I Reincarnated as The NTR-ing Scum in an R-18 Doujin, But For Some Reason, The Erotic, Big-Breasted Heroine Keeps Coming on to Me~ - Chapter 63 - Kurobane Rino Gives in to Fate [Kurobane Rino’s POV]
Chapter 63 – Kurobane Rino Gives in to Fate [Kurobane Rino’s POV]
I, Kurobane Rino, is a plain girl. I understand best myself that I am thought of that way.
No boys would even look at someone like me. Knowing that from experience, I find myself longing for it in my heart.
“I want a lover…”
I’m plain, shy, and quiet. Even though I’m a bit passive, I have the normal desires of an adolescent girl.
“Junpei-kun and I have decided to go out together.”
Immediately after entering high school, Himari-chan made such a report to me.
“Wow! Congratulations, Himari-chan!”
While expressing my congratulations, I couldn’t help but think that Himari-chan, being beautiful, could easily get a boyfriend. Because of my twisted heart, I didn’t notice that she wasn’t any happier, and it was just as usual.
While pretending to have no interest in boys, I was very curious inside. I think it’s because my father died when I was young. I had never been exposed to masculine strength, so I must be seeking it.
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“Goda-kun, there’s a sports festival executive committee meeting starting right after school today, so I’ll be counting on you.”
“Yeah. Likewise, looking forward to it.”
Despite his tough face, he had a genuine smile on his face, and my heart fluttered.
Goda Akio. A famous delinquent in our school. I, too, was afraid of his violent and rough atmosphere.
…That was supposed to be the case, but I don’t know since when, but the scary feeling from Goda-kun had completely disappeared.
I heard about Goda-kun from both Himari-chan and Nozaka-kun. Both opinions were different, so I decided to contact him to assess the real Goda-kun for my best friend’s sake.
“…Goda-kun, you’re really serious about participating in school events.”
“Well, I’m a student too.”
“Ah, I’m sorry. That’s not what I meant…”
“I know. I’m also aware of what others think of me.”
“No, I…”
“My evaluation is based on my own experience. From now on, I want to work on various things seriously so that I can change others’ perception of me even a little.”
I was surprised when Goda-kun volunteered to be on the sports festival executive committee.
And when I saw him trying to change himself, I was even more surprised.
At the sports festival executive committee meetings, he actively offered his opinions and worked diligently on the preparations. And when it came to the actual performance…Goda-kun did a great job and was really cool.
“This gap is unfair…”
“Kurobane? Why are you grabbing your chest? Are you feeling unwell? Come on, I’ll take you to the infirmary.”
“No, it’s okay! It’s nothing!”
“Really? Well, if that’s the case, then it’s okay.”
Furthermore, he was also kind. Even though he has a big body, it was so kind of him to bend over to me out of concern… I couldn’t help but feel my heart skip a beat uncontrollably.
I’ll confess. Despite saying I was assessing him, I had developed feelings for Goda-kun.
But even so, I couldn’t confess. I know I’m not attractive. I was afraid of failing to confess and losing his kindness.
“I told you, right? Right now, I like Akio-kun. There’s nothing strange about making lunch to appeal to someone you like, is there?”
…And there’s Himari-chan.
Himari-chan is cute. Everyone says so, and she seems confident in her appearance, confidently appealing to Goda-kun.
That’s impossible for me… Surely someone as plain as me wouldn’t even catch Goda-kun’s eye, and above all, he’s the person Himari-chan likes. I didn’t have the courage to appeal to him next to her.
So I gave up. That’s how it always is, and it shouldn’t have been a problem at all.
“I have to give up, but…”
My feelings overflowed in bed, wetting the pillow with tears.
I have to admit, I’m quite fickle when it comes to falling in love. Maybe it’s not evident on my face since no one seems to notice. My friends even think I’m not interested in romance.
My feelings flare up easily and fade just as quickly. Rather than fading though, it’s more like I give up…
But this time, my feelings didn’t fade easily. I wondered why, and it quickly became clear to me.
“Goda-kun… He smiles at me…”
You might think it’s such a trivial thing. Nevertheless, it deeply affected me. Boys always treat me with indifference, and compared to their treatment of Himari-chan, I feel like they’re saying I’m not even a girl…
“I wish Goda-kun would smile at me more…”
My chest tightened.
If it brings me such pain and sadness, I should quickly give up on this kind of love. Holding onto unrequited love will only hurt myself.
I thought the summer break was a good opportunity. If I don’t see Goda-kun for a long time, I’m sure my feelings will fade.
