In a World of Reversed Chastity, I’m Rumored to Be an Easy Bitch (♂) Among Lustful Girls - 46

Chapter 46: I’m Not Consuming Information, I’m Consuming Hirakawa-kun! (Hinayo’s POV)

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◆ Hinayo’s POV

Hirakawa-kun’s location information… Since we had become friends on SENLY… That meant I could keep looking at this location information, right? The fact that he had accepted my friend request meant he had given me the right to do this, right…?

Since that day, I had constantly kept track of Hirakawa-kun’s location. Whenever I had time, I’d open my phone and check where he was. Each time, I’d feel his presence and let out a sigh of relief. But sometimes, that relief was mixed in with that was a sigh of frustration—mostly at myself, for wondering what he was doing.

I had obtained his location information, but I still hadn’t built any kind of solid relationship with Hirakawa-kun. We had done some naughty things once or twice, but that was it. I felt like I’d end up forgotten after a few years.

Even though my feelings were growing this intense, our relationship hadn’t progressed at all. I kind of knew the reason why. I lacked the will to act—overwhelmingly so.

Even though I could see the ideal version of myself I wanted to become, the fear of being disliked by Hirakawa-kun or being looked at strangely by others held me back. The risk brought undying fear to me.

IfI didn’t act, there was no risk. But if I didn’t take on risk, I’d never reach that ideal version of me. Even though I understood that in my head, I had never managed to take that first step.

Then one day, Hirakawa-kun’s location data exactly overlapped with Sotogahama-san’s. From a ramen shop to Found One, then to a public bathhouse. Fujisaki-kun had been with them at first, but in the end, it was just the two of them.

This is so frustrating.

That said, they were at public places, so I didn’t think anything weird happened, but just knowing that he was staying in the same place with Sotogahama-san the whole time made me…

 A thick, black, sludgy emotion began to bubble up from deep within me.

There’s nothing going on, right? Nothing between those two, right? After all, to Sotogahama-san, Hirakawa-kun is just her plaything… In the end, I’ll be the one with him. After all, I’m the one who got his first kiss! Right? Hirakawa-kun is going to be mine, right?

Even though I hadn’t done anything, I still somehow believed Hirakawa-kun would eventually turn toward me. It was only when he got abducted by that female pervert that I realized how bad my passive attitude was.

I had noticed the change in his location and sensed something was off, but in the end, the one who actually took action was still Sotogahama-san.

This is it, isn’t it? This is the part of me that’s no good.

I always assumed I was ahead of everyone else, and before I knew it, I’d lose everything without ever doing anything. The worst parts of me had come out. Everything worked out for the best this time, but there might not be a next time.

I have to change.

A chance came. We went to see a movie together, and a scene came up—just by coincidence.

『I want your child. So I’ll never forget that you were alive.』

『…Hey, can I kiss you?』

『Y-Yeah…』

A deep kiss scene between two very attractive actors. In the heat of the moment, I thought maybe I could try doing something like that too.

Apparently, he thought I was after Fujisaki-kun. I think that misunderstanding had been cleared up, but I still hadn’t told him how I really felt about him. He probably still thought I liked someone else. Maybe he even believed this was just part of my “practice for the future,” like he had once said.

But that was fine by me. I had to take my chance while I could. Besides, I was the one who got his first kiss. I should be allowed to fool him a bit like this.  If that made him dislike me, then maybe that was all I was worth. No matter what, I had to go through with it. I had to act quickly.

“A-Um… Hirakawa-kun.”

“What is it?”

Go! Me! Just let instinct take over!

In the darkness of the movie theater, I stole Hirakawa-kun’s lips. I wanted him so badly I couldn’t take it anymore—I chased after his tongue in a delirious daze.

“S-sorry… I couldn’t stop…”

“I don’t mind, but Nishimeya-san…For you to kiss me that long…. Did it feel that good…?”

“Hau…”

He said he didn’t hate it, and my heart squeezed tight in return. He accepted me. I could feel my body gradually heating up.

“Um… I-I still feel unsatisfied…”

“Yeah, I feel like it’s not enough either. I want to keep kissing Nishimeya-san more.”

For him to say something like that… That means he likes me too, right? We don’t have to stop at kissing anymore, right???

As if responding to those feelings, I felt heat radiating from just below Hirakawa-kun’s stomach.

“Hirakawa-kun…? This…”

“That’s, uh…It’s just a physiological reaction…”

“Just kissing makes it like this, huh… Hirakawa-kun, you’re so naughty…”

“Nn… Wait, I didn’t say you could put your hand in my pants…”

“I-It’s fine… No one’s watching… Hamu…”

At this very moment, Hirakawa-kun was mine. As I stroked him, the heat intensified, and I could tell—he was already at his limit. I wanted more. I wanted all of him.

Before I realized it, I was accepting him with my mouth. In the dim space, I could see the face he made when he felt good. It was so irresistibly wonderful, I wanted to keep it all to myself.

“Haa… haa… That was intense… Sorry, Nishimeya-san…”

“…Nn… There’s so much… So this is what it’s like…”

So this is what Hirakawa-kun tastes like… The taste is very adult… 

My stomach twisted with a sharp ache.

I can’t stop anymore. I can go even further… right?

“Y-You’re still okay, right…? Then how about… If we do a little more practice…?”

We left the movie theater and headed to my house. Our feelings were running high, and as soon as we entered my room, I pushed Hirakawa-kun down on the bed.

“Nishimeya-san… You’re being really aggressive today…”

“I-I-Is that weird…?”

“No, I think it’s exciting. You’re usually so quiet, so the juxtaposition is making my heart race.”

“I-I’ve always been on the receiving end, so I thought I should try to take the lead too… I-I mean, I’m not very assertive, and my body’s not that attractive either… L-Like, my bust size only has a 3cm difference between top and under, you know? I mean, I know size doesn’t matter, but I’ve heard most guys like something in the middle, and if I’m both flat-chested and passive, I’m just a completely boring girl, right? So I thought I should at least try to show a little initiative, and that’s why I let the momentum take over and now we’re doing this, but if you’re not into it at all you can totally stop me, or even leave if you want, I won’t stop you or—”

I mumbled on, spilling excuse after excuse. I sounded downright lame, but Hirakawa-kun gently pulled me into his arms and said:

“You’re not like that at all. You’re really cute, Nishimeya-san.”

“Haah…”

Ugh, seriously… This guy… I can’t win against him.

He might say that to anyone, but despite that, I was honestly happy. Maybe I was easy to win over.

Before I knew it, we were kissing again—long, long kisses that satisfied my craving. The number of condoms I had prepared in the room had decreased. Being on top and taking control… Once I got the hang of it, it felt surprisingly good. I thought I’d try it again sometime—under the guise of “practice.”

Yes, this was “practice” and while we were practicing,  I got to have Hirakawa-kun all to myself.

As long as I could use that excuse, I would.

When would I get to use it again, I wonder? I can’t wait.

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