I Risked My Life To Save The Cheeky Girl, And As A Result, I Lost My Right Arm. - Chapter 2.2: Ways Of Atonement. (Part 2)

Ways Of Atonement. (Part 2)

I don’t know.

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know.

What should I do?!

A chill ran down my spine, so cold that it made my skin crawl. No matter how tightly I wrapped myself in blankets or how much hot tea I drank, this cold wouldn’t go away.

I tried to close my eyes and sleep to escape from this chill, but no matter what I did, the moment kept flashing back in my mind.

“Thud!”

The dull sound when my senpai was hit by the car. Then, seeing him lying face down on the ground, covered in blood.

The sound of the ambulance sirens, and people around us panicking.

Every time I recalled it, my heart raced, as if someone was squeezing it tightly. A feeling of suffocation, as if my heart was being gripped in someone’s hand.

“Uwaaa… UWAAA….”

My face was wet with tears and snot. My voice was hoarse, but I couldn’t help it.

“…Senpai.”

Senpai, with a pained expression, looked at me and rubbed my back with his left hand.

“Why!? Why are you being so kind to me!?”

“…”

“It’s because of me that Senpai, you lost your arm! It’s my fault!”

“…”

“Why is it always like this? Why do I always mess with you, and… Uwaaaaaa, because of that, the accident happened!”

“…”

“Senpai, I really, really, I’m so sorry! I’ve always relied on you because you’re so kind! I always thought you’d forgive me, even when I played tricks on you!”

“…”

“And because of that, I made you suffer! I’m so sorry! I just… I wish I could die!”

That’s right… Senpai was always kind.

He was a kind person.

“If you’d like, I can give you some candy.”

The first day I joined the student council, Senpai noticed that I was nervous, so he gave me some candy.

But Senpai, being clumsy, dropped the bag with the candy in it, spilling all the candies on the floor.

“Ugh, this is the worst!” Senpai sighed, and seeing him like that, I couldn’t help but giggle. It made me feel a bit more relaxed.

Since then, Senpai always looked out for me. Whenever I was in trouble, I relied on Senpai.

And because of that, I began to want more attention from Senpai… I started teasing him a lot.

“Senpai, you’re such a dork! ♡”

“You jerk! You’re so mean!”

It was cute when Senpai would get angry, and I always found myself teasing him.

Because Senpai was there, every day was fun…

“Hey! Senpai! What should I do? What should I do!? Will you ever forgive me!?”

“……………”

Senpai gently patted me on the back and, with a sad smile, answered me.

“I know it’s hard not to blame yourself right now, but I think the best thing is for you to find the way that makes you feel most at peace.”

“……………”

“But please, don’t hurt yourself. That will only make both of us sad.”

“……………”

I, after hearing Senpai’s words, fell into deep thought for a while.

The way that would make me feel at peace…

I had always thought that the only options were either to die or to cut off my right arm, that I had to choose between offering my life or sharing Senpai’s fate.

But Senpai had said I should not hurt myself. So, what should I do now?

“……………”

I tightly clenched the fist resting on my knee.

“…Senpai, I’ve made up my mind.”

“Yeah?”

“I will live the rest of my life for you, Senpai.”

“Eh?”

“I will dedicate my life to you. 24 hours a day, 365 days a year… always, always by your side. I will be your support, the substitute for your lost right arm.”

“……………”

“And then… and then… one day,”

──I will definitely die for you Senpai.