of the childish expressions and behaviors she had in the past. She’s becoming a young woman.

“What’s with that stare of yours?”

“D-Did you notice? I wasn’t staring, was I?”

“Oh, I noticed. Staring so intently. Were you perhaps captivated?”

She grinned mischievously. Feeling a tingling sensation, I turned my face away.

“I wouldn’t be captivated by my own sister.”

“Oh, really? Too bad. I find myself captivated by you, Shion.”

What is she saying, this sister of mine? I was suddenly overwhelmed with agitation, and my body tensed up.

“When I see someone so dedicated to magic, it can be captivating.”

“Oh, I see.”

I felt a bit dejected and dropped my shoulders.

Huh? Why am I feeling down?

“Besides, Shion, you’re kind and cool. It’s only natural to be captivated, right?”

“Oh, being praised too much makes me ticklish.”

“Hehehe, it’s okay to speak your mind a bit. I’m not saying anything negative, after all.”

“Well, that’s true.”

My sister took a blue gem necklace from her pocket and glanced at me. Understanding what she meant, I took a red gem necklace from my pocket. My sister brought her necklace close to mine, and they made a clinking sound.

“Matching.”

There was a radiant smile on her face. It was not the smile of my sister, but the smile of Marie. I lacked composure in the face of such a pure expression I had never seen before. My sister slightly softened her smile and whispered.

“Live as you like, Shion. I love the free-spirited Shion.”

Without fully grasping the meaning, all I could do was nod slowly. Her face seemed to be a mix of both my sister Marie and the girl Marie.

〇●〇

I was walking alone through the streets of Ajolam.

Today is a complete day off.

I really want to conduct research every day, but taking breaks every few days is necessary since everyone would get tired if we didn’t. They won’t take a day off unless I say so. Apparently, it’s common for nobles to work only a few days a week. Despite that, Dominic and the Count accompany me without saying anything. Well, both of them seem to be doing what they want rather than work.

Even so, a break is still necessary.

Of course, for me too.

The main street is bustling with a large number of pedestrians.

A couple, seeming like lovers, entered my peripheral vision.

Their happy and smiling figures are heartwarming, but I can’t feel the same way right now.

It’s about Winona and my sister.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about the two of them.

Winona confessed to me, and my sister said something like a confession.

Winona’s feelings are straightforward, but my sister’s feelings seem to be directed toward me as a brother.

However, I was perplexed by the glimpses of femininity I saw in my sister.

She didn’t seem like her usual self, and I’m filled with anxiety, impatience, and a strange sense of exhilaration.

And then there’s Winona.

She admires me and even confessed to me.

I need to face those feelings.

I like Winona too. Naturally, my sister too.

But I’ve never thought about which one I like, and I wonder what to do even if I accept it.

If I lose my virginity, perhaps I can use magic.

Even if I’m not a virgin, I think there are people who can use magic without being virgins.

… I don’t want to think about whether everyone is a virgin or not, so I don’t want to think about it.

Anyway, even if I’m not a virgin, I might still be able to use magic.

But I’m scared.

In my previous life, I had wanted to use magic for many years, but that wish went unfulfilled, and I died. If, by some chance, I lose the ability to use magic again, I might not be able to go on living. Just imagining it sends shivers down my spine, and I become unable to think about anything.

Moreover, even if I were to graduate from being a virgin and still be able to use magic, I wonder if I would become romantically involved with someone. Winona or my sister?

No, no, my sister probably sees me as her blood-related brother. Both my parents and I have told her that. Even if I were to say now that we’re not actually blood-related, and it’s okay to become lovers, my sister would probably be troubled.

So, is it okay to date Winona then? Surely, it’s not such a simple matter. That’s why I’m agonizing over it so much.

I suddenly think about it. If I promise not to cross that line, the possibility of losing the ability to use magic disappears. In other words, my worries would vanish. If that’s the case, then it should be fine. No, it might not be that easy to come to terms with once you’re in a romantic relationship. I’ve never had a lover. I’ve never liked someone. That’s why I don’t know.

What do I really think about all this?

Do I want to make both of them my lovers? I don’t know. I really don’t know. Ah, I never thought the day would come when I’d be troubled by romantic relationships. I let out a grand sigh, and then my shoulder is patted lightly.

I flinch and timidly turn around.

“Shion-sama. Are you okay?”

A familiar face was there.

Dominic.

“Uh, yeah. I’m fine.”

“Is that so? Your complexion seems a bit off, though.”

“No, it’s not that I’m feeling unwell. I just have something on my mind.”

“I see. Worries, huh? Hmm. Shion-sama, do you have any plans for after this?”

“Huh? Not really.”

“Then, please accompany me.”

Dominic flashed a refreshing smile, and his bright white teeth sparkled.