“Are you okay, Kurobane? Leave the heavy things to me, you should do something lighter.”
“E-eh, what!? T-thank you, Goda-kun…”
…Even though that’s what I had thought, I immediately came face to face with Goda-kun.
I thought that if I kept myself busy with something, I would quickly forget my feelings for Goda-kun. I never imagined that I’d meet him at my part-time job.
“Summer break is the time to earn money. I want to work as much as possible.”
I deceived him by saying something I didn’t mean. Goda-kun probably has no idea that I’m troubled because of my feelings for him…
“Why is Goda-kun doing this part-time job?”
“The hourly wage was good. I did it because I wanted to earn money to hang out.”
“Ahaha, I guess you’re going out to play with Himari-chan.”
“Yeah, something like that.”
Even though it was just a casual question, the answer stung my heart.
Yeah… I already knew… It wasn’t unexpected.
Goda-kun and Himari-chan have been chatting more often in the classroom. I wouldn’t be surprised if they ended up dating.
“Well, if we have the chance, let’s hang out together. I’m sure Himari will be happy too.”
“Yes. If we have a chance.”
Goda-kun invited me with a smile. This person is also cruel… My eyes started to feel moist, but my unfashionable glasses hid it for me.
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I managed to finish the part-time job and thought that I would never run into Goda-kun again during summer vacation.
“Goda-kun and I are together again.”
“Maybe I have some kind of connection with you, Kurobane.”
…However, he and I overlapped at another part-time job.
Is this a test from God? Hey God, could you please show your face for a moment? …Let me hit you.
Furthermore, this traffic survey work was to be done in pairs. Chatting calmly while sitting side-by-side with Goda-kun…it was very fun.
“…So, Goda-kun, which one is your favorite, Himari-chan or Himuro-san?”
Perhaps due to the excitement of being with the person you like and the summer heat, my guard may have slipped. I asked him a blunt question.
After I said it out loud, I thought, “I’m done for!” But it was something I had been curious about…so I didn’t back down from asking the question.
“Well, both Himari and Haaya are beautiful.”
“Yeah, they are. Maybe it’s better for both of them if you date them both.”
“…Huh?”
“Eh?”
…Ehh? Just now, what did I just say?
Eeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh~~~!!!! What have I just said?!!!!
“Umm, is it okay with Kurobane? If I date both Himari and Haaya…”
Look, Goda-kun is confused! Arghhh, I want to hide in a hole right now~…
“Well, of course some people would dislike it, but there are guys like that at our school too, you know? I’ve heard that wealthy guys often have multiple women around them, so as long as they’re happy and have the capacity for it, isn’t it okay?”
“……”
Still, I didn’t correct myself.
I wanted to be loved by Goda-kun, even if he has two or even three girlfriends… My desire-filled heart was moving my mouth to try and break down Goda-kun’s ethics.
It’s not like I’m lying… Not a lot of people live that way, but it’s not a lie, so it’s okay, right?
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…I’m starting to think that I don’t have to go against this fate anymore.
After I finished my part-time job surveying traffic, I received a phone call from Himari-chan. Her request was to let Goda-kun stay at my house.
“…Eh?”
My head went blank. However, my mouth was moving on its own and I agreed to let Goda-kun stay at my house.
I felt like I was losing it. Despite such feelings, I started cleaning with a calm attitude.
Goda-kun is coming to my house!! And just when mom is busy with work?!! When did this world turn into a manga?!!
I cleaned the whole house because I wanted there to be no dirty spots. I don’t even clean this much in the year-end big cleaning.
In the meantime, Himari-chan, who arrived earlier, helped me prepare to welcome Goda-kun. She arranged the spare room to be used exclusively for Goda-kun.
“I didn’t know Rino-chan was such a neat freak. I might have just found out for the first time.”
Himari-chan said that casually. Even though she’s bringing the person she likes to my house…she’s way too relaxed about this!
“W-w-welcome…”
And then finally, Himari-chan really brought Goda-kun along.
“Rino-chan, I’ll leave Akio-kun to you.”
“Y-yes… Leave him to me…”
Furthermore, Himari-chan tried to quickly leave with Himuro-san, leaving Goda-kun and I on our own.
“…I got it. I might end up relying on you for a few days, but I’ll be counting on you.”
“Yes. I’m not very experienced, but please take care of me.”
Inviting Goda-kun into the house, his large, sturdy body entered.
Perhaps because we were indoors, the scent of Goda-kun’s sweat wafted in. Feeling dizzy, I was already losing confidence in my ability to control myself.
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