I Reincarnated as The NTR-ing Scum in an R-18 Doujin, But For Some Reason, The Erotic, Big-Breasted Heroine Keeps Coming on to Me~ - Chapter 8 - My Honest Feelings [Shiratori Himari’s POV]

Chapter 8 – My Honest Feelings [Shiratori Himari’s POV]

One of my classmates is a boy named Goda Akio.

He has dyed his hair bright red and has a tall, muscular build. That alone was enough to give him an intimidating impression, but he was so strong that it was hard to believe he was a high school student, making everyone afraid of him.

It’s not just his appearance that makes him fearful. Even worse rumors solidified the image of the boy named Goda Akio.

Rumor has it that he single-handedly destroyed a group of delinquents at another school. Another rumor has it that he goes out to town at night and devours women.  Rumor has it that he’s involved in criminal activities with an underground organization. Rumors that could not be determined whether they were true or false had shaped the image of a man named Goda Akio.

“If the rumors are true, by now, I’m sure that…”

My beautiful body would have been defiled. I’m sure I wouldn’t have been able to resist being held down by his strong arms.

At night, the memories come flooding back. When I lie on the bed, the scene from that time comes back even more vividly.

Even in front of my naked body, Goda-kun didn’t get flustered at all. But he was definitely aroused, and I was surprised at how much pleasure I got from being looked at as a woman.

“Even though his…thing got so big, Goda-kun remained rational.”

At least he is not the beast that everyone seems to be gossiping about. Even though he was so excited that it almost pierced through his thick fabric pants…he still had the gentleness to encourage me.

“He’s completely different from Junpei-kun.”

Nozaka Junpei-kun. He’s my childhood friend.

He’s a boy I’ve been hanging around with since I was little. He has been with me ever since kindergarten to the present day, and he has inevitably been the boy I interact with the most.

If you asked me my impressions of Junpei-kun, I often said he was like my younger brother who is not related by blood.

That’s why I was so surprised when Junpei-kun confessed to me right after we entered high school.

At the same time, I was convinced.

I vaguely thought that I would date someone someday. If it was Junpei-kun as my first, I thought it would be okay. I knew him well enough to believe he wasn’t a bad person, as we had spent so much time together, almost like siblings.

“Even though I thought he was the kindest of all the boys…I never expected Junpei-kun to say something like that to me.”

Around me, there were people who had already experienced their first times, and I was somewhat optimistic, thinking I had a boyfriend.

However, when I was about to have my first experience with Junpei-kun, he told me that he didn’t like girls with big breasts, and my mind went blank.

As if to confirm his statement, his thing didn’t react at all.

That fact seemed to deny my attractiveness as a woman and seriously hurt my pride. Junpei-kun was always looking at my body with lustful eyes, and I wanted to ask him what that was about.

“Now that I’ve calmed down, I can understand, but…”

After doing some research, it seems that some boys get nervous and can’t get it up during their first time.

If I had known, I wouldn’t have gotten upset. However, Junpei-kun seemed to have panicked at that moment and said something insincere to me.

“Even now that I know, it still hurts.”

Pressing my chest, a soft sensation greeted my touch. I think I’ve grown really well.

My body attracts men’s attention and is admired by women. I take pride in my style, and I’m aware that I’m beautiful.

Precisely because I’m aware that I’m beautiful, I made an effort to be an honor student.

That way, I wouldn’t have to worry about unnecessary jealousy and avoid being hurt. Protecting myself diligently because I’m cute, but when I do get hurt, I end up with more wounds than necessary.

“I wonder what would have happened if Goda-kun were my boyfriend?”

I know it’s a bad delusion. It’s definitely wrong to think about another man when I already have a boyfriend.

Still, I couldn’t help but think about it. I thought he was a violent person, but even though I surrendered my body to him, he gently admonished me.

“Goda-kun, when your face turned bright red like that…you looked so cute♪”

I was used to being called “cute,” but when Goda-kun said that to me, it felt new and refreshing. I could feel my heart heating up.

Goda-kun intrigues me because he is so different from my image of him. Since I had shown my vulnerable side, I wanted him to show me the same.

I want to know more about Goda-kun. It’s a feeling I can’t stop, an overflowing feeling that I can’t resist.

“Maybe it’s about time…”

Because everyone thinks Goda-kun is the most dangerous person in school, nobody dared to ask for his contact information.

But it didn’t matter to me. Because I can’t go against my feelings.

“There’s Himuro-san after all, so I better act quickly.”

I can tell from the way Himuro-san looks at Goda-kun. I’m sure there’s no one who doesn’t realize its meaning. If there is, that person is extremely insensitive.

“I…I have to cut things off with Junpei-kun.”

I want to cherish these feelings that have sprouted for the first time. I am sure that Junpei-kun will understand. He is my childhood friend, after all.

I touched myself on the bed, while trying to sort out my feelings. After venting out my passion and thinking about it with a calmer head, my feelings still did not change.

“Hello, Junpei-kun? Can we talk for a bit?”

I can’t lie about my feelings any longer. That’s why I called Junpei-kun.

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